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TooConscious
Enlightened
- Sep 16, 2020
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I have experienced fits that have been so strong that my shoulders have dislocated and one even ripped off the socket.
My question is, does our mind disassociate from this once it's over?....
Because let's be honest someone like me who's at risk of being a complete invalid if my shoulders break again wouldn't even bother attempting to continue for a minute especially since I get no help whatsoever from scumbag doctors or disability. Arthritis and osteoporosis all through my 20's.
But I don't remember these things that have wreaked havoc with my physical and emotional health. But every now and then I get what feels like a memory, a very brief 'flashback episode' of my muscles contracting and me trying to fight them to stay in position.....
And I wonder if this is memory of what a seizure feels like, or is it something horrible and randm my minds created in its infinite capacity to add suffering on to an already tortured soul. God it's a shit deal to be human
My question is, does our mind disassociate from this once it's over?....
Because let's be honest someone like me who's at risk of being a complete invalid if my shoulders break again wouldn't even bother attempting to continue for a minute especially since I get no help whatsoever from scumbag doctors or disability. Arthritis and osteoporosis all through my 20's.
But I don't remember these things that have wreaked havoc with my physical and emotional health. But every now and then I get what feels like a memory, a very brief 'flashback episode' of my muscles contracting and me trying to fight them to stay in position.....
And I wonder if this is memory of what a seizure feels like, or is it something horrible and randm my minds created in its infinite capacity to add suffering on to an already tortured soul. God it's a shit deal to be human