Alec
Wizard
- Apr 22, 2019
- 681
I love this view, it's on a boardwalk to the lighthouse, there are these huge rock cubes thrown to support the boardwalk and separate it from the sea. I can get down there and walk on the rocks and sit or lay down there. There are some straight laying rocks too that are comfortable to lay on.
I think it would be really amazing go there at night, if I'm lucky during a full moon, lay down on one of those rocks and drink my SN, listen to the waves crash against the rocks(hopefully the es will be at least kind of big, big enough to make a sound), look out at the open sea, and the free sky, lay back and stare at the night sky as I close my eyes for the last time in this lifetime. I think that would be beautiful and a peaceful experience that would resonate with me.
The problem is-it's right under the boardwalk, and sometimes there are lots of people walking on it, it would be VERY easy to see me. Of course they might think I'm just laying down, or just closing my eyes and relaxing, they wouldn't immediately jump into thinking that I'm killing myself and am dying. I've been laying here today for like an hour with a baseball cap out my face, not moving, no one bothered me. That is of course if I won't start to be sick, but even then they might think I'm just sick because I'm drunk or something, as long as I'm not thrashing around I think nobody will bother me or call the police. Maybe someone will ask if I'm ok but hopefully I'll have enough strength and conciseness to say "I'm ok, just need to lay down for a while" and they'll move on. Plus it would be in the middle of the night, so maybe there wouldn't be anyone at all, I could go all the way down the boardwalk which is pretty long, so maybe in the middle of the night nobody will go that far? Or maybe some people wanting to get drunk or something will go that far and see me. I don't know, but I feel like I could have at least enough time to die before somebody sees me, gets concerned tries to check on me and/or calls the police/ambulance. It would take like an hour or two for me to die for sure. I was planning on hotel and I still do really, it just this is really a beautiful view and think it would be nice to be there in my last moments.
Kinda scared of all the crawling things that might be there though I was there today but during the day, maybe more come out in the night-terrifying
I just wanted to share, I don't know. I thought it was beautiful and I don't have anyone to share my thoughts and feeling and the impression it left on me with.
How's your day/time been lately? Please share if you feel comfortable to, I'd love to hear it❤ I love you guys.
PS: I'm sorry if I'm sharing something like this and you are in a situation where you can't find a peaceful beautiful place for your final moment. And you are forced to be trapped in a horrible place you can't stand. I know how that feels all too well. I'm sorry if reading this and seeing the photo made you feel sad or/and lonely, we might not be at the same place by I'm with you, I'm thinking about you and I love you, so much! Please stay strong, for whatever you choose to do, stay strong, be brave and remember you are not alone, you are never alone, not really!
Love,
—Alec.
I think it would be really amazing go there at night, if I'm lucky during a full moon, lay down on one of those rocks and drink my SN, listen to the waves crash against the rocks(hopefully the es will be at least kind of big, big enough to make a sound), look out at the open sea, and the free sky, lay back and stare at the night sky as I close my eyes for the last time in this lifetime. I think that would be beautiful and a peaceful experience that would resonate with me.
The problem is-it's right under the boardwalk, and sometimes there are lots of people walking on it, it would be VERY easy to see me. Of course they might think I'm just laying down, or just closing my eyes and relaxing, they wouldn't immediately jump into thinking that I'm killing myself and am dying. I've been laying here today for like an hour with a baseball cap out my face, not moving, no one bothered me. That is of course if I won't start to be sick, but even then they might think I'm just sick because I'm drunk or something, as long as I'm not thrashing around I think nobody will bother me or call the police. Maybe someone will ask if I'm ok but hopefully I'll have enough strength and conciseness to say "I'm ok, just need to lay down for a while" and they'll move on. Plus it would be in the middle of the night, so maybe there wouldn't be anyone at all, I could go all the way down the boardwalk which is pretty long, so maybe in the middle of the night nobody will go that far? Or maybe some people wanting to get drunk or something will go that far and see me. I don't know, but I feel like I could have at least enough time to die before somebody sees me, gets concerned tries to check on me and/or calls the police/ambulance. It would take like an hour or two for me to die for sure. I was planning on hotel and I still do really, it just this is really a beautiful view and think it would be nice to be there in my last moments.
Kinda scared of all the crawling things that might be there though I was there today but during the day, maybe more come out in the night-terrifying
I just wanted to share, I don't know. I thought it was beautiful and I don't have anyone to share my thoughts and feeling and the impression it left on me with.
How's your day/time been lately? Please share if you feel comfortable to, I'd love to hear it❤ I love you guys.
PS: I'm sorry if I'm sharing something like this and you are in a situation where you can't find a peaceful beautiful place for your final moment. And you are forced to be trapped in a horrible place you can't stand. I know how that feels all too well. I'm sorry if reading this and seeing the photo made you feel sad or/and lonely, we might not be at the same place by I'm with you, I'm thinking about you and I love you, so much! Please stay strong, for whatever you choose to do, stay strong, be brave and remember you are not alone, you are never alone, not really!
Love,
—Alec.
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