The idea to duct tape my mouth crossed my mind. But then I remembered vividly puking toasts of nutella & crunchy peanut butter so violently that it came out of my nose. The hard peanut chunks were painful to remove. I'd probably drown in vomit or have it come out if my eyes' tear duct if I raped my mouth. Or blow my brains... Vomit shut gun. Nope. I'm actually worried. Just crying increase the pressure in my head...
Why is SN too scary? So hard to find the dark side of SN here... I'm scared too but don't know what I should fear
The cranium is inextensible and the bone is 1cm thick and the hole of the bottom side of the cranium is only a place for the spinal column and for canals containing cerebrospinal fluid. So, I think that if I taped my face (except my nose) and gone unconscious during OD, my vomit would stop in my mouth and going a little in the nose canal.
And, in addition, we have to notice that while under a central nervous system depressant and while being unconscious, some primary body function shut down (Breathing and having the reflex to cough, seeking to evacuate).
So, I think that, I would vomit, vomit would stay in mouth (with little of it going to nose) and junction between trachea and osophagus. Because the body could still breath a little, vomit will go into lungs and I would die with asphyxia peacefully.
This is the scenario that may happen I guess
SN is scary for me because of heart racing, the taste, the fact that there's no moments where the body calm down except when fainting..
And, turning blue really scares me
And you ? Why SN looks not that bad for you ?
Were my explanations enough good to make you think that we could improve ctb with OD ? Because, I know that people are honest while talking about reliable or not reliable methods, but the fact that we always read things that make us think that we can never die on Pills OD is bothering me.
When you read news, deaths reports or scientifical studies, there's a lot of death involving Benzo, Opio, Psychostimulants, OTC...
Okay, there's also data that shows that death is more frenquently happening when a cocktails is made (different pills, + alcohol), when there's health problems, when there's enough time to not save someone, when a lethal dose for many pills is combined and so on..
I'm just tired to hear that only SN is considered as reliable here, tired to see that N is the unobtainable (or really hard to get) perfection and that others method could be so hard to obtain or do (hanging, firearm, exit bag..)
I'm sure that, if OD, + tape + drowning (taking a bath while OD) for exemple, I'm sure that this could be a peaceful method and an easiest one to acces to,
Don't you think so ?
I'm feeling like I'm fucked up reading thoughts about ctb with drugs OD because this is the way I want to leave