[Poll] How much suicide attempts did u do?

[Dutch]

I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?

 

[Redt2go]

Hoping to get it right the first time

 

[Funkbunny]

Thinking about it, more crys for help if I'm honest. A sad attempt at a wrist slit, couple of overdoses... just couldn't swallow the pills at the time. All a long time ago now.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Only one determined attempt (partial with a belt) chickened out when started to black out

 

[Johnnythefox]

1. Overdose circa 1984
2. Overdose circa 2003
3. Slit wrist circa 2003
4. Hanging circa 2004
5. Gassing circa 2005

 

[Redt2go]

1. Overdose circa 1984
2. Overdose circa 2003
3. Slit wrist circa 2003
4. Hanging circa 2004
5. Gassing circa 2005

 

[TAW122]

I have no attempts. This is because I don't want to fail and if I am to attempt, it won't be a cry for help, but an genuine action towards the ultimate result, death. I have done extensive research and careful planning for my method so I am just waiting for the right circumstances before I go through with it.

 

[Roberto]

I failed because I didn't enter sites with information like this one.
I can't remember how many times I tried. It's been about 10 years since the last time.
I've been also two days or so sleeping having 150mg of diazepam (almost nothing)
I was naive to try with diazepam 500mg and a lot of antidepressives.
Also I tried with CO2 but I didn't know there was a safety detector of CO2 in the heater. I tried to find a way to disable it. Now I know I can use charcoal, it seems.
I tried to be fat (a way that it wouldn't notice others) but at last the medics convinced me. It's the only way my family wouldn't be ashamed of me. a 'natural' problem.
Now I have the amytriptiline cocktail in front of me in my table. Waiting for the right moment.

 

[Brokenmom]

Failed OD 9 years ago, thinking daily of attempting again for the last year.

 

[8yy8uiyhbij]

I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?

From what I've learned it isn't just a cry for help. It's hard to end eveything you know and that's what stops people.

 

[DyingToCTB]

I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?

It's not easy to end your life, especially if you're not educated on how to properly do it. Even on this site, there's failed attempts. Personally, I have failed because of that and being scared of the pain, so I didn't choose something like hanging. If it were as easy as pushing a button, many more of us would be gone.

 

[NoDream]

I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?

For me, i was to young to know how to do it. I tried and almost made it when i was 5 yo, sucked on a flat and round decoration and it got stuck in my throat as planned, but unfortunatly i coughed it up after a minute.
Another time i swallowed hair because i'd heard you would die then.
Also tried to suffocate under a duvet and several times i jumped out into traffic, but discovered that cars can stop on a dime.:(

When i was 10 yo i jumped in a 4 meter deep pool because i couldnt swim then and thought i would drown, but no, i float like a fucking cork!

 

[Need-a-Place]

I've tried 3x. Each time I learn from my mistakes. I am hopeful I have perfected my method, now know exactly what to expect, and will die on my next attempt.

 

[Jupiter]

1. Overdose circa 1984
2. Overdose circa 2003
3. Slit wrist circa 2003
4. Hanging circa 2004
5. Gassing circa 2005

This is hard to read.

 

[JJ-NOHOPE]

4 times.
Twice when I was 13, then 15 & finally 16.

Now I'm in my 50s and I still wish I had succeeded when I was 13.

Would have saved me from a lonely pathetic wasted life.

 

[tiggles2000]

I have tried partial many times, most days for over a month. As I started to get close to blacking out, I would wuss out. This is the reason I changed my method of choice to one that is harder to chicken out. I haven't been in such a bad headspace as I was for that month, but if I am, I am fairly certain my new method will work.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

I did two serious attempts, and many half-assed ones because I'm too scared to die.
I don't understand it! If I hate feeling this way 24/7, it should be easy to go through with it! I hate the survival instinct. Feel so strange when its kicked, as if I'm not really there, my body is undoing that knot ir whatever.

I just dont wanna fail..

 

[Need-a-Place]

I did two serious attempts, and many half-assed ones because I'm too scared to die.
I don't understand it! If I hate feeling this way 24/7, it should be easy to go through with it! I hate the survival instinct. Feel so strange when its kicked, as if I'm not really there, my body is undoing that knot ir whatever.

I just dont wanna fail..

The weird part is i keep telling myself people die all the time... in pain all the time... unable to do a damn thing about it. Like bleeding out in a car crash, or getting crushed by heavy machinery, or slipping and falling from a great height, etc. If i slipped and fell on accident vs jumping on purpose, id feel the same pain and experience the same death. So why is it so hard to make myself jump? If i had slipped, like many people before me have done, i would be stuck experiencing all the pains of a falling death without choice anyway. If a 15 year old kid can accidentally fall off a parking structure and die, whos to say that pain and death he experienced isnt good enough for me? I deserve better somehow? A more painless death? He had to experience everything all of a sudden out of nowhere. I get to experience the same sensations after mentally bracing myself. If he can go through the dying process, so should i be able to.

I mean what if thats how im destined to die anyway? Slip and fall from a great height when im in my 40s? And i put off my death of jumping for 20 years only to die that way anyway in the end??

 

[Redt2go]

The weird part is i keep telling myself people die all the time... in pain all the time... unable to do a damn thing about it. Like bleeding out in a car crash, or getting crushed by heavy machinery, or slipping and falling from a great height, etc. If i slipped and fell on accident vs jumping on purpose, id feel the same pain and experience the same death. So why is it so hard to make myself jump? If i had slipped, like many people before me have done, i would be stuck experiencing all the pains of a falling death without choice anyway. If a 15 year old kid can accidentally fall off a parking structure and die, whos to say that pain and death he experienced isnt good enough for me? I deserve better somehow? A more painless death? He had to experience everything all of a sudden out of nowhere. I get to experience the same sensations after mentally bracing myself. If he can go through the dying process, so should i be able to.

I mean what if thats how im destined to die anyway? Slip and fall from a great height when im in my 40s? And i put off my death of jumping for 20 years only to die that way anyway in the end??

Interesting. I can relate

 

[Sickman75]

4x the next one I'm not failing at

 

[First loss]

Twice.
Both full suspension hanging.
Failed because fucking survival instinct.

 

[Jiva]

I did many suicide attempts, but most attempts were tests only (usually by partial hanging). Only if some attempt was painless and hopeful, i wanted continue. Honestly, only two attempts were really real, but i failed too.

 

[Querry1]

Just once, with SN, failed because scared.

 

[Toenditall]

2003 slit wirst
2005 hanging
2018 jump in front of traffic
2018 od
2019 od
2019 hanging

 

[Xaphous]

One shit attempt years ago, it's depressing that it's hard to do

 

[Raggas]

0 regrettably.

 

[lemmeeleev]

1 about a year ago, survival instinct. Got halfway through and backed out. Kinda glad i didn't do it, I would have failed. I won't next time for sure.

 

[Feline]

Five failed overdoses
2 failed attempts at partial before I chickened out.

I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?

 

[Welcumtotherealworld]

It's not easy to end your life, especially if you're not educated on how to properly do it. Even on this site, there's failed attempts. Personally, I have failed because of that and being scared of the pain, so I didn't choose something like hanging. If it were as easy as pushing a button, many more of us would be gone.

Hanging isn't painful as long as you use padding. And even those that have attempted full suspension here say that they didn't feel anything whilst they were out.

 

[seekingoblivion]

For me, i was to young to know how to do it. I tried and almost made it when i was 5 yo, sucked on a flat and round decoration and it got stuck in my throat as planned, but unfortunatly i coughed it up after a minute.
Another time i swallowed hair because i'd heard you would die then.
Also tried to suffocate under a duvet and several times i jumped out into traffic, but discovered that cars can stop on a dime.:(

When i was 10 yo i jumped in a 4 meter deep pool because i couldnt swim then and thought i would drown, but no, i float like a fucking cork!

You were a pretty determined kid huh. How old are you now? If you don't mind me asking