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Rubypie41
Experienced
- Mar 25, 2024
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Hi all,
new to the forum here and from the UK.
Who here has a physical condition that causes their suicidal thoughts?
Long story short in 2019 I developed a very rare condition called patulous eustachian tube dysfunction. This causes you to hear your own voice and breathing unbearably loud to the point where talking almost becomes impossible. I've had various surgeries over the years which haven't completely cured the problem and also introduced further issues. I have relentless clicking in my ear day and night making it difficult to concentrate or even sleep. I also have tinnitus and sharp stabbing pains from within the inner ear. It's a living nightmare to be honest, but from the outside I look completely normal.
I had a great life prior to all these ear problems but now my life is almost nothing. I've been on long term sick for just over 4 months now as things have gotten progressively worse and I barely leave the house.
If these ear problems were taken away I wouldn't have any suicidal thoughts at all, but despite trying everything (surgeries, medications, therapy etc.) nothing has helped.
Feels like I have two options, continue living battling these hell on earth or put an end to it all. The only time I feel at peace is when I do eventually fall asleep and to be honest I wish I could just fall into a deep sleep and never wake up.
Anyway, just thought I would briefly introduce myself and see if anyone else are going through anything similar.
new to the forum here and from the UK.
Who here has a physical condition that causes their suicidal thoughts?
Long story short in 2019 I developed a very rare condition called patulous eustachian tube dysfunction. This causes you to hear your own voice and breathing unbearably loud to the point where talking almost becomes impossible. I've had various surgeries over the years which haven't completely cured the problem and also introduced further issues. I have relentless clicking in my ear day and night making it difficult to concentrate or even sleep. I also have tinnitus and sharp stabbing pains from within the inner ear. It's a living nightmare to be honest, but from the outside I look completely normal.
I had a great life prior to all these ear problems but now my life is almost nothing. I've been on long term sick for just over 4 months now as things have gotten progressively worse and I barely leave the house.
If these ear problems were taken away I wouldn't have any suicidal thoughts at all, but despite trying everything (surgeries, medications, therapy etc.) nothing has helped.
Feels like I have two options, continue living battling these hell on earth or put an end to it all. The only time I feel at peace is when I do eventually fall asleep and to be honest I wish I could just fall into a deep sleep and never wake up.
Anyway, just thought I would briefly introduce myself and see if anyone else are going through anything similar.