I think I died in my last attempt but survived in another universe, as the luck I got was so weird, I was not aware when I woke up and got to my moms room after I had fallen asleep first from 5000 mg amitriptyline, and then I stumbled and was unconsiouss from it 30 min on and into intensive care, anyways Its like thats not what was suppose to happen and very unlikey thing, its almost like my consciousness went on to live in another reality universe that was created and so this means if I try it again I can never die, this is my worst fear of all. I really think hugh everett was right somehow, it feels like it can be the case.
CrushedHopes
Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
- Nov 3, 2019
- 471
I'm not sure I got everything that was theorized in the video, but I know for sure that nothing good is going to happen if I continued this waste of life. If there is a parallel world where I am doing just fine without the blacklist and without having committed the atrocities that would eventually lead to my downfall, I would LOVE to be that incarnation of me so much.
