pong pong tree seeds

[woxihuanni]

If anybody wants to do that, know that seeds are viable (for planting) for two months. I don't know how viable they are for poisoning the fuck out of yourself, but of course I could not ask explicitly. :)

It is fucking painful, so make sure to have an AE regime and valium. Good luck if for whatever reason you prefer this to SN.

Also appreciate any advice. Best of luck to anyone who is lighting up one so that the bus will come quicker.

 

[arelia]

This is a report from Kerala in India where they reviewed all the suicide attempts using the seeds in 2016.
It appears to have a low death rate (16.7%) but they do state that there's more chance of death if there's more than 2 seeds taken and you don't go to hospital (it seems most people went to hospital around the 6 hr mark) and most people who do die, die within 24 hrs.
Treatment is a stomach wash and activated charcoal, they don't mention any physical damage to the survivors.
The other thing they mention is that the seeds taste bitter.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih(dot)gov/pmc/articles/PMC6020632/

 

[woxihuanni]

Thank you! Does not open the link, but I might have seen it before. I've ordered quite enough for an elephant, will take 3 I think. I'm very slender.

Don't know if I should order SN as well, to combine to replace. I don't want to be dying for an entire day. I feel so fucking useless. One thing is, SN may blind you, even if temporarily. With seeds, I don't fear the aftermath of survival in terms of physical damage, but failure would be really bad in my situation.

 

[arelia]

you need to replace the (dot) with a . once you've pasted it into the browser. A pingback to the site from a suicide forum to a paper discussing suicides that are becoming more prevalent because people are buying the seeds online is asking for trouble in my mind.
tbh I'd really like to talk you out of this method - it's another one of those where the dosage depends on your physical body composition and it sounds unpleasant, slow acting and all round not nice.

 

[woxihuanni]

you need to replace the (dot) with a . once you've pasted it into the browser. A pingback to the site from a suicide forum to a paper discussing suicides that are becoming more prevalent because people are buying the seeds online is asking for trouble in my mind.
tbh I'd really like to talk you out of this method - it's another one of those where the dosage depends on your physical body composition and it sounds unpleasant, slow acting and all round not nice.

Ah, sure. Sorry I am very scatter-brained at the moment.

Are you doing SN?

 

[Sahil]

I am indian bt not from kerala...any Indian here provide me the seed

 

[arelia]

Are you doing SN?

nope, my stomach wouldn't stand it. Helium is my current preferred method but it's still a way off yet. I don't need to keep coming back here at the moment but I'm keeping an eye on you and @Rocksandsand as I have that low level concern that comes with wanting people I like to be safe and happy. (yes, I know it's a ridiculous statement for a suicide forum but there you go)

 

[Rachel74]

I read somewhere and I might be wrong so excuse that but are apple seeds poisonous? Think they might contain traces of cyanide.

 

[woxihuanni]

nope, my stomach wouldn't stand it. Helium is my current preferred method but it's still a way off yet. I don't need to keep coming back here at the moment but I'm keeping an eye on you and @Rocksandsand as I have that low level concern that comes with wanting people I like to be safe and happy. (yes, I know it's a ridiculous statement for a suicide forum but there you go)

I'm glad you are not there yet. It means a lot to me that you keep an eye on us, even if I'm dying, it doesn't mean going through days is less easier if I'm all alone. Especially because I don't want to die if I could live.

I read somewhere and I might be wrong so excuse that but are apple seeds poisonous? Think they might contain traces of cyanide.

It doesn't work all in all. If you want an OD, I think it is SN right now unless you can get the holy grail. I wanted heart-poison because I hate my fucking heart and do not want to risk brain damage.

 

[arelia]

I'm glad you are not there yet. It means a lot to me that you keep an eye on us, even if I'm dying, it doesn't mean going through days is less easier if I'm all alone. Especially because I don't want to die if I could live.

If there was a way I could fix it for you I would. Ending it all is a valid option if you've lost all hope of life improving (or even staying the same) but it's staggeringly unfair for people to have to go if they don't want to.
I'll be here for as long as you want me to be.

 

[woxihuanni]

Ahah, I think I think they've heard me singing along with false lyrics about my death. They've shut the door. This is battle when there was fake peace, they will throw me in the street. :)

It is all very unfair, hence the rage. Thank you so much, all my love to you, whatever is left of it with all the wounds.

 

[arelia]

Ahah, I think I think they've heard me singing along with false lyrics about my death. They've shut the door. This is battle when there was fake peace, they will throw me in the street. :)

It is all very unfair, hence the rage. Thank you so much, all my love to you, whatever is left of it with all the wounds.

The capacity to love doesn't wither, no matter what is done to your soul. All that happens is it beats a tactical retreat, waits for a breach that is like a chink of light shining on it and then it emerges again. Not always straight away and not always as freely given I grant you but it's always there and waiting.

are you sure there's no other way? (although that's really a private convo)

 

[woxihuanni]

The capacity to love doesn't wither, no matter what is done to your soul. All that happens is it beats a tactical retreat, waits for a breach that is like a chink of light shining on it and then it emerges again. Not always straight away and not always as freely given I grant you but it's always there and waiting.

are you sure there's no other way? (although that's really a private convo)

Yeah maybe better with pm.

 

[Rocksandsand]

@arelia you are a sweetheart. I'm very close to being done. My legal stuff is going nowhere because no one is complying with providing the court ordered reports... I don't really feel happiness or connection with people anymore except on here. I just want out already. I'm actually considering an SN enema and seeing how that plays out. It's like donating my body to science via SS hahaha

 

[arelia]

@arelia you are a sweetheart. I'm very close to being done. My legal stuff is going nowhere because no one is complying with providing the court ordered reports... I don't really feel happiness or connection with people anymore except on here. I just want out already. I'm actually considering an SN enema and seeing how that plays out. It's like donating my body to science via SS hahaha

You're in such a horrible place right now I'm not surprised your emotions have shut down around people who are around you and misjudging you. I hope that you'll manage to find the strength to survive it all and then thrive but I can understand if you decide it's not worth the effort.

Information is always good lovey but don't think you have to do it just because you've said you would.

and would you believe my eyes are watering a little from the mention of an enema? **shudders**

 

[Rocksandsand]

I don't mean to hijack the thread at all - but people like you @arelia and @woxihuanni and so many others are absolute lifelines at the moment

 

[woxihuanni]

You're in such a horrible place right now I'm not surprised your emotions have shut down around people who are around you and misjudging you. I hope that you'll manage to find the strength to survive it all and then thrive but I can understand if you decide it's not worth the effort.

Absolutely.

I don't mean to hijack the thread at all - but people like you @arelia and @woxihuanni and so many others are absolute lifelines at the moment

Nah, that's no hijacking/I don't care. I don't know what I would without this, either.