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thesilentoceans

thesilentoceans

hope is a mental illness
Jan 14, 2024
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its 2024 and im like 20 now but i cant seem to remember anything from my past like childhood and even last year. very thing is so foggy qhen i try to remember. and if i do remember after trying really really hard thw memories overwhelm me that it starts to suffocate me and forces me do sh and isolate myself and angry at others....
why does this happen
does this happen to someone else
 
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DesperateOne

DesperateOne

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May 25, 2023
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Similar thing happens to me when thinking about my childhood, but for a different reason which I can hardly explain. Would guess it has to do with lots and lots of unprocessed trauma.
 
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hikikomorizombie

hikikomorizombie

Ouch
Jan 15, 2024
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i haven't been able to remember anything from my childhood since i was 16, & now that i'm 21 i can't really remember anything before 17. ppl tell me it's bc it's a side effect of depression + trauma, but i kinda just think it's bc ive smoked copious amts of weed since i was 14. lol.
 
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carnivalforone

carnivalforone

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Sep 29, 2023
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agreed its a trauma response.
 
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thesilentoceans

thesilentoceans

hope is a mental illness
Jan 14, 2024
34
Similar thing happens to me when thinking about my childhood, but for a different reason which I can hardly explain. Would guess it has to do with lots and lots of unprocessed trauma.
could you plz elaborate
Similar thing happens to me when thinking about my childhood, but for a different reason which I can hardly explain. Would guess it has to do with lots and lots of unprocessed trauma.
could you plz el
agreed its a trauma response.
plz explain to me T T
 
NoAIarmsNoSurprises

NoAIarmsNoSurprises

soon this will all just be a bad memory
Jan 18, 2024
39
could you plz elaborate
Sometimes the brain does strange things in order to protect itself. If you've had a traumatic or troubled upbringing, it's not uncommon for the brain to create gaps in our memory to try and block it out. Try to picture it like this: you're having a heated argument with someone and suddenly that person gets erased from your memory. You're still upset but you're missing the context as to why you're upset. This in turn makes you more confused and upset, and the more you ignore it, the bigger, more complex and persistent these feelings become. So much so that they might manifest themselves in the form of anxiety, depression and/or cptsd (complex post-traumatic stress disorder).

People are like memory foam, our traumas can warp and shape us. They might manifest themselves in the form of habits, addictions or a state of mind, without us even being aware that they were the cause.
 
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thesilentoceans

thesilentoceans

hope is a mental illness
Jan 14, 2024
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Sometimes the brain does strange things in order to protect itself. If you've had a traumatic or troubled upbringing, it's not uncommon for the brain to create gaps in our memory to try and block it out. Try to picture it like this: you're having a heated argument with someone and suddenly that person gets erased from your memory. You're still upset but you're missing the context as to why you're upset. This in turn makes you more confused and upset, and the more you ignore it, the bigger, more complex and persistent these feelings become. So much so that they might manifest themselves in the form of anxiety, depression and/or cptsd (complex post-traumatic stress disorder).

People are like memory foam, our traumas can warp and shape us. They might manifest themselves in the form of habits, addictions or a state of mind, without us even being aware that they were the cause.
thank you very much for explaining. i can relate to the things you mentioned so much.
im actually finding the cause of my mental problems your explanation helps me a lot now. im really grateful for your explanation 🤗
 

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