Planning to taste SN

[ScorpiusDragon]

Earlier I ordered SN, Tagamet, and Primperan, but then I realized SI is a bitch. So I recently ordered a second bottle. My plan is to open the second bottle and put small non-lethal amounts of SN on my finger and tasting it from time to time. The reasoning is similar to why a suicidal person might practice using a gun with no bullets--to get used to the method and desensitize oneself to the idea of dying with this method.
My main worry is the symptoms. I read somewhere on this forum that someone had blue lips after trying to practice with this method. I live with my bf and I'm worried about him noticing me walking around the apartment with blue lips. Of course, I'll try to practice when he isn't home, but he usually isn't home for maybe 3-6 hours a day. Does anyone know how long the physical effects might last?

 

[Mich517]

Earlier I ordered SN, Tagamet, and Primperan, but then I realized SI is a bitch. So I recently ordered a second bottle. My plan is to open the second bottle and put small non-lethal amounts of SN on my finger and tasting it from time to time. The reasoning is similar to why a suicidal person might practice using a gun with no bullets--to get used to the method and desensitize oneself to the idea of dying with this method.
My main worry is the symptoms. I read somewhere on this forum that someone had blue lips after trying to practice with this method. I live with my bf and I'm worried about him noticing me walking around the apartment with blue lips. Of course, I'll try to practice when he isn't home, but he usually isn't home for maybe 3-6 hours a day. Does anyone know how long the physical effects might last?

I don't think that small amount of SI will bring you blue skin.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

I don't think that small amount of SI will bring you blue skin.

ok thanks. Perhaps it was irrational of me to be so paranoid, but I can't afford to have my bf suspect anything. He'd probably insist on having me locked in a psych ward if he knew how suicidal I am.

 

[eve2004]

Don't you have bad circulation problems?
My hands and feet go numb a lot. And not sure where you live but its getting cold outside!

Seriously though, start with an allergy test, very minute amount, a grain or two, and then wait till the next day to try again.

 

[DeathImminent]

Have you been locked in psych ward before?

 

[JimFord99]

It will taste very salty. I mean very salty. I licked on a bit. On this base you won't get blue, pass out, faint, it just tastes salty. Why on earth do you want to taste it from time to time? There is no CTB practice by doing that. Tasting is not ctb, get use what you are expecting when it comes to it. The dose makes it work, not the taste.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

It will taste very salty. I mean very salty. I licked on a bit. On this base you won't get blue, pass out, faint, it just tastes salty. Why on earth do you want to taste it from time to time? There is no CTB practice by doing that. Tasting is not ctb, get use what you are expecting when it comes to it. The dose makes it work, not the taste.

Because I haven't gotten the courage to overcome my SI yet. I'm hoping to practice tasting SN, in order to desensitize myself to the idea of one day drinking the lethal amount.

 

[JimFord99]

Ok, and that is why you have to follow the three day regime to make sure it works. Read the SN mega thread for more details, hell off a read but worth while and very informative.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

Ok, and that is why you have to follow the three day regime to make sure it works. Read the SN mega thread for more details, hell off a read but worth while and very informative.

don't worry. I already have my regime planned. I will take 10 mg primperan every 8 hours. My main worry was starting the regime but not having the guts to drink SN on the real day. So that's why I am going to practice tasting non-lethal amounts of SN before starting the regime.

Day1
-3:30pm: 10mg primperan
-11:30pm: 10mg primperan

Day2
-7:30am: 10mg primperan
-3:30pm: 10mg primperan
-11:30pm: 10mg primperan

Day 3
-7:30am: 10mg primperan
-3:30pm: 10mg primperan
-3:45pm: 800mg tagamet
4:30pm: 20g SN in 100ml water

 

[JimFord99]

Organised, I like that. Cool

 

[Alchemist]

Isn't 800mg of tagamet too much? And I wonder if someone bigger would need 30g of SN.

Now, regarding the topic of flavor. It's sodium, so it will be salty. It is used already as a preserver, so a pinch of it won't kill you nor cause any damage. Otherwise it wouldn't be used as a preserver.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

Isn't 800mg of tagamet too much? And I wonder if someone bigger would need 30g of SN.

Now, regarding the topic of flavor. It's sodium, so it will be salty. It is used already as a preserver, so a pinch of it won't kill you nor cause any damage. Otherwise it wouldn't be used as a preserver.

I'm around 133 pounds and 5'4. Do you think I'll need 30 g? I'm open to increasing the dose, if that will be more effective.

 

[Alchemist]

I'm around 133 pounds and 5'4. Do you think I'll need 30 g? I'm open to increasing the dose, if that will be more effective.

Your dose is alright for your size, I think. I'm thinking for someone who's over 300 pounds. it's better to not exceed the appropiate dose since that can lead to pain and vomit.

 

[DeathImminent]

I'm around 133 pounds and 5'4. Do you think I'll need 30 g? I'm open to increasing the dose, if that will be more effective.

no even 20 is overkill which makes the solution only saltier, 15 is the right dosage

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

Have you been locked in psych ward before?

I've been hospitalized for suicidal thoughts in the past.

no even 20 is overkill which makes the solution only saltier, 15 is the right dosage

do you think it's safer to go with 20? I need to make sure I get it right the first time...

 

[Dawn0071111]

Because I haven't gotten the courage to overcome my SI yet. I'm hoping to practice tasting SN, in order to desensitize myself to the idea of one day drinking the lethal amount.

You dont have to drink it, you can also put it into capsules/......

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

You dont have to drink it, you can also put it into capsules/......

How do you do that? Do you have any link to that info?
I might be interested.

 

[Rdc]

How do you do that? Do you have any link to that info?
I might be interested.

Google empty gel capsules. Fill the capsules with SN.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

Google empty gel capsules. Fill the capsules with SN.

thank you <3

 

[eve2004]

It will taste very salty. I mean very salty. I licked on a bit. On this base you won't get blue, pass out, faint, it just tastes salty. Why on earth do you want to taste it from time to time? There is no CTB practice by doing that. Tasting is not ctb, get use what you are expecting when it comes to it. The dose makes it work, not the taste.

There has been literature about pain threshold and suicidal people and those who have made multiple attempts. The reason some succeed is that they've become accustomed to tolerating such a high level of pain/discomfort that it neither scares them nor prevents them from exexuting the plan entirely.

In my case I am definitely going to give SN more than a few licks to see how my body reacts because so far, it reacts to no chemicals/meds/drugs unless I take a very high (over the limit) dose. Also I am fairly sure I won't die from it, I'm going to be very hard to kill. Otherwise I would have had more than enough meds to do the job way before. My ideal CTB method is carF. One grain could do it, I'd take 3-4 to be sure.

 

[Neville1]

@ScorpiusDragon I see that you chatted with @LuxelDrief in their last moment's. Thank you for preserving and sharing that with the group.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

@ScorpiusDragon I see that you chatted with @LuxelDrief in their last moment's. Thank you for preserving and sharing that with the group.

Yes. I've been chatting with a number of SS users who posted goodbye threads with SN in order to see their experiences. That will probably be my way out, so I wanted to get a realistic understanding of what to expect.