Story Personal

[averagemachine]

I've just recently come across this place. I thought it would be a great way to talk about my experience and what led me to come to the same conclusion as most of the people here. So this is my contribution. Once my loved ones are no longer in my life, once I've given all I can give from this existence, then I will be able to sleep. I will forever be in the universe, just no longer as a conscious being. I will be the wind, and when there is no wind, i will be dust, and when there is no dust and no light, there will only be darkness for some time. But the cycle starts again. Always. A spark, that lights the depths and warms the magic that quietly brews in every void. Energy cannot be created or destroyed, just transformed or transferred. What am I even talking about? I don't know. I don't know a lot of things. The game of life is such a gamble, and I don't like gambling. I don't like it for 2 reasons: I usually lose, and; It's very complex. If I were smarter, perhaps I could gamble better, and therefore be better at life? And if I were better at life I wouldn't have a need to ctb. Maybe if I were more spiritually inept I could see the error in all my ways. I feel like I'm rambling, is that okay to do here? Oh well. I'll probably delete this later anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds so ideal to me just being able to sleep for all eternity, at least to me it could never be worth it existing in this cruel and uncertain world where chance unfortunately determines everything. Existing is something that is certainly harmful because of all the risks involved and such a thing as existing just leads to unnecessary suffering. But anyway, I hope that you eventually find what you are searching for.