Psychiatrist... how is it to be there?

[Totally_nothin]

the thing is how they are and times when i was normal person without feeling which I have 24/7 are gone... as a first thing, I wanna say sorry for my english because its my second language, anyway, I hope u will understand this text. I am depressed for a long time, having deep thoughts about suicide and etc, that is just fact and I learned to live with it. anyway, I feel that one day I just go to somewhere and do something what I would not be able to return. I would like to go to psychiatrist, just someone who could listen to me and help me. somebody to who I could tell how I feel and that I think that I am Bipolar, it can sound funny by I have mood switches, usually when Happy I am off from here, when bad I return to here... make them test me, give me pills, anything what would help. anyway even through that heart is telling me that I should go there the fear which settled inside my brain keep scaring me... I am scared of comming to someone and telling them about something what only one my best friend know and try to help me as much as they can. Two people against my world in my head is anyway just... its already lose battle and I see it, I wanna ask anyone, literally anyone how did their first visit went, u can write just one word like "good" or "it was good" or write whole story minute by minute, in every case I will gladly read it and happy about it... so please, if there is somebody who is willing to tell me about their first visit, do it and help to person from Czech republic who is scared

 

[final]

Hi,
It's been a long time but if you're still there and haven´t gone already, I'll tell you some things that might be useful. Starting when I was a teenager I went to the psychatrist for anxiety, and particularly when I got into a severe state of depression I was hospitalized. From years of great suffering and having been thrown into the awful world of psychiatry I can tell you this: you don't need to be scared of them. In the worst case scenario you'll meet someone who doesn't humanely recieve you and your situation, and in the best, you'll meet someone who does, and you'll be able to tell the difference. By all means, you should ask them anything you need or want to know, without filter. Psychatrists are originally supposed to have understanding of the human psyche, and hopefully be humane. Nowadays it's difficult to find someone like that, but not impossible. It's very common of them to just prescribe drugs for what they understand theoretically and be detached. In any case, if you feel there's an understanding and trust between you, they might be able to help you go through your states, and maybe move through your challanges in life. It all depends on the relationship.
Concerning psychopharmaceuticals, they are a very double edged sword and something to be very careful with, and bare in mind the psychiatrist might be oblivious to this, You have to state your ground, express all your concerns about side effects and make sure you'll be supported through the process of getting on them AS WELL AS getting off of them, which can be very very difficult.
The most important of all is the communication and the one thing they should be doing well and openly, it's what their job is supposed to be.

 

[Totally_nothin]

okay, I understand and really thank you, I know that it usually depends on person who I will meet but u made me at least a little calmer