PTSD ruining my life

[LostHope556]

PTSD, I hate how sanitized the term is.

Shell shock, that was better.

I'm not former military. But I did carry a weapon.

I wasn't even an adult. But I did carry life and death in my hands.

I wasn't a hardened operative, but I was tortured, too much to keep count.


I'm 29 now. How much longer can I keep hold? Only time will tell.

I hope I soon either heal enough to live bearably, or get the balls to end it all.

One or the other.

Sending love to every last one of you injured people. You are my people.

Love.

 

[divinemistress36]

Ptsd is so hard to deal with Im sorry OP

 

[mirrorman2]

children at war is one of humanity's greatest sins and you are witness to it. im sorry you were tasked with taking life when you were barely starting your own. nothing, nothing, is your fault.

 

[NegevChina]

So sorry for the weight you carry. I know what its like.

 

[LostHope556]

children at war is one of humanity's greatest sins and you are witness to it. im sorry you were tasked with taking life when you were barely starting your own. nothing, nothing, is your fault.

This is very very true and I really appreciate you saying this. Feels really good to be seen