deathlamp
creature made of clay
- Jul 7, 2022
- 16
i forgot how triggering for my eating disorder it is 2 be in here. being around othr girls who r visibly very underweight leads 2 me comparing myself a lot and missing restriction. i feel like a pig eating and cant deal w eating in front of others. seeing girls like da 1s in here makes me stop believing i deserve recovery bc i was nevr as sick. dont get me wrong i was underweight and doing stupidly low restriction but im not anymore and it feels horrible. ive been able 2 keep da thoughts at bay an keep eating but dis is getting very difficult 4 me now dat im in here. im scared.