Venting Possibly moving my date forward

[epil]

Originally I had set myself a date of Oct 18th. And whilst I have had a much calmer and happier (?) Attitude after setting a date. I find myself more and more with thoughts of what am I exactly waiting for. I definitely have the means for CO sitting at home. I also have enough SN but currently a lack of antiemetic, something which can easily be sourced. Over the past few weeks since my last attempt I have successfully lost all of my friends and currently live quite the isolated and lonely life. I set the date of the 18th because I have 4 days off work and if anything were to go wrong I wouldn't lose any wages by returning to work on the monday (possibly?) The truth is, I think I'm jist done and simply delaying the inevitable. I'm currently sat having a pint at the bar. There's a part of me that jist wants to go home and neck the SN I have. Or mix up the acids and CO myself. I know it's a big step but I feel closer to it everyday. I've worked out hiw to send delayed text messages so I can say my goodbyes without having a repeat of last time where people and police turned up at my door.

 

[epil]

The more I drink the more I feel I want to do it tonight

 

[epil]

I've just written some very basic and rudimentary messages to my ex, my best friend and one to the police which I can schedule for several hours afterwards. Not easy but probably made easier by keeping the messages short

 

[Miss clefable]

Hugs

 

[epil]

The co would be better as having a gut full of booze might balls up the sn.

I lost the glass flask and a couple if things to make CO possible at home. Would need to be done in my car if I CO

 

[bbq1]

I lost the glass flask and a couple if things to make CO possible at home. Would need to be done in my car if I CO

Well that's where I'm doing mine, fuck the car, I've left it in my will to the fire brigade to take away and use for new recruits to practice chopping the roof off, then they are to set fire to it.
It flew through it's mot 4 days ago. I'm past caring. It's just a mobile japanese gas box.

 

[epil]

My biggest reluctance todoit in my car is the fact it will invite a newspaper report

 

[epil]

I guess I could try and construct some kind of rudimentary COgen device again. Not really sure what glass reaction vessels I have at home though.

 

[bbq1]

My biggest reluctance todoit in my car is the fact it will invite a newspaper report

So will a house as co means all the neighbours get evacuated for hours. An isolated car is far far fsster to vent out, and no neighbours are at risk or get moved out.


''The incident resulted in the student accommodation block being evacuated while a specialist chemical team from Poole assessed the scene and removed the substances.

https://www.bournemouthecho.co.uk/n...r_own_life_in_chemical_incident_at_uni_halls/

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/ar...y-student-died-carbon-monoxide-poisoning.html

 

[RacilyDank]

The more I drink the more I feel I want to do it tonight

This. I want to do it right now but I'll only be desperate enough / have the balls when I'm drunk. I'm having some drinks with a friend tonight who doesn't listen anymore. With any luck I'll get home and after waiting for the booze to leave my stomach I'll be able to pull the trigger.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

i might do it to within the next few days

why even wait

its just so easy...just a few minutes

 

[epil]

One more pint then im going to head home and see what I have available to build another COgen

 

[epil]

Failing that. I think I'm just going to neck a large amount of SN and try and get into bed

 

[epil]

I'm currently feeling quite numb to everything

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

The ppeh doesent actually mention an antiemetic for SN but does say to take 800mg. Of tagamet. both meto and tagamet speeds up absorbtion by speeding up digestion.

Good luck in whatever you decide to do.

 

[epil]

The ppeh doesent actually mention an antiemetic for SN but does say to take 800mg. Of tagamet. both meto and tagamet speeds up absorbtion by speeding up digestion.

Good luck in whatever you decide to do.

I have a shit ton of ranitidine. Hopefully it will have the same effect?

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

I have a shit ton of ranitidine. Hopefully it will have the same effect?

I think cimetidine is the chem in tagamet.

 

[windingdown]

The ppeh doesent actually mention an antiemetic for SN but does say to take 800mg. Of tagamet. both meto and tagamet speeds up absorbtion by speeding up digestion.

Good luck in whatever you decide to do.

I believe the May 2018 update says vomiting is unlikely, but if you wish to take an antiemetic, take 40mg metoclopramide 30 mins before.

I hear you, OP. I am getting closer and closer, too. Everything is just geared toward that aim now. Be well.

 

[epil]

Right, I'm heading home. I'll see what I have to try and fashion a new COgen

 

[Ben]

Originally I had set myself a date of Oct 18th. And whilst I have had a much calmer and happier (?) Attitude after setting a date. I find myself more and more with thoughts of what am I exactly waiting for. I definitely have the means for CO sitting at home. I also have enough SN but currently a lack of antiemetic, something which can easily be sourced. Over the past few weeks since my last attempt I have successfully lost all of my friends and currently live quite the isolated and lonely life. I set the date of the 18th because I have 4 days off work and if anything were to go wrong I wouldn't lose any wages by returning to work on the monday (possibly?) The truth is, I think I'm jist done and simply delaying the inevitable. I'm currently sat having a pint at the bar. There's a part of me that jist wants to go home and neck the SN I have. Or mix up the acids and CO myself. I know it's a big step but I feel closer to it everyday. I've worked out hiw to send delayed text messages so I can say my goodbyes without having a repeat of last time where people and police turned up at my door.

Hey, you're at the bar enjoying a pint. Good enough reason to wait a day right there. You don't have to be upset with yourself if you keep wanting to delay it. If you don't have a deadline to meet, and you can deal with the pain for another day...there is no rush

Im not a fan of the whole "just do it" mentality. You don't need a big life changing reason to delay your KTB attempt. Let people have their second thoughts! It potentially could show them that maybe their life is actually manageable.

For others who have a date, let them enjoy the time they have left. If I was going to KTB in 5 hours, I would spend those 5 hours watching a favourite movie, eating a favorited snack, etc..and screw anybody who says I shouldn't do that and go right to KTB!

It's not a lack of seriousness because they delay it. If that's the logic, everyone who logs onto this site isn't serious and doesn't want to die. Why? Because they are not dead. It's just silly.

 

[epil]

Hey, you're at the bar enjoying a pint. Good enough reason to wait a day right there. You don't have to be upset with yourself if you keep wanting to delay it. If you don't have a deadline to meet, and you can deal with the pain for another day...there is no rush

Im not a fan of the whole "just do it" mentality. You don't need a big life changing reason to delay your KTB attempt. Let people have their second thoughts! It potentially could show them that maybe their life is actually manageable.

For others who have a date, let them enjoy the time they have left. If I was going to KTB in 5 hours, I would spend those 5 hours watching a favourite movie, eating a favorited snack, etc..and screw anybody who says I shouldn't do that and go right to KTB!

It's not a lack of seriousness because they delay it. If that's the logic, everyone who logs onto this site isn't serious and doesn't want to die. Why? Because they are not dead. It's just silly.

Yeah. I'm not at the bar anymore. Im at home. Currently drilling into some glass jars. But I get what youre say I g about delaying it. I feel like I've delayed it fir too long already.

 

[epil]

Somethings not right. I'm not getting any CO through the mask.

 

[epil]

 

[epil]

I guess I'm actually doing this. If I don't log on here tomorrow assume it worked. Currently lying in my bed with a gas mask on my head. Just need to mix the acids and hope...

 

[windingdown]

I loved living in the U.K. for years (I am from the U.S.). I used to think that, if my surroundings were right, I would be happy. It did rather work for a time. It is just interesting to recognize that people contend with the same sorts of existential issues everywhere, and that living in this place or that one doesn't generally provide the answer; it doesn't make everything OK. (I am just observing your U.K. kitchen).

I hope you are OK, whatever is transpiring.

 

[epil]

I don't think it's working. I think my jar isn't air tight enough compared to when I had my glass flask. I'm barely getting any CO flow..... possibly will have to try the SN. I didn't want to as no antiemetics

 

[epil]

Just taken 900mg ranitidine. Is it half an hour before taking the SN? I'm thinking 20g

 

[epil]

Also I've burnt my hands leg and face from the acids. Also burnt the he'll out of my bedroom carpet and bedside cabinet

 

[windingdown]

I don't think it's working. I think my jar isn't air tight enough compared to when I had my glass flask. I'm barely getting any CO flow..... possibly will have to try the SN. I didn't want to as no antiemetics

Oh dear, how frustrating. You look like you had a good setup there... way beyond my ctb skillset! (tubes, etc).

SN is my method - the more I read about it, the more it seems like a guaranteed way. The PPH does say vomiting is unlikely. If your stomach is empty, all that there should be to vomit up is about 1/2 cup (50 ml) of water. If you want metoclopramide, you may want to try the eBay seller from Greece. I can see it arriving within a week to the UK.

 

[overkill]

Also I've burnt my hands leg and face from the acids. Also burnt the he'll out of my bedroom carpet and bedside cabinet

abort man, ABORT. Buy N from A and stop with this insanity.