Please judge my plan!! I’m desperately in need to make this last attempt with what I have

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Currently awaiting a response in the private discussion. I shared my past there too and my past attempts.

What I'm doing is to break my heart especially with my stomach problems and don't have access to a car to slam into something fastly or have a license to buy a gun and have money and health insurance but I hate life, so please help me out to get this right.

Also, I am aware meds and otc don't work but I equally researched for two years and have learned of magnesium and aspirin and will be trying them once I get my aspirin delivered to me soon, and my other meds I'm currently waiting on to test for positive results (not have all my meds yet)

So, here's the items:

Throughout the day to lower my blood pressure as I suffer from that immensely
Aspirin
Magnesium
Magnesium glycinate

If I don't have my medical prescribed medication (alone)
Hydroxyzine
Bupropion
Prozosin
Benadryl
Doxepin
Diazepam
Seroquel

If I do have it and acquire them (alone)
Metoclopramide or Compazine, Tramadol or Gabapentin,

Sleeping pills to make me tired
Unisom with Diphenhydramine and L-Theane or Escitalopram (it made me tired), SN

Throughout the whole day
Coffee powder with stevia sugar (bad sugar and on SN too to dilute taste a bit) and regular creamer
Energy drinks
Long Island Ice Tea

Take Tylenol days prior to get sick and to ruin my system so it can't fight back while eating small and being able to have my fluids not have enough water and getting rid of anything so my body can be a hollow shell while indulging on sweets, as I learned this makes my body feel tired and go insane, as what I recently learned and experienced and was scary but also very tired and can't breathe

 

[chandxoxo]

how to get access to do many drugs without prescription.... Tylenol? unisom? diphenhydramine ? l-theane ? escitalopram? Metoclopramide? Compazine? Tramadol? Gabapentin? Aspirin?
Magnesium?
Magnesium glycinate?
Hydroxyzine?
Bupropion?
Prozosin?
Benadryl?
Doxepin?
Diazepam?
Seroquel?
that's like 19 meds dude

 

[GoSan1]

As someone who had stomach pains the last 5 years, especially terrible the first 2-3 years, I do know how it feels. So sorry you're going through that too.

While I do not know much about medicine, I do know that the body will try to remove them by vomiting if taken in large doses. Metoclopramide combined with Diphenhydramine, an Ibuprofen, and SN should be the full setup for an SN attempt, leaving out the rest of the medication.

The problem with your Method I would think is that if your blood pressure is too low and you pass out before taking a lethal dose, you'd just sleep for a while before waking up to maybe a mess or drenched in vomit. Worst case, liver failure from all the medication which might get really painful and doesn't kill you immediately. Other Organs could also fail and I am no Doctor to determine the aftermath of those failures...

It looks like a hard method that would take a lot of time and need a lot of mental strength. I cant really give more information than that, sorry...

 

[chandxoxo]

As someone who had stomach pains the last 5 years, especially terrible the first 2-3 years, I do know how it feels. So sorry you're going through that too.

While I do not know much about medicine, I do know that the body will try to remove them by vomiting if taken in large doses. Metoclopramide combined with Diphenhydramine, an Ibuprofen, and SN should be the full setup for an SN attempt, leaving out the rest of the medication.

The problem with your Method I would think is that if your blood pressure is too low and you pass out before taking a lethal dose, you'd just sleep for a while before waking up to maybe a mess or drenched in vomit. Worst case, liver failure from all the medication which might get really painful and doesn't kill you immediately. Other Organs could also fail and I am no Doctor to determine the aftermath of those failures...

It looks like a hard method that would take a lot of time and need a lot of mental strength. I cant really give more information than that, sorry...

can you pm me an easy method in mind

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

how to get access to do many drugs without prescription.... Tylenol? unisom? diphenhydramine ? l-theane ? escitalopram? Metoclopramide? Compazine? Tramadol? Gabapentin? Aspirin?
Magnesium?
Magnesium glycinate?
Hydroxyzine?
Bupropion?
Prozosin?
Benadryl?
Doxepin?
Diazepam?
Seroquel?
that's like 19 meds dude

I did say if I wasn't gonna have access to the ones that were medical made, I'd use the one that was one psychiatric as it is still deadly, since psychiatrists secretly wanna kill us…

And I'm aware of the affects. That's why I did ask hehe.

My plan actually resolves around taking what will slow my heart slowly during the day until it's finalized at night, while drinking the things I have to make it more sustainable and efficiently graded for me to leave without any problems.

Unison with the antihistamine ingredient I can buy and so is l-theane, and they aren't as otc, but they do help with sleep levels.

Tylenol is before my ctb date, and isn't on the day of.

Benadryl is in the night time :D

As someone who had stomach pains the last 5 years, especially terrible the first 2-3 years, I do know how it feels. So sorry you're going through that too.

While I do not know much about medicine, I do know that the body will try to remove them by vomiting if taken in large doses. Metoclopramide combined with Diphenhydramine, an Ibuprofen, and SN should be the full setup for an SN attempt, leaving out the rest of the medication.

The problem with your Method I would think is that if your blood pressure is too low and you pass out before taking a lethal dose, you'd just sleep for a while before waking up to maybe a mess or drenched in vomit. Worst case, liver failure from all the medication which might get really painful and doesn't kill you immediately. Other Organs could also fail and I am no Doctor to determine the aftermath of those failures...

It looks like a hard method that would take a lot of time and need a lot of mental strength. I cant really give more information than that, sorry...

So CTB then? Also, I struggle with vomiting so I don't necessarily have this problem that much for some odd reason… and yes, I struggle with gastroparesis, but it rarely makes me vomit, and if at all if I do, I think I'd just feel my liver or stomach hurting but I have to force myself to vomit unless it really does hurt as I have used Tylenol to sleep and the pineapple I could made me vomit. It's like only if I eat acidic things I vomit, I guess… or force it

 

[GoSan1]

can you pm me an easy method in mind

You have your profile private, so no one can PM you. But check this link out, that's what I would go for:

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

So CTB then?

Thats what I plan to do.

I did say if I wasn't gonna have access to the ones that were medical made, I'd use the one that was one psychiatric as it is still deadly, since psychiatrists secretly wanna kill us…

And I'm aware of the affects. That's why I did ask hehe.

My plan actually resolves around taking what will slow my heart slowly during the day until it's finalized at night, while drinking the things I have to make it more sustainable and efficiently graded for me to leave without any problems.

Unison with the antihistamine ingredient I can buy and so is l-theane, and they aren't as otc, but they do help with sleep levels.

Tylenol is before my ctb date, and isn't on the day of.

Benadryl is in the night time :D


So CTB then? Also, I struggle with vomiting so I don't necessarily have this problem that much for some odd reason… and yes, I struggle with gastroparesis, but it rarely makes me vomit, and if at all if I do, I think I'd just feel my liver or stomach hurting but I have to force myself to vomit unless it really does hurt as I have used Tylenol to sleep and the pineapple I could made me vomit. It's like only if I eat acidic things I vomit, I guess… or force it

This is something that is not affected by if someone is struggling with vomiting, but by how the body reacts to different chemicals entering it and how it likes them... Either way, it's gonna be difficult to pull off, but if that's what you want to do, wishing you the best.

 

[chandxoxo]

You have your profile private, so no one can PM you. But check this link out, that's what I would go for:

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thats what I plan to do.



This is something that is not affected by if someone is struggling with vomiting, but by how the body reacts to different chemicals entering it and how it likes them... Either way, it's gonna be difficult to pull off, but if that's what you want to do, wishing you the best.

oh sorry I'm new here idk all the technical stuff. how do I make my pm open I'd love to have a convo on this

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

oh sorry I'm new here idk all the technical stuff. how do I make my pm open I'd love to have a convo on this

I think you have to wait another day, like I did. Mine is open out of nowhere :D

 

[tbh2023]

how to get access to do many drugs without prescription.... Tylenol? unisom? diphenhydramine ? l-theane ? escitalopram? Metoclopramide? Compazine? Tramadol? Gabapentin? Aspirin?
Magnesium?
Magnesium glycinate?
Hydroxyzine?
Bupropion?
Prozosin?
Benadryl?
Doxepin?
Diazepam?
Seroquel?
that's like 19 meds dude

Most of them over the counter!!!

 

[GoSan1]

oh sorry I'm new here idk all the technical stuff. how do I make my pm open I'd love to have a convo on this

Under Settings:


And then onto "Privacy" in this row:

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

You have your profile private, so no one can PM you. But check this link out, that's what I would go for:

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thats what I plan to do.



This is something that is not affected by if someone is struggling with vomiting, but by how the body reacts to different chemicals entering it and how it likes them... Either way, it's gonna be difficult to pull off, but if that's what you want to do, wishing you the best.

This is a weird question but is SN pink or white? I am so confused and I need more intel and context before anything happens as my access to coffee and alcohol may be restricted really need help with this

 

[GoSan1]

This is a weird question but is SN pink or white? I am so confused and I need more intel and context before anything happens as my access to coffee and alcohol may be restricted really need help with this

SN is white with a tiny yellow to it and looks a bit like tiny crystals...

 

[chandxoxo]

Under Settings:
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And then onto "Privacy" in this row:
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I've done it now thankss

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

SN is white with a tiny yellow to it and looks a bit like tiny crystals...

I'm gonna be so scared if I buy the wrong bag in time and why this whole SN stuff scares me because I never touched it and feel like I'll be scammed out of death again…

 

[GoSan1]

I've done it now thankss

No worries, you can dm me any time if you wanna talk!

I'm gonna be so scared if I buy the wrong bag in time and why this whole SN stuff scares me because I never touched it and feel like I'll be scammed out of death again…

You can also dm me, I should be able to tell if a site/seller is legit or not :)

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

No worries, you can dm me any time if you wanna talk!



You can also dm me, I should be able to tell if a site/seller is legit or not :)

I shall respond to you tomorrow as I'm having a panic attack in the back of my head from existence and if I'm forced to live another few years old… I just can't do it!! I don't want to be forced to live another year!!

Please reach out when I leave my message tomorrow

 

[guineapiglover8503]

saving this thread, a lot of good info here tysm <333

 

[GoSan1]

I shall respond to you tomorrow as I'm having a panic attack in the back of my head from existence and if I'm forced to live another few years old… I just can't do it!! I don't want to be forced to live another year!!

Please reach out when I leave my message tomorrow

Understandable, I mostly have them before going to sleep or waking up in the middle of the night. It's terrible really. I wish we all at least have our wishes come true in the end...

If I don't respond immediately, then I'm a slave at work again. Such a boring life in this world.

 

[chandxoxo]

No worries, you can dm me any time if you wanna talk!



You can also dm me, I should be able to tell if a site/seller is legit or not :)

thanks a lot...how do you message someone here?

I shall respond to you tomorrow as I'm having a panic attack in the back of my head from existence and if I'm forced to live another few years old… I just can't do it!! I don't want to be forced to live another year!!

Please reach out when I leave my message tomorrow

are you okay .... I'm worried for you

 

[GoSan1]

thanks a lot...how do you message someone here?

are you okay .... I'm worried for you

Mhhh, I can't seem to message you, but if you click on my name it should have a button called "start conversation", if that one is missing, you might have to unlock it first by being active...

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Understandable, I mostly have them before going to sleep or waking up in the middle of the night. It's terrible really. I wish we all at least have our wishes come true in the end...

If I don't respond immediately, then I'm a slave at work again. Such a boring life in this world.

That's okay! I sadly have time because I'm on disability but I hate the fact that I live in a group home and am being pushed to survive being checked on everyday but realistically I have to go to group therapy most days

Also, good luck and know I am on your side supporting you all the way through in this god damn world we all hate

 

[GoSan1]

That's okay! I sadly have time because I'm on disability but I hate the fact that I live in a group home and am being pushed to survive being checked on everyday but realistically I have to go to group therapy most days

Also, good luck and know I am on your side supporting you all the way through in this god damn world we all hate

Really sorry to hear that. :(

Also thanks! <3 Am also here if you or anyone here wants to vent or just talk. I'm just not sure for how long xd

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Really sorry to hear that. :(

Also thanks! <3 Am also here if you or anyone here wants to vent or just talk. I'm just not sure for how long xd

Don't worry ((':
All of our lives fucking suck
And don't worry TuT
I will vent to you tomorrow over the fact that my suicidal friend is upset with me because of a misunderstanding and don't understand the context enough because she doesn't understand self isolation during friendships… Is that okay to talk about with you?
I feel used now because I supported her and she hates me but I feel I've been wronged and feel a bit manipulated and deeply eager to know if my plan has some means of working this year
Al

thanks a lot...how do you message someone here?

are you okay .... I'm worried for you

this is so sweet but nope I've never had a stable housing environment and know I have no chance in life even before I knew I was born in the worse conditions at 5. I just want to die but people are fucking forcing me to stay alive saying 'they're worried about me', even though I was forced into mental hospitals since I was 13 and lied to constantly when I wasn't as suicidal and remembered just being numb to what that even was until 17-18. I realistically am being forced to live out in a hell everyday I guess

 

[GoSan1]

Don't worry ((':
All of our lives fucking suck
And don't worry TuT
I will vent to you tomorrow over the fact that my suicidal friend is upset with me because of a misunderstanding and don't understand the context enough because she doesn't understand self isolation during friendships… Is that okay to talk about with you?
I feel used now because I supported her and she hates me but I feel I've been wronged and feel a bit manipulated and deeply eager to know if my plan has some means of working this year

Of course that is fine by me, I will gladly listen to anyone, especially if one is also a fellow "sufferer" xD

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

saving this thread, a lot of good info here tysm <333

I'm so glad it could help someone. Sorry for the late replies. I'm so sad I have to move out again and change my plan…

P.S. ice cream make you nauseated if you eat too much sweets before death day.

 

[guineapiglover8503]

I'm so glad it could help someone. Sorry for the late replies. I'm so sad I have to move out again and change my plan…

P.S. ice cream make you nauseated if you eat too much sweets before death day.

its okay, dont worry <3 and ty for the tip