Venting Pro-lifers would rather have you work till you die but would never accept suicide as a way out.

[Circles]

My job is killing me slowly while only making at best 12k a year. That's no where reasonable to even support yourself in wage slave America. That's be poverty level and feel like homelessness will become a likelihood. I'm breaking my back and knees and for what exactly? It's getting really frustrating each day I go in I just want to scream fuck this shit and go kill myself immediately. Why can't I convince myself to just fucking do it? It's what I want and yet I keep living this charade of a life as if everything is okay when that's far from the truth. I just want to vent since everyone I talk to will say 'either go to school or get a job' as if both are easy and enjoyable. I have to work in the morning and I hope I can hold it together but man this shit is getting to me. I can't see how people can live like this for decades. All well I guess I'm to much of a pussy who complains. Whatever, goodnight everybody!

Edit: apologies for posting it twice.

 

[Slayer]

I'm a wage slave as well and I don't think it's ever going to change. I dropped out of college because I didn't have persistence to study and with my limited skill set I can't be a chooser when it comes to jobs. I'll never be able to buy a house, I'll never be able to retire. I don't even plan to start a family. I can barely survive on my own. Basically I'll just live until I get tired of life and then say goodbye to this world.

 

[Circles]

I'm a wage slave as well and I don't think it's ever going to change. I dropped out of college because I didn't have persistence to study and with my limited skill set I can't be a chooser when it comes to jobs. I'll never be able to buy a house, I'll never be able to retire. I don't even plan to start a family. I can barely survive on my own. Basically I'll just live until I get tired of life and then say goodbye to this world.

Yep and my psychologist wonders why I worry about the future so much. I'm like 'what future?'

 

[Circles]

Yep and my psychologist wonders why I worry about the future so much. I'm like 'what future?'

I'm a wage slave as well and I don't think it's ever going to change. I dropped out of college because I didn't have persistence to study and with my limited skill set I can't be a chooser when it comes to jobs. I'll never be able to buy a house, I'll never be able to retire. I don't even plan to start a family. I can barely survive on my own. Basically I'll just live until I get tired of life and then say goodbye to this world.

I also dropped out of community college but it was because I felt school wasn't teaching me any life skills about how to survive. I had a very bad existential crisis and ended up failing all 4 of my courses within a month.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

 

[Circles]

Ozzy Osbourne. Nice. Thanks for that.

 

[Final Escape]

why we are poor

 

[bigj75]

because nobody truly cares about each other.

 

[Ben]

I've lost every job I've ever had because I just stop showing up eventually. I've been displaying defeatist tendencies ever since I could make choices for myself lol.

 

[bigj75]

I've lost every job I've ever had because I just stop showing up eventually. I've been displaying defeatist tendencies ever since I could make choices for myself lol.

same

 

[Final Escape]

because nobody truly cares about each other.

I don't agree with this, its more complicated than that. But it can certainly feel like it.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

because nobody truly cares about each other.

the inspiration for this song was Ozzy giving his daughter a bath. shampoo .....

 

[GeorgeEastman]

There's no hope in money either. I have it. Still want to die. Hell, there's nothing even worth buying. I go in stores, malls. It all sucks. I hate all of it. Can't even get a damn pair of pants that fit right. I wear old clothes, because the new ones hurt. They either squeeze or just fall off.

Yep, cursed. I'd buy guns and even a big high dollar set of headphones if they'd let me go through the self checkout and leave me alone. Since they won't, oh well I just won't buy.

 

[Circles]

I've lost every job I've ever had because I just stop showing up eventually. I've been displaying defeatist tendencies ever since I could make choices for myself lol.

Wow Ben I'm surprised you sound like me. When we last spoke you made the impression that you somewhat had your life together. What I mean is that you sounded very responsible about not doing drugs at work and what not as though you sounded like a manager.

 

[Ben]

Wow Ben I'm surprised you sound like me. When we last spoke you made the impression that you somewhat had your life together. What I mean is that you sounded very responsible about not doing drugs at work and what not as though you sounded like a manager.

Yes my life is compete shit too, I'm just well aware of what is my fault, and what isn't. I could write the perfect game plan but never be able to execute it.

 

[bigj75]

There's no hope in money either. I have it. Still want to die. Hell, there's nothing even worth buying. I go in stores, malls. It all sucks. I hate all of it. Can't even get a damn pair of pants that fit right. I wear old clothes, because the new ones hurt. They either squeeze or just fall off.

Yep, cursed. I'd buy guns and even a big high dollar set of headphones if they'd let me go through the self checkout and leave me alone. Since they won't, oh well I just won't buy.

this. If anything positive came out of depression it was coming to the realization that mental and physical health are more important than money. Because no matter how much of it i have it won't fix my mental and physical ailments.

 

[bigj75]

I don't agree with this, its more complicated than that. But it can certainly feel like it.

possibly. I'll rephrase. People care but don't know how to care about each other properly.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

possibly. I'll rephrase. People care but don't know how to care about each other properly.

that and are afraid for some reasons

 

[samhelloall9]

your title is everything to me.

 

[NOISYMIND]

There's no hope in money either. I have it. Still want to die. Hell, there's nothing even worth buying. I go in stores, malls. It all sucks. I hate all of it. Can't even get a damn pair of pants that fit right. I wear old clothes, because the new ones hurt. They either squeeze or just fall off.

Yep, cursed. I'd buy guns and even a big high dollar set of headphones if they'd let me go through the self checkout and leave me alone. Since they won't, oh well I just won't buy.

In my case having enough money would potentially make me better though. I'm trapping in a shitty town in a shitty country and things are worsening day by day because I don't have a penny to do anything. Can't even prepare what I need for CTB. Without money there's no way out for me.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

In my case having enough money would potentially make me better though. I'm trapping in a shitty town in a shitty country and things are worsening day by day because I don't have a penny to do anything. Can't even prepare what I need for CTB. Without money there's no way out for me.

are we the same?

 

[bigj75]

In my case having enough money would potentially make me better though. I'm trapping in a shitty town in a shitty country and things are worsening day by day because I don't have a penny to do anything. Can't even prepare what I need for CTB. Without money there's no way out for me.

that's fucked up. Even to kill yourself properly you need a job. The world is rigged.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

that's fucked up. Even to kill yourself properly you need a job. The world is rigged.

coming up with that kind of money is going to take me months

 

[NOISYMIND]

that's fucked up. Even to kill yourself properly you need a job. The world is rigged.

are we the same?

I'm so fucked :(((((

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I'm so fucked :(((((

can't even sell myself

 

[bigj75]

coming up with that kind of money is going to take me months

luckily I just got a job. So I'll ctb once I have cash saved up.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

luckily I just got a job. So I'll ctb once I have cash saved up.

so fucked

 

[bigj75]

can't even sell myself

cause you don't want to or you don't know how?

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

cause you don't want to or you don't know how?

there are extenuating circumstances

 

[bigj75]

there are extenuating circumstances

gotcha!