Pro lifers

[Smilla]

I am so tired of the well meaning people on here (you know who you are), who are endlessly giving ultimately vacuous but well intended posts of "well wishes", even going so far as to post on my profile.

Please stop. I enjoy having a good time on here until I pass but these ridiculous and empty words from "well wishers", are, well, empty.

Please stop. I'm not here to save anyone- nor should anyone use me to save themselves; afterall we are all here for various reasons but please knock it off with the "I wish you would stay", "we love you here".

I'm not going to NOT die because of strangers I met on a website who joke around with good intentions (as I do), and lately it's been too much of the pro life rhetoric with lots of hearts, without even a PM.

It rings fake and hollow. So stop it, please.

 

[stellabelle]

....but we will feed you tacos!!
Just teasing, Smilla. I'm sorry to see your frustration.

 

[JustAboutDone]

It's because you have now reached Angelic status. Also because you do pretty amazing things with a pizza.

 

[Chinaski]

Pro-lifers where? I haven't seen any pro-life rhetoric, seriously. Please point it out to me if I'm missing it, honestly.

I'm not sure who or what you're aiming at here, Smilla. People who post on your profile? Reply to them individually and tell them to fuck off. Content of the board not always to your liking? Yep, same, l very much get that, sadly neither you nor l are arbiters of that. People not PMing you telling you they wish you'd just fuck off and die? Well, l get plenty of those, it's actually a good thing that you don't, imo.

I honestly don't think anyone here is trying to save you, given you have your actual method as your avatar that'd be a pretty thankless task anyway; but you've been here for several months, racked up over 2000 posts, you've made a presence here which some others may genuinely miss and it's to be expected that some people may be significantly disinclined to outwardly encourage you to ctb. You get that, surely?

 

[JustAboutDone]

It's because you have now reached Angelic status. Also because you do pretty amazing things with a pizza.

Edited: I apologise for graffiti on your profile page. It isn't because I don't respect your choice; I do. I hold you in the highest esteem and I will miss you and your wit, compunction and the way you are the only person who can keep @Chinaski under control with a firm glance in his direction. Despite this, I will be the first to wish you the happiest crossing of The Styx when your time is right and have instructed the Ferryman to pad the boat with cushions and provide a bottle of finest champagne.

 

[JustAboutDone]

@Chinaski do you REALLY get dm telling you to fck off?? That's incredible.

 

[Chinaski]

@Chinaski do you REALLY get dm telling you to fck off?? That's incredible.

Tbf it's usually me saying "fuck off" in reply, my occasional disgruntled pms usually come in the form of a wall of impenetrably umbraged text or some pathetic attempt at a snark in the form of a shit gif, or whatever. Funnily enough all of these accounts have turned out to be phoney anyway, the most recent being apparently banned for reasons unexplained.

Anyway, this is derailing from the thread, the purpose of which is for us all to tell Smilla how much we want her to ctb.

 

[Made4TV]

It's because of your virgin Mary profile pic. No but seriously where are you seeing this stuff?

 

[Johnnythefox]

just fuck off and die

Sounds like my ex has the hots for you..

 

[Chinaski]

Sounds like my ex has the hots for you..

She's only human, Johnny.

 

[Johnnythefox]

She's only human, Johnny.

Obviously you've never met her!

 

[ReadyasEver]

Hey, I look at it pretty simply. It's all personal preference. Smiles does not want a bunch of well wishes, respect the choice. Some people do like them, respect the choice. Does not need to be a long drawn out philosophical discussion, very cut and dry.

 

[Smilla]

Pro-lifers where? I haven't seen any pro-life rhetoric, seriously. Please point it out to me if I'm missing it, honestly.

I'm not sure who or what you're aiming at here, Smilla. People who post on your profile? Reply to them individually and tell them to fuck off. Content of the board not always to your liking? Yep, same, l very much get that, sadly neither you nor l are arbiters of that. People not PMing you telling you they wish you'd just fuck off and die? Well, l get plenty of those, it's actually a good thing that you don't, imo.

I honestly don't think anyone here is trying to save you, given you have your actual method as your avatar that'd be a pretty thankless task anyway; but you've been here for several months, racked up over 2000 posts, you've made a presence here which some others may genuinely miss and it's to be expected that some people may be significantly disinclined to outwardly encourage you to ctb. You get that, surely?

I don't need encouragement, I've repeated that already, many times on here.

What I need is support in my final days-in what form that should take, I don't know tbqh.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Apologies if I am guilty of this, which I feel I may be. I only mean to wish you calm, clarity, and strength, as well as pain-free days, leading up to your ctb.

 

[Smilla]

Apologies if I am guilty of this, which I feel I may be. I only mean to wish you calm, clarity, and strength, as well as pain-free days, leading up to your ctb.

No apologies necessary and I am grateful for this safe space, and your presence here.

Selfishly, I want others to "sanction" my suicide but so goes with most things in life, we don't always (or often) get what we want.

 

[Smilla]

Edited: I apologise for graffiti on your profile page. It isn't because I don't respect your choice; I do. I hold you in the highest esteem and I will miss you and your wit, compunction and the way you are the only person who can keep @Chinaski under control with a firm glance in his direction. Despite this, I will be the first to wish you the happiest crossing of The Styx when your time is right and have instructed the Ferryman to pad the boat with cushions and provide a bottle of finest champagne.

 

[ThinkingAboutThis]

No apologies necessary and I am grateful for this safe space, and your presence here.

Selfishly, I want others to "sanction" my suicide but so goes with most things in life, we don't always (or often) get what we want.

That's the thing. You have to decide what to do for yourself. No one else will. No one else is in your shoes. I'd feel awful if someone were pushing me in the direction of suicide just as I'd feel awful with someone telling me "you have to live!!". Same thing.

 

[Smilla]

That's the thing. You have to decide what to do for yourself. No one else will. No one else is in your shoes. I'd feel awful if someone were pushing me in the direction of suicide just as I'd feel awful with someone telling me "you have to live!!". Same thing.

There is a happy medium

Hey, I look at it pretty simply. It's all personal preference. Smiles does not want a bunch of well wishes, respect the choice. Some people do like them, respect the choice. Does not need to be a long drawn out philosophical discussion, very cut and dry.

I normally wouldn't correct spelling but it's actually spelled- Smilla. Thank you.