Physical Symptoms from depression/bipolar

[dysfunctional]

The weirdest thing maybe about my depression/bipolar mixed condition is that it has affected me alot physically. Here's a list of effects i've had. Not sure what's caused by the meds, the illness itself, or bad habita brought on by the illness. These symptoms always bring me back into the darkness as I can't escape them even if I start to feel slightly better.
Curious what others have experienced.
- weight loss then gain
- my body odor got bad. Used to be able to workout in the same clothes for a week and they still smelled nice.
-hair falling out- head and body
- guns bleed very easily, just from brushing teeth.
- movements slowed way down. Used to be a fast moving athlete.
- almost zero appetite
- can't sleep in a relaxed position- have to be pretty much fetal.
So weird and shitty

 

[johnny]

Weight loss/gain is just how much you are eating (and exercising). Depression might cause you to overeat or undereat at certain times.

I don't think body odor would be impacted....working out in the same clothes for a week? Thats disgusting lol, just wash them

 

[Johnnythefox]

The weirdest thing maybe about my depression/bipolar mixed condition is that it has affected me alot physically. Here's a list of effects i've had. Not sure what's caused by the meds, the illness itself, or bad habita brought on by the illness. These symptoms always bring me back into the darkness as I can't escape them even if I start to feel slightly better.
Curious what others have experienced.
- weight loss then gain
- my body odor got bad. Used to be able to workout in the same clothes for a week and they still smelled nice.
-hair falling out- head and body
- guns bleed very easily, just from brushing teeth.
- movements slowed way down. Used to be a fast moving athlete.
- almost zero appetite
- can't sleep in a relaxed position- have to be pretty much fetal.
So weird and shitty

Some could be side affects from the meds, particularly the hair loss and appetite, gums bleeding as well can be caused by the meds.
Have you read up on the side effects?
Are you on Prozac?

 

[dysfunctional]

Some could be side affects from the meds, particularly the hair loss and appetite, gums bleeding as well can be caused by the meds.
Have you read up on the side effects?
Are you on Prozac?

Nah, was on celexa for awhile, and wellbutrin. Now on lamotrigene and resperidone.

 

[Psilo]

Loss of hair, facial hair the ones you'll only pray you could keep.
Loss of appetite, completely out of phase no routine. I'll take breakfast standing and walking around.
Hopelessness, cant figure out what to do besides ctb.
Physically weak, sleepy, powerless, no motivation.
Emptiness and the worst is that all this leads to lazyness.

 

[dysfunctional]

Loss of hair, facial hair the ones you'll only pray you could keep.
Loss of appetite, completely out of phase no routine. I'll take breakfast standing and walking around.
Hopelessness, cant figure out what to do besides ctb.
Physically weak, sleepy, powerless, no motivation.
Emptiness and the worst is that all this leads to lazyness.

All too familiar sir. Yeah losing hair from my beard is horrific.

 

[Psilo]

All too familiar sir. Yeah losing hair from my beard is horrific.

Yes totally unacceptable, this state deprives you from your manhood.

 

[KatieW]

Depression affects your mood and this could impact your perception of smell so you suddenly hate your own odour.

I have most of your symptoms but no hair loss thank goodness.

Hallucinations anyone? very serious am-the-annointed-one kind :(

Plus extreme stomach-turning anxiety.

 

[dysfunctional]

Depression affects your mood and this could impact your perception of smell so you suddenly hate your own odour.

I have most of your symptoms but no hair loss thank goodness.

Hallucinations anyone? very serious am-the-annointed-one kind :(

Plus extreme stomach-turning anxiety.

Hallucinations- yes I get auditory hallucinations. I can hear people having coversations in the distance, but can't make out the words. Apparently hallucinations are definitely a symptom of depression/bipolar. My psychiatrist said I was lucky mine aren't worse.

As far as the B.O. , i know a part of it is probably that i don't drink nearly enough water or excercise anymore. I used to drink over a gallon a day, i think that flushed my system pretty well. Then add in all the toxins in the form of alcohol and nicotine and it starts to make sense.

Depression certainly does alter perceptions and distort reality..

 

[dysfunctional]

Loss of hair, facial hair the ones you'll only pray you could keep.
Loss of appetite, completely out of phase no routine. I'll take breakfast standing and walking around.
Hopelessness, cant figure out what to do besides ctb.
Physically weak, sleepy, powerless, no motivation.
Emptiness and the worst is that all this leads to lazyness.

Its interesting to hear you mentioned complete loss of routine and not being able to figure out what to do. That was when I really knew something was up with me. I'd wake up in the morning and have absolutely no idea what to with the day. Everything seemed pointless and I literally forgot how I used to do certain things like clean my house, put laundry away, or get gear together to do things outside. All of this used to seem completely basic and not challenging. And yeah i started eating standing up feeling too restless to sit down but not having the clarity of how to channel the restlessness. Sucks.

 

[KatieW]

Hallucinations- yes I get auditory hallucinations. I can hear people having coversations in the distance, but can't make out the words. Apparently hallucinations are definitely a symptom of depression/bipolar. My psychiatrist said I was lucky mine aren't worse.

As far as the B.O. , i know a part of it is probably that i don't drink nearly enough water or excercise anymore. I used to drink over a gallon a day, i think that flushed my system pretty well. Then add in all the toxins in the form of alcohol and nicotine and it starts to make sense.

Depression certainly does alter perceptions and distort reality..

Can you keep off the alcohol and nicotine? the meds are enough poison. I had to.

 

[dysfunctional]

Can you keep off the alcohol and nicotine? the meds are enough poison. I had to.

Yeah I toned way back on the alcohol and switched to vaping from cigarettes. Its an improvement for sure. Frustrating though cuz i've never had a problem with alcohol before and didn't used to smoke.

 

[KatieW]

Its interesting to hear you mentioned complete loss of routine and not being able to figure out what to do. That was when I really knew something was up with me. I'd wake up in the morning and have absolutely no idea what to with the day. Everything seemed pointless and I literally forgot how I used to do certain things like clean my house, put laundry away, or get gear together to do things outside. All of this used to seem completely basic and not challenging. And yeah i started eating standing up feeling too restless to sit down but not having the clarity of how to channel the restlessness. Sucks.

After failed hanging on 7th I'm stuck with a big sister who orders me around. "Get up" "Have breakfast" "Salon". Seems better than hell for now.

 

[dysfunctional]

After failed hanging on 7th I'm stuck with a big sister who orders me around. "Get up" "Have breakfast" "Salon". Seems better than hell for now.

Yeah i can relate. I had to move back in with my parents and they pretty much tell me what to do.

 

[KatieW]

Yeah I toned way back on the alcohol and switched to vaping from cigarettes. Its an improvement for sure. Frustrating though cuz i've never had a problem with alcohol before and didn't used to smoke.

I've battled bipolar and anxiety since college - almost 20 years - it deteriorates into worse symptoms. Longer frequenter depressive episodes, stronger anxiety, etc. Hope yours turns out better. Or God help you.

 

[waived]

A complete loss of direction in both what I want and need to do.

 

[KatieW]

A complete loss of direction in both what I want and need to do.

Are you sure about ctb? I even struggle with this. :(

 

[KatieW]

You really do look wise Ms @waived :)

 

[waived]

Are you sure about ctb? I even struggle with this. :(

No, I'm not sure at all times about ctb. I was mainly referring to raising quality of life with day to day things. Sometimes I know what I have to or want to do, and it's not like the desire isn't present, but the how is scattered everywhere in my mind. It feels similar to how I imagine ocd feeling like and I'm not convinced that it isn't related.

 

[dysfunctional]

No, I'm not sure at all times about ctb. I was mainly referring to raising quality of life with day to day things. Sometimes I know what I have to or want to do, and it's not like the desire isn't present, but the how is scattered everywhere in my mind. It feels similar to how I imagine ocd feeling like and I'm not convinced that it isn't related.

I definitely have this.

 

[KatieW]

No, I'm not sure at all times about ctb. I was mainly referring to raising quality of life with day to day things. Sometimes I know what I have to or want to do, and it's not like the desire isn't present, but the how is scattered everywhere in my mind. It feels similar to how I imagine ocd feeling like and I'm not convinced that it isn't related.

Do you [formally] work or is your career ruined like mine?

 

[waived]

Do you [formally] work or is your career ruined like mine?

It has become harder but it isn't an impossibility yet. It has definitely made stability impossible though.

 

[KatieW]

It has become harder but it isn't an impossibility yet. It has definitely made stability impossible though.

Yeees I miss stability - which drifts further everyday.

 

[divinized]

I can relate to the gums bleeding easily and the weight loss/gain. I believe bleeding gums when flossing/brushing your teeth is due to gingivitis. I got diagnosed with it and supposedly that's one of the symptoms. I also sleep in a mostly fetal position. It makes me feel like I have some sort of protection.

 

[crova]

I could sleep for min. 12 hours every time I go to bed [day/night cycle shifts constantly]
My personal record was 23 hours of sleep after very moderate work week, no meds, drugs, alc.

I can eat manly salty food for a couple of weeks, then switch to sugary stuff and back to salt
[I used to be 'healthy' guy exercising every day] I could eat the same food, on and on.

I'm always tired, like an engine running on fumes.
During the day hours I could suddenly become extremely sleepy and lethargic; nothing could revive me from this state for hours until
this fog vanished by itself..
My cognitive functioning, thinking patterns, planning and organizing work, problem solving, memory, logic -
One day I quit my job and never come back [now I live from savings]

I cant stand being around 'normal happy' people any more. I feel I cant look at people in the eye.

My moods can go up and down all day long trigger by irrelevant 'events' ['event' can be anything]

I hate everything about myself for years, but still not enough to kill myself long time ago!
Is it not ridiculous? ;]

 

[Chlo]

Fatigue and muscle pain are my two biggest.

 

[Grey-zone]

I actually feel great, physically, and exercise every day, buuuuut....
The oft repeated notion that this will "cure" you of malaise and disgust with the monotony of life is, like so much of what one reads, partial nonsense. I am in my late 20s, in much better condition bodily than I used to be, but I have grown tired of living for no purpose and being perpetually stuck in life. I exercise in part because I see life as pointless, and I've got nothing better to do than work my body out and feel that pain. At least if I commit suicide within the next 2 years, my body will be in shape, as if it mattered.