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ojinzo

ojinzo

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Feb 21, 2022
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I will be renewing my expired state id next week so I can book a hotel room to ctb the following week. I live with roommates, that I frekking hate, and I'm afraid they will hear my body thrashing about as I'm ctb and intervene. Besides I hate my living situation and prefer to do it in a more private atmosphere. Do you think I should leave a hundred dollar tip by my body for whoever finds me? Any other prep I should think about leading up to it? As much as I don't want to disclose my plan, I might as well for optimal success in case those have advice: I plan to use two turkey bags over my head, tapped with gorilla tape and my hands handcuffed behind my back. I know it will be torture so spare me that how painful it will be replies.

Any tips or affirmative advice is welcome. I've waited a month for my N that I'm convinced will never arrive so I have to take the hard way out.
 
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Graytaichi

Wizard
Feb 14, 2022
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I have no words , fuck them. Can request for transfer of roomates.
 
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Lone Wanderer

Student
Jul 28, 2022
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That's a pretty hardcore way to go out... but I think you should just wait for the N. I don't personally no you, but I definitely don't want you or anyone else go out like that. Maybe wait a bit longer for that N to show up. Till then just hang in there. Who knows maybe things will get better?
 
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Banshee

Student
Oct 25, 2021
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I doubt a hotel maid is going to think after stumbling across your lifeless body is "....$100, is that for me?" lol
 
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Worndown

Worndown

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Mar 21, 2019
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Take sleeping pills to knock you out. Not so many to get you sick.
 
Jrmull1993

Jrmull1993

Warlock
Jul 13, 2022
753
Do you think I should leave a hundred dollar tip-?

Don't bother. Either the police or the ME/Croner's Office (depending on state) will seize all your property in the hotel room as it is legally evidence.
 
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Anónimo

Anónimo

Student
Oct 15, 2021
167
I know you said you don't care about the pain, but REALLY think about it. Suffocation is extremely painful and panic-inducing. I don't want you to suffer. You could try hyperventilating for 2 minutes and then hold your breath to see how long you last, to give you an idea. I have considered a similar method too.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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Any tips or affirmative advice is welcome. I've waited a month for my N that I'm convinced will never arrive so I have to take the hard way out.
Well, that is bullshit. I'm sorry that has happened to you. Have you tried contacting D and letting him know? I've heard sometimes he may resend it.

I wouldn't leave the $100. Chances are someone who finds your body is just going to contact LE and then the $100 is going to end up in police custody, and in their coffers, or in one of their pockets.

You'll have to be pretty strong to see a method like this through. If this is your way, I wish you luck with it and that everything goes as planned. Most of all I hope you find your peace from this world.
 
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