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OtterFromTheCosmos

OtterFromTheCosmos

Overthinking Otter Boy
Mar 19, 2026
14
I know this might seem like a bit weird to some people, but a think holding me back from attempting CTB are my plushies
I don't know what it is, but I don't wanna leave them
Maybe I'm scared whoever finds me might just throw them away, which would make me incredibly sad

Does anyone else also have this?
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
125
I might feel the same way as you.
the thing I can't bear to part with is my badge—It has my favorite design printed on it.
 
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OtterFromTheCosmos

OtterFromTheCosmos

Overthinking Otter Boy
Mar 19, 2026
14
Things we adore and find comfort in are always the things stopping us from taking the push to CTB
That's either good or bad, depending on who you ask
 
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hurb

hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
325
We should turn this thread into posting our favorite plushie 🥺
 
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blush

forgotten girl
Mar 2, 2026
30
yea 🤍 part of why i didn't go through with an earlier date is my plushies
 
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rainatthebusstop

rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
176
I get what you mean. I had one of those lapses in judgement where I bought a plushie of one of my favourite characters and on the days I feel really shitty holding it helps me a lot
 
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Topaz111

Topaz111

I can feel this body in revolt
Mar 9, 2026
57
I feel the same way.
I know when I pass my parents will either sell or throw away my plushies and figurines and I hate that. I hate that so much.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Wizard
Dec 24, 2025
669
i wonder what will happen to my plushies and dolls.
 
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OtterFromTheCosmos

OtterFromTheCosmos

Overthinking Otter Boy
Mar 19, 2026
14
I feel the same way.
I know when I pass my parents will either sell or throw away my plushies and figurines and I hate that. I hate that so much.
Glad I'm not the only one who feels that way

We should turn this thread into posting our favorite plushie 🥺
Honestly I think I'd like that, however I don't know if that would fit here...
Oh well.....
 
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nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
201
I have soo many plushies and I'm obsessed with them up to the point where I would always have a plushie with me even when I go out, in class (and exams as I have adjustment allowing me to have a plushie) or work.

I think for me, as no humans are willing to care and help me, at least my plushies give me comfort. Probably related to some sensory input too as I'm a neurodivergent.

I hope my plushies don't just get thrown away or not taken care off once I'm dead… I was actually going to make a legal will and the first thing I thought of was actually who to give my plushies to… They mean a lot to me as they have been with me through my hardest times, even in the hospital…
 
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a-lien

a-lien

waiting for the space shuttle
Feb 22, 2026
59
yeah will also leave a note only mention my plushies, my only and last will.. so I don't think, they will get thrown away.... but it's hard for me to leave them behind ..
i'm not sure, if I want to take 2 of them with me... when I ctb... what about rain ? what if they are waiting to long for someone to take them ?
But I don't want them to stay at home..
 
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msds

Member
Mar 17, 2026
14
I know this might seem like a bit weird to some people, but a think holding me back from attempting CTB are my plushies
I don't know what it is, but I don't wanna leave them
Maybe I'm scared whoever finds me might just throw them away, which would make me incredibly sad

Does anyone else also have this?
I love my plushies so much. I have like 30 of them in a big pile on my bed. They are so soft and cuddly.
I also have a custom life-sized doll of my comfort character which I commissioned... Pathetic but she keeps me here, too. I spend a lot of time with her, we eat together, watch movies together, play video games, and I snuggle with her before bed.

I worry they will miss me, and yes, that someone would throw them away.

I have soo many plushies and I'm obsessed with them up to the point where I would always have a plushie with me even when I go out, in class (and exams as I have adjustment allowing me to have a plushie) or work.
Me too! I bring my favorite plushie with me pretty much wherever I go. It would break my heart if anything happened to her. Once I learned my lesson the hard way when I put her in the washing machine and she got a small tear... I cried for so long before I went and got the stuff to sew her back up. Only hand-washing now!!
 
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