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nextstepdeath
Student
- Sep 5, 2024
- 101
I can't cope with the pisstaking any more. I'm trapped in a life where all I can ever be is someone to have the piss taken out of me. It's just too much and I'm really starting to crunch.
I've lost everything, everyone. Couldn't get anything right with anyone. Was never happy or could get life or people to suit me. Whatever. People don't do what I want, I was never an authoritarian brat but people never do what I want or need. Whatever. It's too late now. The darker I get, the easier it gets to kill myself. Everyone has knocked me down and out, I'm easy fodder now. Just more and more focused on killing myself. That's all that matters now.If you don't mind me asking: who's taking the piss and why? Former friends? I would say to tell them all to fuck off but I know all too well what it feels like to be a chronic butt of the joke and you can only ignore people for so long. I just don't understand why you're a target.
I can hear the despair and pain and it breaks my heart. Life is so fucking cruel. I relate to every word you said. I don't have any words to make it better but if it matters you do have kindred spirits out there. It's not like having love or even companionship but it's not nothing either. I'm just so sorry to hear you're in such deep pain.I've lost everything, everyone. Couldn't get anything right with anyone. Was never happy or could get life or people to suit me. Whatever. People don't do what I want, I was never an authoritarian brat but people never do what I want or need. Whatever. It's too late now. The darker I get, the easier it gets to kill myself. Everyone has knocked me down and out, I'm easy fodder now. Just more and more focused on killing myself. That's all that matters now.
Once you're gone you're gone. Best to make sure you're definitely going.
I feel like I'm being too nosy, so I won't ask anymore questions. Still, I'm sorry that you don't have someone there for you when you need them the most.I've lost everything, everyone. Couldn't get anything right with anyone. Was never happy or could get life or people to suit me. Whatever. People don't do what I want, I was never an authoritarian brat but people never do what I want or need. Whatever. It's too late now. The darker I get, the easier it gets to kill myself. Everyone has knocked me down and out, I'm easy fodder now. Just more and more focused on killing myself. That's all that matters now.
Once you're gone you're gone. Best to make sure you're definitely going.