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Genetic
Finding My Way
- Dec 5, 2023
- 5
I've searched and considered many methods of CTB over the years and to be honest: The risk of waking up permanently damaged scares me a lot. Anything regarding asphyxiation is out of the question, I could never choose that method. I don't want to wrist-slit because I don't want to survive it and have horrid scars/fucked up muscle tendons on what is effectively the very things I use every day. I would also highly consider a method that keeps me intact and recognisable after death, the death alone would be traumatizing to the person finding me, It won't help them if I'm mangled either. As a result, I thought of the method: Severing my carotid arteries by stabbing myself in the neck.
A little while ago back in 2022 a video went around my school of a fight that broke out in the city where a man was surprised with a knife attack and got stabbed in the neck. It didn't even look brutal, it was just a quick, swift stab and it actually looked more like a punch. Any who, within seconds the person grabs their neck and collapses to the ground and seemingly dies fairly quickly. And that is where I've gained somewhat of an idea of my method.
While it's horrible to gain inspiration from such a terrible event, I personally have gained a bit of reassurance that there might be a method I can consider. I plan to mark the carotid artery on either side of my neck, get high or drunk (enough though as to not challenge my accuracy) and then use a knife to try and jab and sever the artery, and if not on both sides then just one. After all is said and done I'm hoping to bleed in the bathtub (easy cleanup) or out in the backyard on an afternoon so I can take in the weather one more time (leaning more towards this option though).
While I have been in this forum for a year, I am still new to internet interactions and my experience here pales in comparison to that of the rest of you: I'd appreciate any form of input about what I've said, be it positive or negative. Thank you
A little while ago back in 2022 a video went around my school of a fight that broke out in the city where a man was surprised with a knife attack and got stabbed in the neck. It didn't even look brutal, it was just a quick, swift stab and it actually looked more like a punch. Any who, within seconds the person grabs their neck and collapses to the ground and seemingly dies fairly quickly. And that is where I've gained somewhat of an idea of my method.
While it's horrible to gain inspiration from such a terrible event, I personally have gained a bit of reassurance that there might be a method I can consider. I plan to mark the carotid artery on either side of my neck, get high or drunk (enough though as to not challenge my accuracy) and then use a knife to try and jab and sever the artery, and if not on both sides then just one. After all is said and done I'm hoping to bleed in the bathtub (easy cleanup) or out in the backyard on an afternoon so I can take in the weather one more time (leaning more towards this option though).
While I have been in this forum for a year, I am still new to internet interactions and my experience here pales in comparison to that of the rest of you: I'd appreciate any form of input about what I've said, be it positive or negative. Thank you