What's the name of the shampoo?
Its sold as ketoconazol, nizoral. Dont think you should use it over a long time, as a suicide method. I used it for a long time, in a low dose, to increase my quality of life, because itching all over is hell, and it was the only medicine that worked for that issue. My health has been running down from my teens, in rapid speed, and starting medicines actually allowed me to have some experiences my health was too poor for. When you are in your 20s, doctors tell you theres nothing they can do, you are bed bound, you are in horrible pain and suffering all day. You do not sleep. Improvement expectations are zero. Life quality is zero. And they wont prescribe you much because it has a 'risk' and 'you are still young'. When your life quality is less than that of your 80 old grandma. Then you wonder. Do I stay in this bed. Or try to research whatever gets me out of it, allows me to experience some fun, even if the medicines may limit the length of life, have risks. I saw no point in some predicted 40-60 years in bed, pain, suffering, no sleep driving me crazy, then die. Just to live long. After a year of bed and suffering I wanted to die and seeing me suffer like that hurt anyone around me too. So picked the 'try whatever medicines get me out of bed' route. Have always picked the shorter life, with more experiences. Have no regrets of these choices at all. Have gotten out of bed and experienced things. Cared. Loved people. Explored creativity. Have been high on artificial happiness a lot. Seen the outside world as much as I could, seen, tasted, exerienced life. I lived!
Ketoconazole is a mold killer, so it makes someone who suffers from lots of molds feel better. Candida is a mold. Long term low dose use in a person who had molds like candida improves life quality. I used it long term to be able to live, not die. But it is a toxic medicine. I am out of non toxic methods to add.
Just think its one of those medicines that targets the right organ in a suicide attempt, and it can be pretty symptom free. On the skin in a very high dose, its absorbed rapidly. There it can aid in dying. I would only use it if with your back against the wall, if living on if your attempt fails, really offers nothing. I am there now. In my case the last two years having had hallucinations on top of the rest of the medical issues and increasingly going insane, losing any dignity, in periods not making any sense, scaring away even the people I care for, not even beeing able to hold the bowels, is what makes me want to ensure that even if I survive, it will be as short as possible. I dont think a life in fear and hallucinations is worth anything, if I cannot even make the simplest bit of contact, am locked in some clinic in a diaper. Whats the point? Also they wont allow me my medicine cocktail, because I am 'too young' and it 'has risks'. I want too either live and experience things I care for, or be dead. Live on my conditions, theirs are to keep me around as long as they can, but no quality. The in between zone is my worst fear. Suffering and having no worthwhile expierences, or any future outlook of them. It is not death I fear. It is no life quality.
