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hfdepression30

hfdepression30

Experienced
Mar 30, 2021
236
"If you can't beat the fear, then do it scared"

Just came across this quote on IG - most people would look at this as an empowerment quote about life and living, but when I first read it I apply it to my thoughts about CTB. Every time I go to attempt or practice, I always give in to the fear and stop. I'm not stopping because there's a reason or something to live for. I'm just scared of the short moments of suffering before death - quick and painless isn't realistic for a lot of people, and the mortality of most methods (maybe excluding SN) is lower than hanging so it seems more reliable for me.

I need to suck it up and stop being so weak. I need to just do it scared if I can't beat the fear.
 
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JustAMatterOfTime

JustAMatterOfTime

Fragile
Mar 21, 2021
905
I find si is different to regular fear. It is like a lower state, another trick in your brain's book. Even the most terrified I have ever been in my life is different to it.
 
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sunsetintehwoods

sunsetintehwoods

Same rules apply
Feb 22, 2021
128
yeah, in Russia we have something like "Eyes are scared but hands are doing". It's kinda works with ordinary stuff. But till CBT so complex and is irrational it can't be applied so easy.

btw, for me, avdpish, it's more looks like "Eyes are scared, brain think how to avoid, and hands are trembling, I need may be 50 hours to get prepared"
 
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UterEntonaur

UterEntonaur

Specialist
Aug 17, 2020
340
Just came across this quote on IG - most people would look at this as an empowerment quote about life and living, but when I first read it I apply it to my thoughts about CTB
I'm glad I'm not the only one who's noticed double-meanings to a lot of "empowering/aspiring" quotes on there.

Considering that jumping from Beachy Head is my Plan Z, this one always makes me laugh....
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,750
I feel too weak and I lack the courage for ctb. It is certainly the right thing for me. It is difficult as we are programmed to survive after all. I think if there was a guaranteed peaceful exit then I would be able to leave right now. I do believe eventually I will get desperate enough. I think as humans we naturally want to avoid pain and discomfort.
 
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