Probably a goodbye

[HitBlackVein]

I am a coward, so it probably won't happen but if,
I am too tired to care for anything anymore. I want to get better but nobody actually knows that I am suicidal. They would have to know most likely. I have a twin brother, my lovely grandma, my mom and dad
They love me more than anything
But once they will know that I am suicidal
They will turn their backs from me
They did it once, it was traumatic and I wont let them do this again. So i am leaving this world, probably by this week. This is most likely just a cowardly suicide note that I will leave here so it will be better for me to live. But maybe not
I am too tired to care if my family will miss me, they should. For all what they did to me they deserve it. They will feel better soon anyways, I only feel bad for my brother because as I would never admit that, I love him very much.

 

[SVEN]

At least you know that we understand and sympathise. Whatever you do I hope it goes well for you and you achieve peace.

 

[dyn00ss]

I am a coward, so it probably won't happen but if,
I am too tired to care for anything anymore. I want to get better but nobody actually knows that I am suicidal. They would have to know most likely. I have a twin brother, my lovely grandma, my mom and dad
They love me more than anything
But once they will know that I am suicidal
They will turn their backs from me
They did it once, it was traumatic and I wont let them do this again. So i am leaving this world, probably by this week. This is most likely just a cowardly suicide note that I will leave here so it will be better for me to live. But maybe not
I am too tired to care if my family will miss me, they should. For all what they did to me they deserve it. They will feel better soon anyways, I only feel bad for my brother because as I would never admit that, I love him very much.

I hope that whatever you decide to do, that everything goes well and that you get peace, hugs<3

 

[LoiteringClouds]

I'm so sorry for the ordeal you've been through but if you choose to go, bon voyage - I wish you peace. Of course we welcome if you choose to stay here

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really is so unnecessarily cruel and there is too much suffering in existence, I hope that if you decide to leave you find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[SexyIncél]

They love me more than anything
But once they will know that I am suicidal
They will turn their backs from me
They did it once, it was traumatic and I wont let them do this again.

Deep love. Sorry to hear you had betrayers who dare turn their backs on you. After all that.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I feel you man. Same here, I honestly dont give the slightest shit anymore about how my family will react to my CTB. I dont care if it makes them feel bad. I just want out of here and its selfish to demand me to stay here and suffer just so that somebody else doesnt.

 

[Letgo]

Hope you find peace whatever your decidion may be. Thinking of you.

 

[lumibee]

Whichever decision you choose, I hope you find your peace. you know who loves you so it's up to you whether or not to ctb for you/your exhaustion or to stay alive because of your love for your brother. It's a tough decision, but you seem to have a sound mind :) best of luck

 

[SilentSadness]

It's a lonely reality to know that betrayal is so common in this world. Others are completely disposable in the minds of most people. You're not cowardly for struggling to ctb as it's extremely difficult in this torturous world of pro-lifers. I hope you make the right choice and have good luck.

 

[wiltingorchid]

Feeling like this is shitty, and i'm so sorry that you have to be in this terrible situation. Whatever you may choose, i hope that you find peace with it