ladidabi
Losing all hope is freedom.
- Mar 19, 2023
- 48
'm trying to quit Quetiapine. I'm following doctors orders in terms of stepping down, but i feel that the attempt of gradually tapering is rough - i went from 200mg to 100mg, starting last friday. I take 100mg daily. It's been a week since starting and it's torture.
Now I went down to 100mg, again, from 200mg, I experience this: Sudden hypotension (this is from my own assumptions) - Symptoms I experience, which is assume is a result of that;
* Rapid heartbeat
* Confusion
* Nausea
* Blurry vision
* Syncope
* Worsened cold sweat during sleep ( I started getting it when I was on 200mg)
I am unable to work for the time being, and am therefore on sick leave. I am not looking forward to coming back to work, as I have to deal with nagging, bright lights, loud noises and either too hot, or too cold of an office. This genuinely fills me with hatred, and makes me want to just want to slit my wrists and bleed out in a hot shower.
Being told my symptoms will worsen as I'm going with this makes me feel hopeless. I feel my old, painful thoughts are creeping back, and I'm losing myself again. Speaking of losing myself - I am experiencing time disorientation. I have yet to make sense of the fact that I checked the time before going to shower, it was like 22.05. This shower is one of those that normally take me 15 minutes. I walk out the shower to witness the clock showing 01.00. My heart sunk when I saw the time, and I started crying. It was the first time in a while where I felt a different kind of fear. It's the kind that feels like someone is hunting you down or stalking you.
I'm trying to hold out best I can, but I feel incredibly sensitive to relapsing in sh. I don't want to go anywhere, I just want to rot. I can't believe I was so desperate to put myself on this treatment, and now I'm backing out - having to deal with a painful tapering, both physically and mentally.
As I'm writing this, I'm getting blurred vision, so I'm ending it here.
Now I went down to 100mg, again, from 200mg, I experience this: Sudden hypotension (this is from my own assumptions) - Symptoms I experience, which is assume is a result of that;
* Rapid heartbeat
* Confusion
* Nausea
* Blurry vision
* Syncope
* Worsened cold sweat during sleep ( I started getting it when I was on 200mg)
I am unable to work for the time being, and am therefore on sick leave. I am not looking forward to coming back to work, as I have to deal with nagging, bright lights, loud noises and either too hot, or too cold of an office. This genuinely fills me with hatred, and makes me want to just want to slit my wrists and bleed out in a hot shower.
Being told my symptoms will worsen as I'm going with this makes me feel hopeless. I feel my old, painful thoughts are creeping back, and I'm losing myself again. Speaking of losing myself - I am experiencing time disorientation. I have yet to make sense of the fact that I checked the time before going to shower, it was like 22.05. This shower is one of those that normally take me 15 minutes. I walk out the shower to witness the clock showing 01.00. My heart sunk when I saw the time, and I started crying. It was the first time in a while where I felt a different kind of fear. It's the kind that feels like someone is hunting you down or stalking you.
I'm trying to hold out best I can, but I feel incredibly sensitive to relapsing in sh. I don't want to go anywhere, I just want to rot. I can't believe I was so desperate to put myself on this treatment, and now I'm backing out - having to deal with a painful tapering, both physically and mentally.
As I'm writing this, I'm getting blurred vision, so I'm ending it here.
