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oh_no191

oh_no191

“Is it better to speak or to die?”
Jun 11, 2023
56
(I hope the title wasn't too worrying)
I'm unsure if this even belongs here honestly but I see so many of you so sad and I just feel so bad and I want to help. I hope no one gets mad at what I'm about to say, I'm sorry if you do.
I mean every word I'm about to say
You're worth everything and I'm unsure you've heard that before but I really mean it. Life is really sucky for a lot of us and I honestly believe we don't deserve this. We deserve to be happy and go out cause it's summer time! YOU deserve to be happy and go out cause it's summer time!! I wish I could take all this sadness and pain away from you but I unfortunately can't which really sucks. I wish I could suck every negative thought that's sticking in your head right out of your mind. I love you so much and I hope, no matter what you do, you find eternal peace because you definitely deserve it. I wish only the best for you!! Whatever you dream will, hopefully, becomes a reality!!
 
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hopeless302

hopeless302

Student
Sep 11, 2022
141
Thank you. We wish you the same !!
 
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yellowroses

yellowroses

Ever Seeking
Jun 12, 2023
91
I can't emphasize enough how true this is, especially if you're reading this thinking "not me", your choice to CtB is your own, but please believe that YOU ARE WORTHY, you are worthy of good things and happiness, you deserve kindness and compassion and peace. Love you guys ✌️❤️
 
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Fktw0rld

Fktw0rld

An end with suffering > Suffering without an end
Aug 29, 2022
404
I wish your words were applicable to my situation. If there was a mustard seed of hope for me, I'd try. But unfortunately my situation is far beyond depression and seeking help. My only choices are a future of guaranteed pain, misery and suffering or death. So I choose death.

Love and respect🙏
 
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Aisley

Aisley

Wizard
Mar 12, 2023
624
Just how sad is it that pretty much everyone here is about the nicest, sweetest person you could ever want to know? Jarring, is what it is. Go out and get some sun for yourself before your date comes, but I'll pass, cuz I fuckin hate summer. XD
Take care.
 
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Nights

Nights

Student
Apr 27, 2023
163
The way of how you speak gives the attitudes of a pro-lifer, however i won't judge you, but just so you know, toxic positivity, gaslighting, guilt-tripping, going against people's right to die, is not allowed here, other than that, thanks, i hope your dreams becomes true too!
 
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90starve

90starve

i don’t know who i am
May 8, 2023
578
The way of how you speak gives the attitudes of a pro-lifer, however i won't judge you, but just so you know, toxic positivity, gaslighting, guilt-tripping, going against people's right to die, is not allowed here, other than that, thanks, i hope your dreams becomes true too!
i can see how this might be interpreted as pro-life, but im not sure OP intended it to come across this way <3
 
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OceanBlue

OceanBlue

Feminist
Jun 13, 2021
701
The way of how you speak gives the attitudes of a pro-lifer, however i won't judge you, but just so you know, toxic positivity, gaslighting, guilt-tripping, going against people's right to die, is not allowed here, other than that, thanks, i hope your dreams becomes true too!
yeah totally, more like please block!

thing and I'm unsure you've heard that before but I really mean it. Life is really sucky for a lot of us and I honestly believe we don't deserve this. We deserve to be happy and go out cause it's summer time! YOU deserve to be happy and go out cause it's summer time!! I wish I could take all this sadness and pain away from you but I unfortunately can't which really sucks. I wish I could suck every negative thought that's sticking in your head right out of your mind.
It's not the thoughts that are negative, it's the reality. Happiness in a world like ours is either ignorance or arrogance. The fairy dust you're trying to sprinkle comes across as invalidating and condescending. This is what the society conditions us to do if we feel bad, to focus on this type of positivity if everything else fails, but imo it's really harmful and I hope you don't need this in the future. Best wishes.
 
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Vivacious_Vee

Vivacious_Vee

Member
Jun 17, 2023
70
Thank you, I love you too and am sending hugs.

I just need to catch the bus, today. Yes life sucks, but for me it is so much more than that, I just want to get home and the only was is to catch the bus. I am hoping this site will answer my questions...
 
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Document6105

Member
Nov 17, 2022
32
I'm sorry but this thread doesn't actually want to support anyone.
It's there just for the OP to feel good about pretending to care for others.
This at the expense of others emotions.

People need to stop with toxic positivity.
I don't care about your "support" if you insert "I love you!" and "We care about you!" into every single message.
You have 0 credentials or actual means to **actually** back up what you say.

So please. Stop pretending to care about others.
It only hurts them more.
Be honest.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,502
To me, existence could certainly never be a desirable state, I don't believe I deserve the terrible, undeserved punishment of having the ability to exist here, I don't hate myself to the point that I believe I deserve to suffer in an existence where suffering is inevitable. The idea that existence is good and beneficial certainly is a delusion, this reality is so hellish to me, I have enough awareness to recognise that this world is such a dreadful, dangerous place filled with harm and potential for endless torture.

I certainly see it as always being preferable to not exist, as existence is futile, dreadful and unnecessary, the true problem lies in existence itself and it's what I despise. Peace to me could only ever exist in the ideal state of non-existence that existence tragically disturbed in the first place, but I very strongly believe we will return to the ideal state once we die, death is the only relief.

And anyway the summer weather makes me hate existing even more, it makes me feel even more tired. I don't wish to experience anything at all, being conscious and aware just leads to suffering.
 
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oh_no191

oh_no191

“Is it better to speak or to die?”
Jun 11, 2023
56
I didn't mean to upset anyone with this I'm so sorry
 
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angelk

angelk

Member
Jun 17, 2023
21
Para mí, la existencia ciertamente nunca podría ser un estado deseable, no creo que merezca el castigo terrible e inmerecido de tener la capacidad de existir aquí, no me odio hasta el punto de creer que merezco sufrir en un existencia donde el sufrimiento es inevitable. La idea de que la existencia es buena y beneficiosa ciertamente es una ilusión, esta realidad es tan infernal para mí, tengo suficiente conciencia para reconocer que este mundo es un lugar tan terrible y peligroso lleno de daño y potencial para una tortura sin fin.

Ciertamente lo veo siempre como preferible a no existir, ya que la existencia es fútil, espantosa e innecesaria, el verdadero problema está en la existencia misma y es lo que desprecio. Para mí, la paz solo podría existir en el estado ideal de no existencia que la existencia perturbó trágicamente en primer lugar, pero creo firmemente que volveremos al estado ideal una vez que muramos, la muerte es el único alivio.

Y de todos modos, el clima de verano me hace odiar aún más existir, me hace sentir aún más cansada. No deseo experimentar nada en absoluto, ser consciente y consciente solo conduce al sufrimiento.

Me gustó como te expresaste. buena suerte
 
SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
362
The way of how you speak gives the attitudes of a pro-lifer, however i won't judge you, but just so you know, toxic positivity, gaslighting, guilt-tripping, going against people's right to die, is not allowed here, other than that, thanks, i hope your dreams becomes true too!
It can be, it's how you read it tho. There's no message on why u shouldn't die, but more so what we deserve to have. Because, after all we deserve better than the hell we have been through and r going through.

But I appreciate your message @oh_no191, the same goes for you!! ♥️
 

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