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WaitingForTheBusInTh
Student
- Nov 18, 2020
- 174
I quit my job and I've spent the last couple days cleaning, watching anime, reading manga, and playing games. And that's pretty much what I intend to do until the end.
I am applying to jobs, but I dont really expect to get one, and I want to give my mom my money when I'm gone so I dont want to spend a lot of it with nothing coming in. Thus, one month.
I'm going to be visiting my family this weekend and it feels really weird to think it's probably the last time I'll see them. I dont want to cry when I'm there so I've been trying to not think about it.
I know setting head dates for ctb is a bit extreme, I'll look pretty foolish if I'm still here in late March/April.
I simultaneously feel a sense of peace and fear. Peace because it'll all be over, as I cant keep up with the world. Fear because I dont want to die. I dont want to die but I cant seem to be able to do the things I need to live. I'm annoying and I piss people off, my degree is useless and going back to school wont change anything except add debt. I genuinely cant see how I could feasibly make it to 30, let alone next year.
I'm probably annoying here too. Sorry about that
I am applying to jobs, but I dont really expect to get one, and I want to give my mom my money when I'm gone so I dont want to spend a lot of it with nothing coming in. Thus, one month.
I'm going to be visiting my family this weekend and it feels really weird to think it's probably the last time I'll see them. I dont want to cry when I'm there so I've been trying to not think about it.
I know setting head dates for ctb is a bit extreme, I'll look pretty foolish if I'm still here in late March/April.
I simultaneously feel a sense of peace and fear. Peace because it'll all be over, as I cant keep up with the world. Fear because I dont want to die. I dont want to die but I cant seem to be able to do the things I need to live. I'm annoying and I piss people off, my degree is useless and going back to school wont change anything except add debt. I genuinely cant see how I could feasibly make it to 30, let alone next year.
I'm probably annoying here too. Sorry about that