Discussion Planning to CTB in ~1 Year or Sooner

[nonentity]

Hi everyone

I have been pulling things together slowly to prepare for my bus ride. I'm not ready to go yet as I have way too many ends to tie up (preparing my will since I'm married, gathering supplies, figuring out which way I actually want to hit the exit button, etc.) - what are some things you would recommend I finish up before I go?

For reference: I'm married, live with roommates, have a lot of debt, no will, no life insurance, no job, nothing to leave for my husband, etc. I want the least amount of impact on their lives, even if it's going to destroy them. I know they will never be the same. Is it selfish? I feel like it is sometimes.

I also need to figure out how to tell my friends, family and paramour goodbye without alarming them. I know giving gift and being extra affectionate out of nowhere is a red flag.

Thanks for the help and advice in advance - can't wait to ride this to the end.

 

[warriorofeld]

I'm in the same boat I'm within the year got my sn on the way soon and two backups. It's not selfish, being pushed too far to ctb is very real.

 

[Lxions]

I wish you the best of luck in your journey.

 

[warriorofeld]

I didn't even think about the gift giving or change in being more affectionate is red flags its tough already as I've had friends tell me I'm acting different since deciding to do this..

 

[nonentity]

I didn't even think about the gift giving or change in being more affectionate is red flags its tough already as I've had friends tell me I'm acting different since deciding to do this..

Yeah, it sucks that you can't even show your family/friends how much you love them and appreciate them before you go. To me, the reason why we're friendlier, and more affectionate when we decide to go is trying to let go of any regrets. To make sure they know you love them, and that you're making the best decision for yourself.

I wish you the best of luck in your journey.

Thank you - I'm excited and scared all at the same time.

 

[FuneralCry]

The reality is that nobody is obligated to continue existing here so there could never be anything wrong with suicide. I would not tell other people in advance about my decision to die or do anything that could potentially cause them to interfere, that is always a terrible idea, it's a personal decision deciding what to do but I would leave notes instead. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.