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WaitingForTheBusInTh
Student
- Nov 18, 2020
- 174
Today was a bad day. I was about to go to the pet store for my rabbit when he had a seizure. He died on the way to the emergency vet.
I've spoken to my roommate about my desire to ctb, and when I mentioned that I had ordered the stuff I plan to use if/when I do, she started crying. She wont tell anyone because she knows how much I dont want to go to a psych ward. I wish i hadn't told her anything but it was a weak moment and I forgot my filter.
I've put her in a bad spot between wanting me around vs respecting my wishes and I dont plan to discuss anything further with her but boy do I feel awful
I'm torn between making friends and family hurt vs the amount of pain I go through by being here
I've spoken to my roommate about my desire to ctb, and when I mentioned that I had ordered the stuff I plan to use if/when I do, she started crying. She wont tell anyone because she knows how much I dont want to go to a psych ward. I wish i hadn't told her anything but it was a weak moment and I forgot my filter.
I've put her in a bad spot between wanting me around vs respecting my wishes and I dont plan to discuss anything further with her but boy do I feel awful
I'm torn between making friends and family hurt vs the amount of pain I go through by being here