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moon_r4
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- Jan 27, 2019
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Hi this is my first post. i have browsed this site and the previous subreddit before and found some comfort in reading discussions about people in similar positions, so thank you.
The main thing that holds me back from CTB is the guilt for the sadness and pain that my family would feel as a result of my actions. I feel that it would be relatively easier to lose someone to illness or an accident, than with suicide. And so, i think if it seemed like i had not intentionally killed myself, then it would be relatively easier for family to process. When i think like this, the guilt becomes less of an obstacle.
There is unfortunately no practical way of (quickly) inducing terminal illness, but i feel that with poisonous plants and mushrooms, it can easily be made to look like an accident. Many very poisonous species have some edible lookalikes, so after death it would likely be determined that death was accidental due to misidentification.
Death this way will be very unpleasant and you will suffer. But for me it may be worth it, i'm not sure yet.
Not really sure what i'm asking here. Had this stuff going round my head constantly for the last few weeks and needed to get it out. Thank you for reading.
The main thing that holds me back from CTB is the guilt for the sadness and pain that my family would feel as a result of my actions. I feel that it would be relatively easier to lose someone to illness or an accident, than with suicide. And so, i think if it seemed like i had not intentionally killed myself, then it would be relatively easier for family to process. When i think like this, the guilt becomes less of an obstacle.
There is unfortunately no practical way of (quickly) inducing terminal illness, but i feel that with poisonous plants and mushrooms, it can easily be made to look like an accident. Many very poisonous species have some edible lookalikes, so after death it would likely be determined that death was accidental due to misidentification.
Death this way will be very unpleasant and you will suffer. But for me it may be worth it, i'm not sure yet.
Not really sure what i'm asking here. Had this stuff going round my head constantly for the last few weeks and needed to get it out. Thank you for reading.