Venting Police visit brought back my depression, how has it affected you?

[PinkSakura]

I've already made a post about my early morning police visit experience for SN.

Before this visit I was alright, I was going to work everyday, keeping up with my social life, doing my hobbies, everything was alright and moving at a good pace.

Now I just feel down, my sleep is fucked, which had fucked up my appetite too. Which has ruined my plans since I've overslept two days in a row. I don't feel like talking to my friends either, I've left most messages unanswered.

I think I'm getting depressed again, all because of this dam police visit. If I continue feeling down who knows I might feel like I want to ctb again .

I've just spent the day laying in bed, I haven't done anything productive, not even ate breakfast or lunch.

How has this affected everyone else?

 

[zeenatax]

I am sorry you are going through this. Don't let this ruin your days. Just give yourself couple of days. It normal to feel that way after traumatic events. Don't think about it. It is over now. Try to focus on other things. Get out and go out with your friends. The whole wellness check is a scar tactic. The LE has zero emotional intelligence. They are trained to deal with criminals. So naturally this is how they will treat anyone they encounter. You didn't do anything wrong. You just got caught up in somebody else's power trip. Going out and being around others will make you forget the event. Once you get into the routine you will feel normal again.
Hope you feel well again.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Had a similar effect on me, now worried they'll make a second visit, it is making me feel more desperate to ctb, as if I need to do it soon.

 

[epic]

People making posts about KL welfare check . You might be giving away your SaSu identity !

Anybody in LE will simply connect these 2 dots. Your real life welfare check and your Sasu post about the welfare check . Leading to the compromise of your SaSu anonymity.

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[PinkSakura]

I am sorry you are going through this. Don't let this ruin your days. Just give yourself couple of days. It normal to feel that way after traumatic events. Don't think about it. It is over now. Try to focus on other things. Get out and go out with your friends. The whole wellness check is a scar tactic. The LE has zero emotional intelligence. They are trained to deal with criminals. So naturally this is how they will treat anyone they encounter. You didn't do anything wrong. You just got caught up in somebody else's power trip. Going out and being around others will make you forget the event. Once you get into the routine you will feel normal again.
Hope you feel well again.

Thanks for your kind words I will try to find my motivation again

Had a similar effect on me, now worried they'll make a second visit, it is making me feel more desperate to ctb, as if I need to do it soon.

I feel the same

People making posts about KL welfare check . You might be giving away your SaSu identity !

Anybody in LE will simply connect these 2 dots. Your real life welfare check and your Sasu post about the welfare check . Leading to the compromise of your SaSu anonymity.

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thanks for looking out, but I don't care anymore. I posted my pictures on my profile and everyone knows my name is Sakura. They can come back idc anymore, I might be dead the next time they come lol

 

[FuneralGrey]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I feel so upset for all the people all over the world who have been subjected to this unnecessary LE action.

Honestly, I was doing pretty okay the past few months. I bought my SN almost a year ago. But like you, this has really disrupted my life. I've been scared and shaky and having trouble sleeping and eating and thinking about ctb a lot more seriously than I have been.

I hope this will pass soon. I hope you can find more peace over the coming days, as it gets farther away. For now, I am trying to go about my life as normal, although it is hard. Sort of like zeenatax said, the best or only thing we can do is just try to move on and make peace. Being active, even if it's just a small task like making an easy meal, can really help you start to heal. Being social. It sucks what happened and how they went about it. I hope we can all start to feel at ease soon.

 

[Never Alive]

It brought back trauma from being hospitalized and huge depression and just being f*cking lost. I don't have SN anymore. What the fuck. My mind can't comprehend it. I also did a huge mistake, had the chance to keep 150g, or just 50g, but now I'm left empty-handed.

 

[rêve]

I might feel like I want to ctb again

Hey let's not get hasty here, try reconsidering your options. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here

 

[Exact Change]

I've already made a post about my early morning police visit experience for SN.

Before this visit I was alright, I was going to work everyday, keeping up with my social life, doing my hobbies, everything was alright and moving at a good pace.

Now I just feel down, my sleep is fucked, which had fucked up my appetite too. Which has ruined my plans since I've overslept two days in a row. I don't feel like talking to my friends either, I've left most messages unanswered.

I think I'm getting depressed again, all because of this dam police visit. If I continue feeling down who knows I might feel like I want to ctb again .

I've just spent the day laying in bed, I haven't done anything productive, not even ate breakfast or lunch.

How has this affected everyone else?

It has definitely increased my anxiety and paranoia . I drank way too much yesterday which always messes up my head.