goldenrods

goldenrods

your angel
Dec 27, 2019
84
i read a story several months ago about somebody in the medical field having to preform an autopsy on a young woman who overdosed. before she died, she took a shower, did her makeup, put on perfume & lotion & made sure she was the prettiest corpse she could be. it stuck with the man for years.

it's what i plan on doing to my body, too. not to kiss my own ass but i am beautiful. unfortunately it's only skin deep, my soul is rotten & my brain is traumatized, but wow my face & body are quite nice.

do you plan on keeping your body pristine? does it matter to you? i'm interested in other people's thoughts
 
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Daffodil

Student
Dec 23, 2019
130
im not the same way. i find beauty in the strength of going au naturale. i'm trying to leave behind my earthly form, and perfume would just give me memories. maybe i have too many memories of the ritual of getting ready for a big event that i feel it would tie me here.
 
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Fragile

Fragile

Broken
Jul 7, 2019
1,496
in a way i do, i'm sadly not beautiful by any extent of the imagination, in fact i consider myself extremely hard to look at, but i want to be at least "presentable" when someone finds my body. i will do this to not traumatize them so much and also because i want to see my good angle one last time before i truly go.
i'm actually looking for suicide methods that cause the least damage to my body and don't make me convulse violently or vomit, that's why i'm not even considering jumping or hanging even if they are really effective.

i really wish i was beautiful in this life, that was my only dream for as long as i can remember, and if i was born beautiful, i would've tried to live even with my debilitating illnesses and past trauma. just being good looking the way i wanted would've been enough to make me endure the chronic pain, tinnitus, severe mental illnesses and other symptoms that make this life impossible to live.

the joke here is that my only redeeming quality are my eyes and they wont even be open once i'm dead, they are apparently so beautiful that even random strangers stop and give me compliments about them, maybe they are just rare in my country, but i've never seen that happen to anyone even with eyes similar or even more beautiful than mine.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
Now see, I think locations are different. But depending, you might make it to the coroner in one piece as you died, or, they may undo the things you did before you reach there because they're treating it as a murder or who knows what reason may result in what they do.

I mean if you want to, great! Do you, be comfortable and happy. But you might not have a guarantee of it either.

Granted the one thing my mother loves, is something that would change after death. She won't be able to see it again, nor would anyone.
 
cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
I'm more cute than beautiful but I would definitely rather keep my cuteness. I've never worn make up, so there won't be any need for that. Perfume seems pointless to me because there's going to be smells coming from me no matter what.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
I'm kind of torn on this issue. On one hand I really want to do my hair and makeup and be a pretty corpse. I morbidly hope someone will take a pic and show my ex since he sadly won't be the one finding me now. But on the other I think I'll be too depressed and too focused on making sure everything is done correctly to bother. Everyone always told me I am beautiful but I have horrible self esteem so I don't believe it but beauty got me no where in this world. I all I got was used, abused and discarded.
 
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Farmmaa

Farmmaa

Specialist
Dec 4, 2019
343
Beauty left me about 10 years ago and I really doubt that a dead body is going to look 'beautiful', no matter how much make up you wear.

I do however want to make sure that I am presentable and clean. No one wants to look at legs that haven't been shaved since September, even a coroner. Gave myself a long overdue pedi last night - no nail polish, but since I wear wool socks and steel toed boots all day every day, my feet are a wreck.

So, I will make sure to shower and shave my legs the morning of. I never wear make up, just a little bit of eye liner, so I won't be changing that up. Hair won't matter since I will probably be wearing a wool toque ( will be out 'hiking' when I die )

More concerned with making sure that my house and yard are all cleaned up and looking nice since no one will see my body and all of my family will see my house.
 
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bigF

New Member
Mar 4, 2019
2
I picked out a dress to go on. I'll do my make up, lashes and and everything, my hair will be curled and I'll die like that.
 
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TearyEyedQueen

TearyEyedQueen

In the wrong timeline
Nov 14, 2019
366
I will do my basic hygiene, wash my hair, shave etc but I honestly never learned to properly put on makeup so that's not an option. I already picked a dress as well.
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
I think I'll be more concerned about basics like eyeliner and diapers.
 
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Manja

Can't wait to die
Nov 27, 2019
182
I'll be blue from SN so what's the point of doing make up...only if loads of base powder can cover that...or I could dress as Indian Lord Shiva, he is blue bc he drank poison from sea to save others...
I think I'll be more concerned about basics like eyeliner and diapers.
Diapers? I forgot about that...can you wear pants over them?
 
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i think death is ugly in any case, no matter what u do
 
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Anathema

Member
Dec 2, 2019
62
I would rather prefer no one found my corpse to be quite honest.
 
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hatelife

Experienced
Oct 13, 2019
269
i read a story several months ago about somebody in the medical field having to preform an autopsy on a young woman who overdosed. before she died, she took a shower, did her makeup, put on perfume & lotion & made sure she was the prettiest corpse she could be. it stuck with the man for years.

it's what i plan on doing to my body, too. not to kiss my own ass but i am beautiful. unfortunately it's only skin deep, my soul is rotten & my brain is traumatized, but wow my face & body are quite nice.

do you plan on keeping your body pristine? does it matter to you? i'm interested in other people's thoughts
yes, I was planning to lose weight, grow out my hair (but its not like it used to be, its hairloss sadly), showe, shave and put on clean dress ofc, change my sheets etc, and maybe clean around a bit in the room. great idea to put on perfume, will do that and maybe some lipstick or makeup :) great idea but im doing SN so I dont know if its any point with makeup or all this as it might get messy with SN if one vomits...
also im naturally ugly so Im only doing all that hopefully if I have enough strenght for it, to look presentable or "okey"
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
I've already let it go so no. I'd rather it wasn't too horrific should anyone have to find me but aside from that no. I look like shit when looks are all I cared about. I've just wasted what I had which is precisely why I want to kill myself
 
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Farmmaa

Farmmaa

Specialist
Dec 4, 2019
343
I think I'll be more concerned about basics like eyeliner and diapers.

I think I will do a cleanse a few days before so that my digestive tract is empty
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,322
I don't care about my physical aspect anymore. I'm ugly and fat. Do you know about Evelyn McHale's suicide? It's known as "The Most Beautiful Suicide"

 
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hatelife

Experienced
Oct 13, 2019
269
I don't care about my physical aspect anymore. I'm ugly and fat. Do you know about Evelyn McHale's suicide?

yeah me too, but its still nice to maybe dress up if I have the strenght, because Im going some place else, I want to look presentable, Im worried im going to hell though still, thats what I deserve anyways, might aswell put me on death row
 
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LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
I'm going to try to clean myself up a bit but I'm not too worried about my appearance. Im sure the coroner has seen it all.
 
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Livingvsdying25

Livingvsdying25

Enlightened
Dec 8, 2019
1,188
Tbh i think im gorgeous and i also i love being natural without makeup and stuff. So.im not sure how id wanna go. I do love doing my makeup & I think i would like to die peak beauty. But in sweats, bc some comfort is needed.
 
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hatelife

Experienced
Oct 13, 2019
269
:heart: you are very pretty
 
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goldenrods

goldenrods

your angel
Dec 27, 2019
84
Well, if I only had any beauty to begin with, right?

Anyway, I have similar plans as you. I will also prepare myself and go out in a pretty dress. which I only bought for this final purpose. I'm even gonna wear diapers under my dress to prevent a mess, because y'know - people make a mess when they die and I'm not sure if you preserve much dignity if you're found lying in your own poop. There isn't really anything you can do to prevent that, well - except not eating for a few days I guess.

Here, I posted this picture before, back when the selfie thread in this forum was a thing. Sadly, the thread was deleted due to new privacy policies and so was my picture. I'm not even sure if I'm allowed to post it again but it doesn't show any personal information and that's how I will go out. My inspiration are the fairy tale princesses Sleeping Beauty and Snow White, who are both shown to be in a deep sleep and pretty. That's my inspiration for my exit, because I want to leave this planet as feminine and pretty as possible - because I wasn't able to experience this for most of my life. I'm transgender, so I want to leave this planet in a way that affirms and displays my gender identity. I want to control the conditions of my exit and that's one of them.

Of course, I hope I'm not gonna end up in a coma - in contrary to the princesses in those fairy tales, who are woken up by a kiss. The irony would be really strong that happened to me as well. Hopefully, not from a kiss though. I would be surprised if N's antidote was a kiss.

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that dress is so beautiful! i haven't even considered wearing diapers.. i work as a nurses aide and might sneak a few from work. i doubt they'll fit me but eh :(
i'm going to be wearing something similar. this lady gave my mom a beautiful white satin nightgown from the 60s as a present. never warn, was in her closet for years. my mom gave it to me. i know it's somewhere in my house, i just have to find it & wash it. it would look so good with my complexion and hair color.
as for the trans thing - i'm glad there's another lgbt member here! i'm bi leaning toward woman. nothing but respect for you
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,322
Well, if I only had any beauty to begin with, right?

Anyway, I have similar plans as you. I will also prepare myself and go out in a pretty dress. which I only bought for this final purpose. I'm even gonna wear diapers under my dress to prevent a mess, because y'know - people make a mess when they die and I'm not sure if you preserve much dignity if you're found lying in your own poop. There isn't really anything you can do to prevent that, well - except not eating for a few days I guess.

Here, I posted this picture before, back when the selfie thread in this forum was a thing. Sadly, the thread was deleted due to new privacy policies and so was my picture. I'm not even sure if I'm allowed to post it again but it doesn't show any personal information and that's how I will go out. My inspiration are the fairy tale princesses Sleeping Beauty and Snow White, who are both shown to be in a deep sleep and pretty. That's my inspiration for my exit, because I want to leave this planet as feminine and pretty as possible - because I wasn't able to experience this for most of my life. I'm transgender, so I want to leave this planet in a way that affirms and displays my gender identity. I want to control the conditions of my exit and that's one of them.

Of course, I hope I'm not gonna end up in a coma - in contrary to the princesses in those fairy tales, who are woken up by a kiss. The irony would be really strong that happened to me as well. Hopefully, not from a kiss though. I would be surprised if N's antidote was a kiss.

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Nice dress!!
 
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Moonicide

Moonicide

ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
Nov 19, 2019
802
Yes. I have always intended to put on my favorite dress and get all dolled up for my ctb... It's a celebration! I might as well go out in style.
 
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HereToday

HereToday

Arcanist
Dec 27, 2019
437
I plan on doing the opposite so no sick fuck morgue worker fucks my corpse. Yes it's a thing and far more common than you think
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
It's basically what I wanna do. I wear makeup and do my hair every day as its important for me to always look like me and not like my illness.
So I will wear a nice outfit and make sure I look my best, smell clean and so on.
 

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