Venting Pointless vent of a 19yo

[przeciwwymiotne]

How to stop giving in to the temptation of staying in bed all day?

Active life tires me out and I'm ashamed of that. I give in to being lazy and indulgent. I often neglect my responsibilities and even the things I wanna do. Bed and food seem to be a stronger stimulus than dreams, learning, accomplishments and hobbies. Even physical activity, which always makes me feel better became something I often neglect. I dunno how to find balance. Idk how to stop laying in bed. I can sometimes overpower the urge... But I probably should be trying harder. Any tips?

My room is small, I will be putting a curtain over my bed so that I can section it off. That's a physical queue not to lay there. But what about my mindset? It's a bad habit I have to get rid of or at first make less frequent.

It's often the case that when I get up and actually get things done I feel better and hopeful, but then quickly comes feeling overwhelmed and want for strict control over everything. I like planning and time management, at my best I was able to stick to healthy habits despite not always being 'into it' or in the mood. I think I have potential to become a very organized and productive person. Right now I'm self destructive and I give up very quickly without realising it. I used to be aware of the thoughts that told me to give up, I was separated from them and viewed them as brain junk. Now giving up is my default setting.

I tend to stay in bed all day, binge eat and distract myself with the phone. I despise of myself. I've become weak and lazy. It feels as though change is possible but I'm not trying hard enough. Is there anything I can do to make it easier? Or is it all up to me and I should just stop whining and either fix my life or live with the consequences of my awful habits.... Cause like, I'm the only one who can help me, right?

Planning out my day seems to be the way to go. I've trouble planning rest periods. Whenever I'm in productive mode and try to rest I end up anxious and stressed. It feels as though I can only rest by engaging in self destruction, extreme binge eating, isolating myself.

I think the answer is simple: Just don't do it and you'll get out of the habit of doing it.

I just wonder if there are any tools that could help.

 

[Hollowillow]

Stop thinking like a slave.

rest.
eat.

shamelessly.

You feel anxious because society puts too much burden & pressure

Everyone has a burn out. That's what depression is.

Some food heal & give energy better. Vitamin c & b.

Using a phone can burn out the brain too.

Maybe make a list of stuff you have to do, want to do. I use google calendar.

I got hit by a car. Needed to sleep non stop to heal. Still do. Anyone who mock me by calling me lazy... I want to drag them by the throath & throw them in front of a car.

I have enough with the insults for having needs. I don't want to be alive & need to eat & rest... I'd suicide if i could

 

[[HNO]]

i'm lazy and apathetic, low energy, motivation, crippling depression and porn addiction, chores put off for months, etc. binge eating involved with food ignoring and sleeping for 12 hours per day or insomnia of 1 1/2 day of awake
gonna try these books and to strictly adhere to their recommendations to fix a ruined life to some degree
but first i need to find resolve to even open it lol
if you want i can report a progress of how my situation goes month after
either PM or in the thread

 

[Hollowillow]

i'm lazy and apathetic, low energy, motivation, crippling depression and porn addiction, chores put off for months, etc. binge eating involved with food ignoring and sleeping for 12 hours per day or insomnia of 1 1/2 day of awake
gonna try these books and to strictly adhere to their recommendations to fix a ruined life to some degree
but first i need to find resolve to even open it lol
if you want i can report a progress of how my situation goes month after
either PM or in the thread

Too exhausted to masturbate. It wastes zinc & protein in sperm. I guess it's a way to get high.

I wish society praised peaceful zen rest instead.

They want us to drink coffee & energy drinks running their money machines until we drop dead of heart attacks and call us insane with "anxiety" if the heart palpitations hurt...

Can someone hack the nukes & send them upwards? Does canada has nukes? Send some to me from above.

 

[[HNO]]

Too exhausted to masturbate. It wastes zinc & protein in sperm. I guess it's a way to get high.

I wish society praised peaceful zen rest instead.

They want us to drink coffee & energy drinks running their money machines until we drop dead of heart attacks and call us insane with "anxiety" if the heart palpitations hurt...

Can someone hack the nukes & send them upwards? Does canada has nukes? Send some to me from above.

wasted nutrients is only part of a problem. there's actual brain damage from pornography consumption in form of hyporfrontality (decreased motivation and diminished ability to acting according to long term plans) caused by the brain's reward center firing and abnormally structured reward center (occurring the same brain modifications as in brain of drug addict) as porn consumption linked to very elevated dopamine level so it's indeed a way to get high.

also "Edging, peaking, or surfing[1] is a sexual technique whereby an orgasm is controlled. It is practiced alone or with a partner and involves the maintenance of a high level of sexual arousal for an extended period without reaching climax.." it's usually lasts for several hours and always practiced in connection w/ porn. if porn addict falling in it he basically losing the life he'd prefer everything but being productive

and hormonal alterations included as well: elevated prolactin and decreased testosterone level following climax for at least several days

situation turns even worse bc this shit seems forced in sex.ed at preadolescence.

i don't live in the western world but there's westernization process at accelerated paces in my country so it's just matter of the time before full-blown post industrial dystopia came here and all folk being totally crippled by .'comforts of civilization'

lol coffee had no effect on me after half year of high dosage(3-5 cups per day and energy drinks) at one point i start use it for sleep aid cuz it made sleepy rather energetic. at least it's not that hard to break coffee habit

 

[makethepainstop]

Dude, there is no unimportant human thought(s), no matter what age the thinker.,

 

[brokensea]

I wish getting out of bed and doing things made me feel better. I just feel exhausted and worse when I do.

 

[actual_fox]

Stop thinking like a slave.

rest.
eat.

shamelessly.

Based

also "Edging, peaking, or surfing[1] is a sexual technique whereby an orgasm is controlled. It is practiced alone or with a partner and involves the maintenance of a high level of sexual arousal for an extended period without reaching climax.." it's usually lasts for several hours and always practiced in connection w/ porn. if porn addict falling in it he basically losing the life he'd prefer everything but being productive

is edging without porn also bad? Just asking as a single guy.