DoNotLet2
Wizard
- Oct 14, 2019
- 684
I feel like talking and on the other hand I feel like staying mute...
You don't have to pay attention to me I just feel so fucking angry I gotta vent.
So basically I've been talking to a "psychologist" who says that I should stay alive and not commit suicide. But why?
She said that of course I will never be loved so much by other people as I should be loved by my parents (I come from a toxic "family" and never received love from them) and because of my autism I will never be able to get friends easily. In other words there won't be a person who will love me and my Asperger's won't ever be eased enough. In other words she said "it won't get better but stay alive anyway". She also called me mentally ill and I'm like which one of us is really mad?! I who don't want to suffer or she who thinks life is great live anyway?!!! You feel me?!! It won't get better I'm supposed to stay alive anyway! BECAUSE LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. Fuck that I don't care if life is beautiful or not! I want to stop suffering unbearable mental pain.
AND NO NOT EVERYBODY HAS PROBLEMS!!! THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE ONLY LAST YEAR'S IPHONE BECAUSE YOU CAN'T SAVE UP FOR THE LATEST ONE ISN'T A LIFE PROBLEM!!! STOP FUCKING SAYING THAT WE ALL SUFFER 'CAUSE THIS ISN'T TRUE FOR FUCKS SAKE!!! Ok so this venting is kinda two parts because I'm so done with people saying "oh we all have it tough". No we don't. Some people have easy lives and we should stop being afraid to say so.
You don't have to pay attention to me I just feel so fucking angry I gotta vent.
So basically I've been talking to a "psychologist" who says that I should stay alive and not commit suicide. But why?
She said that of course I will never be loved so much by other people as I should be loved by my parents (I come from a toxic "family" and never received love from them) and because of my autism I will never be able to get friends easily. In other words there won't be a person who will love me and my Asperger's won't ever be eased enough. In other words she said "it won't get better but stay alive anyway". She also called me mentally ill and I'm like which one of us is really mad?! I who don't want to suffer or she who thinks life is great live anyway?!!! You feel me?!! It won't get better I'm supposed to stay alive anyway! BECAUSE LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. Fuck that I don't care if life is beautiful or not! I want to stop suffering unbearable mental pain.
AND NO NOT EVERYBODY HAS PROBLEMS!!! THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE ONLY LAST YEAR'S IPHONE BECAUSE YOU CAN'T SAVE UP FOR THE LATEST ONE ISN'T A LIFE PROBLEM!!! STOP FUCKING SAYING THAT WE ALL SUFFER 'CAUSE THIS ISN'T TRUE FOR FUCKS SAKE!!! Ok so this venting is kinda two parts because I'm so done with people saying "oh we all have it tough". No we don't. Some people have easy lives and we should stop being afraid to say so.