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wanttogetonthebus

wanttogetonthebus

chronically unlucky
Nov 27, 2021
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As time goes on, our atoms in our bodies get replaced and our molecular structure slowly changes... we can look back at ourselves in time and realize we're not the same person we were. Whether we were an infant without enough developed brain matter to understand ourselves or we had a healthy body uncorrupted by serious disease. That cute happy giggling baby is now dead, and here you are taking it's place. Those people in the past ("you") who led up to who you are right now, they're dead 😳 You're not them anymore. You don't feel or think exactly the same as that past version of 'yourself'. You can remember things like events and recollections of feelings (and we don't even remember everything. What did you eat for dinner 57 days ago? Just because you don't "remember" doesn't mean it didn't take place. It might as well not even be your memory since only the old you who isn't the current you would remember...) but you can't go back into that previous state and be that person exactly, embody everything they were physically and mentally. It's almost like each increment of you over time is a descendant of the previous one who dies. Slightly altered each moment passing down the memories and physicality of one's previous existence with such subtle differences that it creates the illusion of a single stream of consciousness. A blur where we can't tell where one moment of us began and where it ended.
So perhaps our final "death" will just be the last in a long stream of continuous deaths. 🤔 All I can say is that if we're constantly 'dying' while living, we're generally not scared of it the way we get worked up about CTB. I think it has to do with our level of awareness. Death at the end for everyone is a clear concept that we anticipate. But dying all the time. I think we're just so accustomed to it, we don't give it much thought.
 
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