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LenkaX

LenkaX

Maybe there is a hope!
Aug 14, 2020
366
So my life became so unbearable that I simply have to quit. Even if I wanted to go on (despite long term severe depression), I can't no longer stand living with my mother because we just argue all the time. The only possible escape is CTB.

And I want to ask, if I just to go some hotel and drink the SN+water solution, will it just work? My fear is that I will make loud noises while ingesting the SN like loud vomiting or loud screaming or something like this. And that people around will notice it and the will come to "rescue" me. This would result maybe in some permanent damage to my body or brain and I would go to a psych ward for a month or so. I want to avoid this. I Just want to quit 100% sure.

What is your opinion? Or are there better choices than SN in a hotel room?
 
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aminend

aminend

Warlock
May 24, 2020
746
SN works unless u vomite soon or calling help. If u recieve help permanent damage is unlikely.
About noise, relatively smouth or loud (depending on u) noise is possible for 5 till 10 minutes but I don't think it be heard in next room
 
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Sslsh

Sslsh

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
293
have two glasses ready. and just be confident/have conviction if you do plan to go through. its just salt water so don't think there should be a reason for screaming.
 
Jumping_realms

Jumping_realms

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Jul 4, 2021
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If I was going to go the SN route I would have likely secured the room for 2-3 days minimum, and my bluetooth speaker would be semi-loud after taking the SN.

I think people and staff are used to noise, from sex to partying. I personally won't put too much thought into it, if that falls back to the #1 plan for me.

I wish you the best in whatever choices you decide to make.
 
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BottomlessPit

BottomlessPit

Staring at the edge
Apr 28, 2021
423
I am having the exact same fear as you, I just can't stop thinking about the possibility that the walls in the hotel could turn out to be too thin, and that people will hear the death rattle or vomiting. I'm honestly at a loss on how to proceed from here, I guess we're just gonna have to hope that everything will work out.

An alternative would be to get our own apartment and do it there, though that would be costly and a waste of energy considering we would ctb directly after moving in lol. If you happen to live in the US you could go to one of those gigantic national parks and do it in the middle of nowhere where no rangers are around. I personally don't have that luxury...
 
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BrokenArrow

BrokenArrow

Student
Feb 6, 2021
175
I'm searching for "soundproof rooms" when I Google nearby hotels.

Apparently, this is a feature actually utilised by some hotels and some of them make a note on their websites.

Sure, it's more pricey, but if they really minimise noise it might be a deal-breaker.
 
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highndry

highndry

Member
Jan 23, 2021
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So my life became so unbearable that I simply have to quit. Even if I wanted to go on (despite long term severe depression), I can't no longer stand living with my mother because we just argue all the time. The only possible escape is CTB.

And I want to ask, if I just to go some hotel and drink the SN+water solution, will it just work? My fear is that I will make loud noises while ingesting the SN like loud vomiting or loud screaming or something like this. And that people around will notice it and the will come to "rescue" me. This would result maybe in some permanent damage to my body or brain and I would go to a psych ward for a month or so. I want to avoid this. I Just want to quit 100% sure.

What is your opinion? Or are there better choices than SN in a hotel room?
Well, I'll be doing this tomorrow, so if you don't hear back from me in like a week or 2... it works hahaha
 
aminend

aminend

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May 24, 2020
746
Well, I'll be doing this tomorrow, so if you don't hear back from me in like a week or 2... it works hahaha
U meant u will ctb by SN in hotel, tomorrow?
 
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CCH beast

CCH beast

Fighting the beast
Apr 21, 2021
18
I think highndry is no longer with us .. last active on telegram just before this status, no activity since.. I hope it was peaceful .. I don't know if he had any friends on here, I was suppose to go with him but my circumstances require me to stay for a bit longer.. i feel sad that he followed through but glad that he was 100% at peace with the decision ... what a brilliant music taste.. for those of you who don't know highndry "high and dry" is a radio head song which is the reason for the username.. brilliant song.. about a stuntman turning into a vegetative state due to too many crashes on his motorbike.. sorry I'm rambling
 
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Benegra

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Jul 18, 2021
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I think highndry is no longer with us .. last active on telegram just before this status, no activity since.. I hope it was peaceful .. I don't know if he had any friends on here, I was suppose to go with him but my circumstances require me to stay for a bit longer.. i feel sad that he followed through but glad that he was 100% at peace with the decision ... what a brilliant music taste.. for those of you who don't know highndry "high and dry" is a radio head song which is the reason for the username.. brilliant song.. about a stuntman turning into a vegetative state due to too many crashes on his motorbike.. sorry I'm rambling
May he rest in peace.
 
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