StuckAF
Member
- Apr 16, 2020
- 92
Hey guys,
So I have been thinking and planning to ctb for almost 10 months now and I never go thru with it. Sn didn't get delivered, rope I used to hang snaped.
Now I am not sure anymore if I should ctb, maybe my reasons aren't that .. let's say convincing or worth ctbing. Maybe I have made small problems into bigger ones??
i am not sure if I have social anxiety but I am not that crazy extroverted person nor the one who stays in the corner.
I am not sure if being a 19yo guy and being 165cm is the end of world??
i am not sure anymore if being gay is even that bad???
All of these ifs.... now how do I recover?? How do I put suicide past me?? Is there a way out?? I don't have any remarkable skills and talents other than being very good at academics...
I really don't want to die at all but I feel like it's better than being a loser.. how do I stop being a loser and escape suicide can someone give me actual real tips??
sorry if this feels unorganized because I didnt Plan it and wrote whatever I thought of.
Thanks for reading
So I have been thinking and planning to ctb for almost 10 months now and I never go thru with it. Sn didn't get delivered, rope I used to hang snaped.
Now I am not sure anymore if I should ctb, maybe my reasons aren't that .. let's say convincing or worth ctbing. Maybe I have made small problems into bigger ones??
i am not sure if I have social anxiety but I am not that crazy extroverted person nor the one who stays in the corner.
I am not sure if being a 19yo guy and being 165cm is the end of world??
i am not sure anymore if being gay is even that bad???
All of these ifs.... now how do I recover?? How do I put suicide past me?? Is there a way out?? I don't have any remarkable skills and talents other than being very good at academics...
I really don't want to die at all but I feel like it's better than being a loser.. how do I stop being a loser and escape suicide can someone give me actual real tips??
sorry if this feels unorganized because I didnt Plan it and wrote whatever I thought of.
Thanks for reading