Help Psych ward

[taiberjames]

It's been couple of month since I left my country and took a plane to my parents, so they could help me with deppression.

I feel like a Trojan horse, since all this time here I'm just planning ctb.
I bought a rope, but still couldn't find the right Isolated spot, and bit sure I can take the leap..
was so sure about ctb, I was really sure I could do it this time but I now I don't know anymore.
Really regret I didn't ctb back then when I were a soldier and had a gun.. would have been way easier!

today I started wondering about discussing with my parents or therapist about getting hospitalized,
But I'm so scared to even bring it up , yet alone to actually go..

Would like to hear your experience in the mental hospital as well as talking to your parents about ctb thoughts

 

[SVEN]

I so hope you do well, whatever your ultimate decisiins.

 

[sadnow11]

My stay in a mental ward was chill but boring

If you are in a lot of pain because of your thoughts might not be ideal for you since you'll struggle with your thoughts a lot apart from the few times you see doctors.

You will however get the right treatment and care you deserve.

Good luck.

 

[taiberjames]

My stay in a mental ward was chill but boring

If you are in a lot of pain because of your thoughts might not be ideal for you since you'll struggle with your thoughts a lot apart from the few times you see doctors.

You will however get the right treatment and care you deserve.

Good luck.

For how long you stayed there? Did it help?

 

[liljeep]

I was involuntarily committed to psych wards about 4 times, and hated it everytime. 3 of them had to do with CTB attempts and the other 1 had to do with an unintentional overdose that was so recent to my last CTB attempt, that they believed I needed to go.

Everyone has different experiences. It's mainly group therapy, playing board games, TV, and waiting around to eat. Since you would be entering voluntarily, you should be allowed to leave when you want to, but in some states this is not the case. As in, they can change your status to involuntary and keep you there until they deem you safe to leave.

I didn't have access to individual therapy any of the times I went, only nurses and the psychiatrist because they believe medication is the primary answer to suicidal ideation / depression.

The people you meet there can be very nice and understanding though. Talking to peers who are going through similar struggles unfiltered can be a lot more helpful than a professional who addresses you in a very sanitized, instructive way. I liked talking to older people about my experiences, it was comforting.

However doctors and nurses can be abusive and downright neglectful. If you struggle with psychosis or behavioral outbursts I really don't recommend going, they do sometimes restrain and inject patients with antipsychotics or benzos against their will if they deem it necessary.

Maybe look around at nearby psych hospitals, read the reviews, and call and ask about patient rights. Read their website. Pick the best one, even if it's a bit of a drive. Oh, and call a family member regularly. Make complaints to the nurses whenever you need to, whether you can't sleep, they're not providing snacks or adequate meals, etc... food was the worst at every ward I went to.

As for talking to parents about CTB thoughts, I have no experience. They just find out when I attempt and don't talk to me about it. Have they been understanding in the past about emotional struggles?

 

[loyalskateboard]

Imo, if you are having thoughts about being hospitalised, it's worth a try. Certain facilities are better than others so l suggest asking your therapist what they recommend. Some wards will offer group therapy and individual therapy. Any ward could help change your meds if needed. There are staff members 24/7 and of course you will be safe while admitted. Usually people spend the day colouring, watching tv, or playing cards.

It can be really hard to tell your parents. I struggle with talking to my mother. In the end, if they are supportive, they would rather know than wake up and find out that you're dead. There might be a lot of tears, and it will be very emotional, but it's for the best.

 

[sadnow11]

For how long you stayed there? Did it help?

2 weeks and no it didn't help.

 

[hope1]

It's worth a try to seek all the possible help available including hospitalisation if you feel there is even a small chance this could help. Surely it's worth a shot?

 

[suicidaleeyore]

I've had many stays in a psych ward. From 1 day till 6 months. Also a 9 month residential admission at a clinic that was recovery focused rather than acute care. Where I live hospital is more to keep you safe while you're most at risk rather than fixing the problem - that gets done in therapy in the community once you're stable enough to do so. the acute admissions have kept me alive, out of the crisis but it is never a long term fix. Technically right now if I told my team my plans to end my life tomorrow I'd be put back in hospital but it's a never ending cycle for me.