Help Possible methods for younger people?

[nzdarkshark]

NOTE: if you are here just to tell me I am 'too young' to be thinking about this - please kindly leave this topic and go about your day. Age is just a number and I can hurt as much as anyone else. Thank you.

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Being young and suicidal is hard, and for one main reason (I feel).
Materials.
As an adult it would be easier to gain more 'passive' materials such as sn or n. At a young age still living with parents, that ain't easy xD
I was just wondering if anyone had any suggestions on what methods I could potentially get my hands on.
I've tried hanging but couldn't get it right and the rope was taken off me the next day. I am terribly afraid of heights and that may hinder my ability to jump. The only medication I have in my possession is around 80 20mg Citalopram tablets.

Any help is appreciated.​

 

[TheGoodGuy]

You could try hanging again but find a secluded area where you won´t be disturbed like in a forest or something like that.

How old are you if you mind me asking? You can PM me your answer if you feel people will judge because trust me there is NOTHING you can say that will make me judge you and I agree completely with the age thing no one knows what you are going through even if some will say "it´s just a phase" that really doesn´t matter even if it is a phase it´s like a person being tortured for an hour I bet that person would want to be killed and get the pain overwith and then it doesn´t matter if that pain will go away in the future.

Also you could use heroin or opiods your age is irrelevant because if you have a bank account you can buy bitcoins and order it from the deep web.

 

[nzdarkshark]

You could try hanging again but find a secluded area where you won´t be disturbed like in a forest or something like that.

How old are you if you mind me asking? You can PM me your answer if you feel people will judge because trust me there is NOTHING you can say that will make me judge you and I agree completely with the age thing no one knows what you are going through even if some will say "it´s just a phase" that really doesn´t matter even if it is a phase it´s like a person being tortured for an hour I bet that person would want to be killed and get the pain overwith and then it doesn´t matter if that pain will go away in the future.

Also you could use heroin or opiods your age is irrelevant because if you have a bank account you can buy bitcoins and order it from the deep web.

I'm 17 - will be 18 in April of next year if I'm still alive then (I hope not).
I do have a fabric belt I could use but it's much much shorter than the rope I'd used the first time (It's around..a metre and a half in length perhaps? Maybe a little shorter.).

The trouble with ordering things online is where they get shipped to. I don't want my parents getting suspisious if something comes in the mail that looks like something dangerous.

 

[Voldmort]

This way it gets a bit difficult. When I do not have access to sn I can only think of doing jumping.
Partial hanging seems to be effective if done the right way. In your situation, I suggest that you try to pick up the rope again and do it the right way or force the jump in a high place, over 20 meters, and jump head.

 

[nzdarkshark]

This way it gets a bit difficult. When I do not have access to sn I can only think of doing jumping.
Partial hanging seems to be effective if done the right way. In your situation, I suggest that you try to pick up the rope again and do it the right way or force the jump in a high place, over 20 meters, and jump head.

I don't think I can get the rope back unless they put it back in the shed
I guess I could just tell myself if I'm really serious about this I'll jump. I've got nothing to fear unless the fall just breaks me instead of kills me. I'd just need to find a close enough place to jump from.

I'm only 4'5 in height, and weight around 40-42kg - does that mean I could have a little leeway in the height in which I could jump from?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I'm 17 - will be 18 in April of next year if I'm still alive then (I hope not).
I do have a fabric belt I could use but it's much much shorter than the rope I'd used the first time (It's around..a metre and a half in length perhaps? Maybe a little shorter.).

The trouble with ordering things online is where they get shipped to. I don't want my parents getting suspisious if something comes in the mail that looks like something dangerous.

17 and soon 18 isn´t too young I still wish I had ctb as I intended to when I was 18 because I realized at age 17 my social life was over for good and of course among other problems.

You will receive a letter nothing that looks suspicious and if it get caught in customs they will call your cellphone (if you have mailed it to your name)

 

[nzdarkshark]

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17 and soon 18 isn´t too young I still wish I had ctb as I intended to when I was 18 because I realized at age 17 my social life was over for good and of course among other problems.

You will receive a letter nothing that looks suspicious and if it get caught in customs they will call your cellphone (if you have mailed it to your name)

It sounds like something I could consider as a back up plan at the very least

 

[TheUnrealGod]

What is "sn" and "n"?

 

[chapternate]

What is "sn" and "n"?

sodium nitrite and nembutal

 

[hikikomori]

im 18 same issue except my parents dont let me near sharp objects im planning on using this

https://www.amazon.com/Sodium-Nitri...qid=1541022183&sr=8-6&keywords=sodium+nitrite

 

[Duqu]

im 18 same issue except my parents dont let me near sharp objects im planning on using this

https://www.amazon.com/Sodium-Nitri...qid=1541022183&sr=8-6&keywords=sodium+nitrite

That's what I have. Just came in the standard amazon bubble envelope. If I lived with my parents I'd have just said it was lotion or something (it's about the same size; only 4 oz)

 

[hikikomori]

what did the packing say?

 

[nzdarkshark]

im 18 same issue except my parents dont let me near sharp objects im planning on using this

https://www.amazon.com/Sodium-Nitri...qid=1541022183&sr=8-6&keywords=sodium+nitrite

I'll look into it if it comes in a non suspisious looking envelope.

 

[hikikomori]

lol my first plan was growing water hemlock seeds every single thing in the envalope had a stamp saying poison on it.unfortunatly i cant grow plants and it died instead of me

 

[nzdarkshark]

Im looking into Sn - anyone know trustworthy suppliers who ship internationally?

 

[Trashcan]

Do you get an allowance or have any source of income? If you do, you could maybe purchase a rope at Walmart and a door pull up bar at Dick's Sporting Goods.

 

[Virgo]

This way it gets a bit difficult. When I do not have access to sn I can only think of doing jumping.
Partial hanging seems to be effective if done the right way. In your situation, I suggest that you try to pick up the rope again and do it the right way or force the jump in a high place, over 20 meters, and jump head.

20 m is to low.

 

[Voldmort]

20 m is to low.

how long would be?

 

[nzdarkshark]

Do you get an allowance or have any source of income? If you do, you could maybe purchase a rope at Walmart and a door pull up bar at Dick's Sporting Goods.

I am planning on getting a job soon to get some income. No Wal-Mart here - but the hardware store may sell rope.

 

[Virgo]

how long would be?

Idk. I would at least double it.

 

[Lra888]

Children's N

 

[nzdarkshark]

It may be also importaint to note N is illigal here in NZ and if the health board finds it they will confiscate it at the border.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Hanging is always the easiest method to get materials for. I know of your past failure with it, but with some practice you probably will be able to do it. You can buy rope in a hardware store, no need to buy it online. And it's quite cheap, so even a small allowance should be enough.

Other than hanging, only jumping comes to my mind, and it isn't a very good method, in my opinion.

N is too hard to get even for adults. Fucking paternalistic society.

Good luck in your future attempts!

 

[nzdarkshark]

Hanging is always the easiest method to get materials for. I know of your past failure with it, but with some practice you probably will be able to do it. You can buy rope in a hardware store, no need to buy it online. And it's quite cheap, so even a small allowance should be enough.

Other than hanging, only jumping comes to my mind, and it isn't a very good method, in my opinion.

N is too hard to get even for adults. Fucking paternalistic society.

Good luck in your future attempts!

Thanks for the tips! I plan to hopefully maybe save up for Sn - but if that can't work out I may go for hanging again. There's also that 'night night' method floating around which seems easy and cheap.

 

[Fcancer]

I am planning on getting a job soon to get some income. No Wal-Mart here - but the hardware store may sell rope.

Just don't go to bunnings on weekend, cause you will get a sausage sizzle om way out and change your mind because it taste so good. Damn I miss those sausage sizzle mmmmm yum.

 

[nzdarkshark]

Just don't go to bunnings on weekend, cause you will get a sausage sizzle om way out and change your mind because it taste so good. Damn I miss those sausage sizzle mmmmm yum.

Down here in the south it's Mitre 10 you gotta watch out for xD

 

[hunter_lewis]

Do you want to die now or wait?
You could wait a bit, move out and get your own place, and then set about thinking if you want to do it. At your age, things can change really quickly and you might be in different circumstances in a year.
Do you have a high school diploma?
Are you going to go to school?

 

[nzdarkshark]

Do you want to die now or wait?
You could wait a bit, move out and get your own place, and then set about thinking if you want to do it. At your age, things can change really quickly and you might be in different circumstances in a year.
Do you have a high school diploma?
Are you going to go to school?

I want to die as soon as possible. I've been suffering for a few years - if things were going to get better things would be either neutral or even better. Things just get worse as time goes on.

I'm in my second-last year of school - with my vision of what I want to do a mix of what I want to do and what I have to do because people say my dream career isn't a real one.

 

[hunter_lewis]

I want to die as soon as possible. I've been suffering for a few years - if things were going to get better things would be either neutral or even better. Things just get worse as time goes on.

I'm in my second-last year of school - with my vision of what I want to do a mix of what I want to do and what I have to do because people say my dream career isn't a real one.

I'm just saying that a lot can change for you, especially at your age. It was like that for me (before I got physically sick).
All the best for you, it is up to you of course if you want to or not. I however would give anything to be you, to be a bit younger again and to be able to go to school to finish my degree and not have crippling pain all the time.

 

[Virgo]

Hanging is always the easiest method to get materials for. I know of your past failure with it, but with some practice you probably will be able to do it. You can buy rope in a hardware store, no need to buy it online. And it's quite cheap, so even a small allowance should be enough.

Other than hanging, only jumping comes to my mind, and it isn't a very good method, in my opinion.

N is too hard to get even for adults. Fucking paternalistic society.

Good luck in your future attempts!

What's so bad with jumping?