I would assume if I could just find someone on my own and not go through an organization it would cost less?
I think that you could in theory find someone willing to do this, outside of an organization and no doubt would cost alot less. However places like Dignitas in Switzerland for example can do everything 'legally' and in very controlled conditions every step of the way. If you got someone to agree to help, then it would not be legal in that although you were asking for their help, because you weren't doing it alone there could be severe repercussions. It would depend on many factors also, doctors take oaths to save lives and there are physicians out there who believe in euthanasia, but most I would think, will work under very strict guidelines. There would be some willing to assist, as in cosmetic surgery, you could get it cheaper abroad say than in UK, BUT it often ends in failure. I understand what you are asking and hoping here, but I would urge you to be very careful as its a very deep subject and if you were to go down this route I would wish for you to be safe and cared about every step of the way. Somewhere like Dignitas would cost more, but would all be above board so to speak. If you do some research online you might find some ways into this, but from my heart to yours please keep yourself safe. I dont mean not to do this, that would be your decision and I would respect that, what I mean to convey is, that you would be in a vulnerable position and would wish for you to do its safely. As with anything in life there are very unscrupulous people out there sadly. Hope these words may have helped in some way and I do understand what you are hoping to do.