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Death is beautiful

Death is beautiful

Warlock
May 20, 2021
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Hi guys

You may not remember me, but I was quite active here once, I have about 700 posts
I am very glad to be with you again on this forum, this place has given me a lot

So, my name is Arthur, I'm about 20 years old, and until recently I was suicidal
I registered on this forum a year ago, and a few months later I ordered SN on the Internet, bought paracetamol and intended to buy Tagamet and Meto, but I gave myself a week to think, and apparently in vain, I changed my mind about killing myself
A month later I met a very nice guy, by the way, we threw this SN with him the other day, he is a very good (friend)
In addition, about a week ago I found a girl, she is so sweet and beautiful, you would know, we communicate with her all day long, she really likes me, I like her too
Thanks to all this, my suicidal thoughts have receded

But recently an interesting idea came to my mind, it gave me a feeling of euphoria that if in the next 10 years I order Nembutal and find peace peacefully, I really like this idea, this is my decision, it's better than dying of old age, or worse

My reasons for suicidal mood are as follows: Social phobia and inability to adapt to society, it is difficult for me to visit a hairdresser, dentist, cafe, etc

Here's the good news for you: Today I cleaned myself up - I shaved and cut my hair and also did what I wanted for so long - a scar on my eyebrows XD

This concludes this post, thank you if you read it to the end, friend, I am waiting for your messages

With love, Arthur

By the way, here's a photo of the scar, I did this shit for the first time, so don't judge strictly XD

IMG 20220512 041733 443
 
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Glowarm

F*ck everyone and everything
Apr 8, 2022
673
Hi Arthur. That's really awesome that you met some people that you can talk to. I think that is a huge thing to be able to have someone to talk with. Nice looking eyebrow scar too.
 
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playing_ostrich

life dropout
May 2, 2022
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dont see many posts like this. hope it goes well for you
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
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Hi Arthur! FANTASTIC news about your new girl as your post made my heart sing and, for real, I cried with happiness for you. It is so heartwarming to read your post, as you are such a kind, caring and loving soul with a close spirit with you to enjoy experiences with, just awesome!

Spread your wings and fly now, as you have the wind in your sails and a loving person to share it with.

You made my entire week, thank you!

Walter
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It is good to hear that things got better for you. I wish you the best.
 
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