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A few years ago there was another site that had suicide pacts and I was going through extreme withdrawals and damage at the time. I felt like my life was finished.
A person made contact that was in Peru and asked if I would come out there. They got sick so had to cancel the flight, n is easy to get there. I ordered some powdered n and told them and they wanted to come to where I was and try it. I should said no but I was so sick from everything and things felt hopeless so I agreed to meet them.
The person flew here with just a backpack and the peaceful pill handbook and a bunch of Un prescribed antiemetics. I waited at the airport for hours and at that point I should've left not that I would desert anyone but something seemed odd.
I ended up using a special phone to contact the international customs on the 2nd floor and within moments two officers were behind me and took me into interrogation room. They asked a bunch of questions and I was brought to the hospital. Turns out the other person had told authorities what the plan was and it was a bad scene. My fiance arrived in the morning to pick me up and then she said I was to sleep on the couch from now on and then we broke up. This was very very bad and the person kind of ratted us out, my relationship was over at that point and I was devastated. Now, a few years later I need to finally end things and there was a possibility that I could've recovered from all of the damage if my Dr wasn't such a freaking moron and left me to cold turkey alprazolam after I told him I stopped all of my pills the day after I had a serious reaction. Holy shit what a nightmare!!! All of my damage was caused by taking medication that never helped and holy fuck do I ever regret taking anything from a pharmacy, all of that crap is bad.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Yep..I went through he'll withdrawals trying to come off another drug I feel I could've recovered had they not switched me onto a different drug

 

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Yep..I went through he'll withdrawals trying to come off another drug I feel I could've recovered had they not switched me onto a different drug

Something tells me we went through similar experiences...wow sorry to hear. I went from diazepam to alprazolam and that is never good. I was doing okay compared to now but at the time I felt like complete hell. Even though my ex had anger/control issues I was better off with her than right now by a long shot. Holy crap things are bad right now

 

[Wantingpeace]

Something tells me we went through similar experiences...wow sorry to hear. I went from diazepam to alprazolam and that is never good. I was doing okay compared to now but at the time I felt like complete hell. Even though my ex had anger/control issues I was better off with her than right now by a long shot. Holy crap things are bad right now

Yes i went from trying to come off sertrlaine and very bad withdrawals and couldn't come off to Prozac and something just collapsed in brain and posioned..

I dunno what des are playing at, really

 

[Wantingpeace]

Drs

 

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Yes i went from trying to come off sertrlaine and very bad withdrawals and couldn't come off to Prozac and something just collapsed in brain and posioned..

I dunno what des are playing at, really

Yes, I think most big pharma pills are deadly. When I was still with my ex things weren't going the greatest but at least I had a partner and had my awesome job still. Now, I screwed those things up and blew my savings trying to recover and then went hypomanic and went into debt like a mofo. Things are really freaking bad right now, my fiance needed to be more understanding than she was and or I should've killed myself while still with her. Either outcome would've worked, she would scream at me like fuck whenever I mentioned the fact that I wished I never took the meds that nearly killed me...and she was the one that demanded I keep taking them. I should've told her to screw off and left the hotel room to go to the lobby and spent the evening on the couch there. I remember the scenario and taking those meds that evening was a stupid-as-fuck thing that I ever did. I didn't want to deal with her anger silent treatment so I should've pretended to take them or simply left the room with my suitcase and then left in the morning.
Heck, at the border I should've jumped out of the car and hitchiked home, the trip started off very shitty with her giving me silent treatment and I never did anything wrong technically I should've broken up with her at the start of the relationship when things were totally fucked up

 

[Wantingpeace]

Will come back to your post but these pharma drugs seem to be leaving people in such weird states unlike and maybe worse than illegal drugs.

 

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My Dr admitted he gave me bad advice and then he changed his notes 8 months later and I was really fucking mad. Holy fuck I could've broken someone's neck until the head came off I was so mad. Fucking goof the Dr was, admitting his mistake was admirable but then trying to cover it up was a time that bones should've been broken. I had a lot of self control but the goof screwed around and even talked to my fiance behind my back. Dr's are goofs for the most part

 

[Wantingpeace]

My Dr admitted he gave me bad advice and then he changed his notes 8 months later and I was really fucking mad. Holy fuck I could've broken someone's neck until the head came off I was so mad. Fucking goof the Dr was, admitting his mistake was admirable but then trying to cover it up was a time that bones should've been broken. I had a lot of self control but the goof screwed around and even talked to my fiance behind my back. Dr's are goofs for the most part

Yes have so much anger I feel like if I met Dr on street I would hurt them

 

[Nem]

Will come back to your post but these pharma drugs seem to be leaving people in such weird states unlike and maybe worse than illegal drugs.

Absolutely, pharmaceutical drugs are purely synthetic and the fda is a scam. They are in the pharmaceutical companies back pocket. They should be dropped into an active volcano

 

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Yes have so much anger I feel like if I met Dr on street I would hurt them

Well, I don't blame you one bit. My fiance knew all of this shit was going on but she threatened to break up if I sued anyone. Clearly I was in a wrong relationship. I do regret not ending my life when I was still with her, if she was more supportive even though she was somewhat supportive, I could've maybe recovered. It was tough and withdrawals were complete hell and my Dr was too stupid to realize that I was going through withdrawals. Everyone around me was not seeing the bullshit the Dr's were pulling. Even the Dr at the hospital made a bullshit cover up since they never triage me. And my fiance even saw both triage reports and still refused to help me

 

[Wantingpeace]

I think they know is withdrwals they deny