Step40
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- May 30, 2020
- 31
So first time poster long time lurker. I have felt guilty reading and not showing my presence.
My brother ctb 15 years ago and up until about 5 years ago I was totally pro life.
I have been depressed and anxious only because of his death and the complete shock of it. There was absolutely no warnings at all.
I took sepsis after giving birth 5 years ago and I am lucky to be here but as a result of the sepsis I have physical and cognitive issues. Extreme tiredness which pisses me right off.
But as I have matured and understood suicide I am totally understanding of anyone wanting to ctb I completely acknowledge my bros pain and that it was his choice and right and my feelings or my life is no substitute for him to live his. It's quite selfish I think as I am only hurting because I am taking into account my feelings my loss and not his.
I attempted about 2 years after my brother's passing, I'm not sure how it happened as I was a very very heavy drinker but I tried to cut my wrists and ended up cutting my thighs
I guess what I'm saying is that I accept and acknowledge pro choice. I feel more comfortable on this forum than in suicide loss forums. Says a lot doesn't it.
I'm sorry for my crap writing sometimes I find it hard to put write down what's in my head.
Hope you all have a peaceful day x
My brother ctb 15 years ago and up until about 5 years ago I was totally pro life.
I have been depressed and anxious only because of his death and the complete shock of it. There was absolutely no warnings at all.
I took sepsis after giving birth 5 years ago and I am lucky to be here but as a result of the sepsis I have physical and cognitive issues. Extreme tiredness which pisses me right off.
But as I have matured and understood suicide I am totally understanding of anyone wanting to ctb I completely acknowledge my bros pain and that it was his choice and right and my feelings or my life is no substitute for him to live his. It's quite selfish I think as I am only hurting because I am taking into account my feelings my loss and not his.
I attempted about 2 years after my brother's passing, I'm not sure how it happened as I was a very very heavy drinker but I tried to cut my wrists and ended up cutting my thighs
I guess what I'm saying is that I accept and acknowledge pro choice. I feel more comfortable on this forum than in suicide loss forums. Says a lot doesn't it.
I'm sorry for my crap writing sometimes I find it hard to put write down what's in my head.
Hope you all have a peaceful day x