fluorine.uranium.99

fluorine.uranium.99

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I'm going to OD on propranolol in a couple months. Been stockpiling it. I get 40 mg most days. Today I'm at 2710 mg. My goal is 3.4+ mg. Most likely will do it when it's 4.5g. I'm 5'2, 100 lbs, 18 years old. My hr and bp is already on the lower side. Rhr around 55-70 bpm, and I don't know my bp but I know that I commonly get lightheaded and dizzy when I stand up. The reason it is that way is because I have a restrictive eating disorder. I think this will make the OD more severe and a higher chance of working. I will do it after school, in a bathroom stall (I am a senior in hs) when my mom thinks I am at my club. I'd probably take it before last period and then after last period, go into the stall and stay. This is because it most likely would take a bit for it to start working. Last period is 45 min long.

I REALLY do not want to do it at home. And I'm not allowed to leave the house by myself, so this is the only way I can CTB when I am not at home. I also do not take my prescribed propranolol because I stockpile it, so it's not like I will have any tolerances.

What do you guys think? Do the chances of it succeeding sound good?
 
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zekeyaeger

zekeyaeger

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Overdosing is not a method you should try. It does not have high chances of success.

See here.
 
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tbh2023

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Overdosing is not a method you should try. It does not have high chances of success.

See here.

I'm going to OD on propranolol in a couple months. Been stockpiling it. I get 40 mg most days. Today I'm at 2710 mg. My goal is 3.4+ mg. Most likely will do it when it's 4.5g. I'm 5'2, 100 lbs, 18 years old. My hr and bp is already on the lower side. Rhr around 55-70 bpm, and I don't know my bp but I know that I commonly get lightheaded and dizzy when I stand up. The reason it is that way is because I have a restrictive eating disorder. I think this will make the OD more severe and a higher chance of working. I will do it after school, in a bathroom stall (I am a senior in hs) when my mom thinks I am at my club. I'd probably take it before last period and then after last period, go into the stall and stay. This is because it most likely would take a bit for it to start working. Last period is 45 min long.

I REALLY do not want to do it at home. And I'm not allowed to leave the house by myself, so this is the only way I can CTB when I am not at home. I also do not take my prescribed propranolol because I stockpile it, so it's not like I will have any tolerances.

What do you guys think? Do the chances of it succeeding sound good?
that's the way most likely I will use. I'm getting them together too. People die from this method and I don't believe it's risky. Someone told me you won't feel anything since blood pressure drops very low. Just make sure none finds you for at least 4 hours after just like any other method. Good luck
 
TheHolySword

TheHolySword

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Nov 22, 2024
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There is a very high risk that you will be found and saved doing it in school. I understand your options are limited but I would not recommend that. It would not be a quick death and the side effects may draw attention to the situation. I do not think this is likely to succeed. Though I am wishing you the best and I hope you are able to find your peace
 
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fluorine.uranium.99

fluorine.uranium.99

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Overdosing is not a method you should try. It does not have high chances of success.

See here.
even 4.5g + of propranolol? that's a really high dose. I'd think it'd work if no one finds me. because everything I've read says that's a high dose. I really hope so. It's not like I'm using something like paracetamol or ibuprofen. also propranolol OD causes cardiovascular collapse, which can quickly progress to cardiac arrest which is highly fatal without immediate and aggressive medical treatment. So, I'm really hoping this is an exception. Maybe I'll wait till more than 5g Idk I'll see (I can't tell if this sounds rude, if it does, I apologize. I don't mean to come off that way)
 
midstarscream

midstarscream

Life is a sexually transmitted terminal disease.
Nov 1, 2024
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I'm going to OD on propranolol in a couple months. Been stockpiling it. I get 40 mg most days. Today I'm at 2710 mg. My goal is 3.4+ mg. Most likely will do it when it's 4.5g. I'm 5'2, 100 lbs, 18 years old. My hr and bp is already on the lower side. Rhr around 55-70 bpm, and I don't know my bp but I know that I commonly get lightheaded and dizzy when I stand up. The reason it is that way is because I have a restrictive eating disorder. I think this will make the OD more severe and a higher chance of working. I will do it after school, in a bathroom stall (I am a senior in hs) when my mom thinks I am at my club. I'd probably take it before last period and then after last period, go into the stall and stay. This is because it most likely would take a bit for it to start working. Last period is 45 min long.

I REALLY do not want to do it at home. And I'm not allowed to leave the house by myself, so this is the only way I can CTB when I am not at home. I also do not take my prescribed propranolol because I stockpile it, so it's not like I will have any tolerances.

What do you guys think? Do the chances of it succeeding sound good?
Propranolol alone is not a reliable method. SN+ propranolol, I have heard, does the trick.
 
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There is a very high risk that you will be found and saved doing it in school. I understand your options are limited but I would not recommend that. It would not be a quick death and the side effects may draw attention to the situation. I do not think this is likely to succeed. Though I am wishing you the best and I hope you are able to find your peace
Agh, that's what I'm worried about. I'd do it after school. There's some after school activities, but some bathroom locations are far from them. Like in the English hallways. You think that'd be better? Or still a very high risk of being caught? It'd take around 2-4 hours for it to work.

Oh and also, I can't really run away at night to run off somewhere to OD. Both the front and back door at my house has a Ring camera and sends a notification to my moms phone. They'd hear the garage opening. My bedroom is on the second floor. If I could run off, that'd be my first option. Run off to a secluded lake or somewhere else peaceful. I'd really not like to CTB in a dirty school bathroom. Yuck. I don't have friends so I can't say I'm sleeping over somewhere and then do that too. I don't have a job. My freedoms are really limited here. I'd like to find another option, so I'm really brainstorming right now.
 
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midstarscream

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Agh, that's what I'm worried about. I'd do it after school. There's some after school activities, but some bathroom locations are far from them. Like in the English hallways. You think that'd be better? Or still a very high risk of being caught? It'd take around 2-4 hours for it to work.

Oh and also, I can't really run away at night to run off somewhere to OD. Both the front and back door at my house has a Ring camera and sends a notification to my moms phone. They'd hear the garage opening. My bedroom is on the second floor. If I could run off, that'd be my first option. Run off to a secluded lake or somewhere else peaceful. I'd really not like to CTB in a dirty school bathroom. Yuck. I don't have friends so I can't say I'm sleeping over somewhere and then do that too. I don't have a job. My freedoms are really limited here. I'd like to find another option, so I'm really brainstorming right now.
You're still in school. Why not wait a bit, and see if it gets better?
 
fluorine.uranium.99

fluorine.uranium.99

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You're still in school. Why not wait a bit, and see if it gets better?
I'm too tired and scared to do so

Even if I get accepted into a college I want to go to, I won't be able to live on campus. I just want to move away from home. Bad stuff happened there, and it's still pretty tense and unpredictable. I can't possibly get better when I live in the same environment.

Also, my ultimate dream is to go to medical school and become a medical toxicologist or EM physician. But I know I am unable to do so, because my skills and functioning are poor because I have autism. My dreams being crushed would devastate me. I do not want to feel that.

I am already in a lot of pain, I'd rather get it over with now before I'm in much more pain. Also, it's not just the pain. I'm so incredibly burnt out, exhausted, and tired of life. I don't want to BE anymore. I just want to die.

Things are so bad and have only gotten worse over the years. I cannot see it ever getting better. I truly believe this is the best option for myself
 
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I'm too tired and scared to do so

Even if I get accepted into a college I want to go to, I won't be able to live on campus. I just want to move away from home. Bad stuff happened there, and it's still pretty tense and unpredictable. I can't possibly get better when I live in the same environment.

Also, my ultimate dream is to go to medical school and become a medical toxicologist or EM physician. But I know I am unable to do so, because my skills and functioning are poor because I have autism. My dreams being crushed would devastate me. I do not want to feel that.

I am already in a lot of pain, I'd rather get it over with now before I'm in much more pain. Also, it's not just the pain. I'm so incredibly burnt out, exhausted, and tired of life. I don't want to BE anymore. I just want to die.

Things are so bad and have only gotten worse over the years. I cannot see it ever getting better. I truly believe this is the best option for myself
I felt the same way back when I was 18, and yet to go to college. Still feel the same way because of other reasons. I think life is a cruel imposition too.
 

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