Yomyom
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- Feb 5, 2020
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Please Describe what has led you to try Psychedelics/other drugs, and what was the amount you took (if you still remember)
If you tried DMT please describe specifically what you saw and felt
If you tried mushrooms describe how the journey was and if the mushrooms gave you any advices
If you tried ketamine- did you remember anything? How it's felt to be disconnected
For years I wanted to try drugs, especially mushrooms, I wanted to meet god, and ask him for miracle, but it didn't worked as I planned....
when I got 18 I tried for the first time weed, with a friend (we smoked it) and nothing really happened, I was so disappointed, couple of months later I bought a vaporizer and in the one night I enter the weed into the vaporizer and took a couple of full big inhale, and lay down on the bed, I watched comedy show and suddenly I started noticed that my Awareness comes and goes (I don't know exactly how to explain it) I was so scared, so freaked out I started jumping on the floor just to kept my Awareness, it was so traumatic, in the end I gave up on trying keep my awareness and went to sleep.
After some time I wanted to try again, I thought that maybe if I just give up to the feeling and let the awareness go the experience will be amazing.
It wasn't amazing, but when I tried it again it was fine, same feeling but with out the freak out.
After that i tried it again couple of times, for me it wasn't really worth trying it, and its only got my Derealization worse
maybe it just me but I don't understand why people want to smoke that crup and it taste worse than nembutal (my assumption)
After the weed I wanted to try Psychedelic drugs, so I bought DMT, changa and mushrooms.
I wanted to try the mushrooms but the effects going too long, so I took DMT 10 minutes and it's over.
I bought 0.5 gram, but I don't remember how much I put in my vaporizer I think around 0.2 gram.
I took half big inhale and I felt that my throat are clutching, it was like I in a Roller Coaster, that moment was the scariest in my life, I was so afraid to lose my reality, to lose my personality, so I turned off the vaporizer drank a lot of tea and water and all the effects stopped
At no point were there hallucinations or illuminations!
After that bad experience I threw out to the Garbage all my drugs (mushrooms changa and the DMT)
I thought about trying legal drugs because my sleeping problems
I bought wild dagga, blue lotus, canna and lucid dream tea.
the blue lotus and the lucid dream tea was in some point very helpful for a short time. couple of weeks ago I mixed up all this drugs and put out some weed (don't remember the amount), I felt so Light fluent
And I was so scared because I have a huge height fear, I held so much in my mattress because I was sure I was dropping from a plane
my last try was diazepam 5 mg, took it to fall asleep, and for one day all my problems Gone, my sleep was fine but nothing more, my Derealization got worse and my breath got slower (probably because my sleep apnea).
After two days that I stopped using it I felt so worthless
My only conclusion from those experiences is that if you're not a stable person your experience will be one big shit
If you tried DMT please describe specifically what you saw and felt
If you tried mushrooms describe how the journey was and if the mushrooms gave you any advices
If you tried ketamine- did you remember anything? How it's felt to be disconnected
For years I wanted to try drugs, especially mushrooms, I wanted to meet god, and ask him for miracle, but it didn't worked as I planned....
when I got 18 I tried for the first time weed, with a friend (we smoked it) and nothing really happened, I was so disappointed, couple of months later I bought a vaporizer and in the one night I enter the weed into the vaporizer and took a couple of full big inhale, and lay down on the bed, I watched comedy show and suddenly I started noticed that my Awareness comes and goes (I don't know exactly how to explain it) I was so scared, so freaked out I started jumping on the floor just to kept my Awareness, it was so traumatic, in the end I gave up on trying keep my awareness and went to sleep.
After some time I wanted to try again, I thought that maybe if I just give up to the feeling and let the awareness go the experience will be amazing.
It wasn't amazing, but when I tried it again it was fine, same feeling but with out the freak out.
After that i tried it again couple of times, for me it wasn't really worth trying it, and its only got my Derealization worse
maybe it just me but I don't understand why people want to smoke that crup and it taste worse than nembutal (my assumption)
After the weed I wanted to try Psychedelic drugs, so I bought DMT, changa and mushrooms.
I wanted to try the mushrooms but the effects going too long, so I took DMT 10 minutes and it's over.
I bought 0.5 gram, but I don't remember how much I put in my vaporizer I think around 0.2 gram.
I took half big inhale and I felt that my throat are clutching, it was like I in a Roller Coaster, that moment was the scariest in my life, I was so afraid to lose my reality, to lose my personality, so I turned off the vaporizer drank a lot of tea and water and all the effects stopped
At no point were there hallucinations or illuminations!
After that bad experience I threw out to the Garbage all my drugs (mushrooms changa and the DMT)
I thought about trying legal drugs because my sleeping problems
I bought wild dagga, blue lotus, canna and lucid dream tea.
the blue lotus and the lucid dream tea was in some point very helpful for a short time. couple of weeks ago I mixed up all this drugs and put out some weed (don't remember the amount), I felt so Light fluent
And I was so scared because I have a huge height fear, I held so much in my mattress because I was sure I was dropping from a plane
my last try was diazepam 5 mg, took it to fall asleep, and for one day all my problems Gone, my sleep was fine but nothing more, my Derealization got worse and my breath got slower (probably because my sleep apnea).
After two days that I stopped using it I felt so worthless
My only conclusion from those experiences is that if you're not a stable person your experience will be one big shit
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