Preparing to go

[killmeplz]

I've accepted the finality that is my wasted existence and am 100% certain I check out this year. There's no fixing how bad I'm utterly fucked in the foreseeable future. My existence is a total waste and won't improve. While I know I'm fortunate to have basics, the fact that I've ruined all chances to have a good and productive life. Noone besides my cat and gf will be impacted. My gf would be better off though she insists otherwise. My cat is the only living thing that'd be negatively impacted by my death. No friends. Family wouldn't really notice and would have gossip from it.

My cat is the love of my life. Sadly idk anyone that'd be able to take her in, so that is the only guilty thing I feel about planning to go. I almost hope she dies soon so her life won't be ruined by me going.

My gf is the best person in my life and best friend. She 100% deserves better. She knows all my issues and still stays around. I'd like to make it easier for her to deal with when I check out. A letter probably isn't enough. Any ideas of how to ease it for a loved one? No need to stress over my family

 

[Argo]

Your suffering has to be immense, so I think if you're just honest in what you communicate, anyone who truly loves you will understand. There's really not much else to say, just be honest and to the point.

 

[mortuarymary]

You have someone that reply's on you, your cat.
who is going to take care of the cat? i couldn't do it to my dogs. What about your GF?
im not talking you out of it but make sure things are in order before you go. Especially the cat.