Discussion people who ctb

[dontwannadie]

do you guys find it sinister and creepy stumbling across a user who isn't here with us anymore? i go through threads on my free time and i see people discussing how and when they'll ctb then i end up clicking their profile and seeing no recent posts or anything. idk it makes me feel weak in the knees knowing that there's so many dead people on here

 

[randomguy101]

I don't. Maybe because i am not afraid of death anymore.

 

[Rena rossy]

I sometimes think "it would have been nice to meet them before" but I don't feel scared nor anything else

 

[MysticPerception]

I feel sadness not fear. I recognize a lot of the users that are crossed out from my time while I was lurking. I see them and think oh no they already...? I at least hope they found peace. I honestly want to cry sometimes depending on who I see. It hurts knowing there are people you know you could have been friends with and seeing that they exited the building before you got a chance to even say hi. I just hope I can meet some of them after I die if there is something like that waiting for us.

 

[Final Escape]

No I just get a feeling of sadness bc they were once here and now they are not. Some may have had a horrible ctb too and that goes through my mind. Some I knew only very little but I really liked their postings and miss them a lot. Death sucks bc it's difficult to understand even though it's obvious what happens. Seems unfair.

 

[MrOptions]

Those that CTB already are free from the torments of this life. They are experiencing the next journey after this life.

 

[dandan]

Not really, for me I know I attempted it twice, and have N in my fridge, i was ready too, and i feel a person feeling as bad as i was , has my permission or i agree it's better to leave.

 

[xBrialesana]

It can be haunting for a moment, but then i remember that they accomplished what they needed to do, and now they are in no more pain. Sad that this world brought them there, but at least they have relief.
The same way that we try and make ourselves feel better when we put an animal down. It's so so sad but we know they aren't suffering anymore.

 

[dontwannadie]

Not really, for me I know I attempted it twice, and have N in my fridge, i was ready too, and i feel a person feeling as bad as i was , has my permission or i agree it's better to leave.

i hope you can find peace no matter what it takes

 

[nonamegirl]

In a sick way I would be glad. They have found their peace and succeded in what they had choosen. Their pain is over.

I'm on another forum where people who are suffering terrible conditions/illnesses say they will kill themselves, and they have thought this through, and yet they keep coming back.......it makes me sad in a way, cause it makes it so apparent that suicide is FREAKING HARD even for the worst sufferes in the world.......and I don't want it to be hard dammit! :( Yeah I'm real sick for thinking like that, but those are my thoughts. I am so envious of those who just do it, without much thought.......just hang up the rope and poof, done! Damn I Wish I had that spontaneity.

 

[dontwannadie]

In a sick way I would be glad. They have found their peace and succeded in what they had choosen. Their pain is over.

I'm on another forum where people who are suffering terrible conditions/illnesses say they will kill themselves, and they have thought this through, and yet they keep coming back.......it makes me sad in a way, cause it makes it so apparent that suicide is FREAKING HARD even for the worst sufferes in the world.......and I don't want it to be hard dammit! :( Yeah I'm real sick for thinking like that, but those are my thoughts. I am so envious of those who just do it, without much thought.......just hang up the rope and poof, done! Damn I Wish I had that spontaneity.

i understand. that really made me see suicide in a better light i guess but i hope you can get thru everything that's going on in ur life. hopefully you can find peace soon

 

[Quarky00]

Their posts are still here . Wonderful people . Nothing sinister just sad - selfishly , and hopeful - they found peace .

 

[nonamegirl]

i understand. that really made me see suicide in a better light i guess but i hope you can get thru everything that's going on in ur life. hopefully you can find peace soon

The only way I'll find true peace is through death, I'm afraid, but thank you.

 

[dontwannadie]

The only way I'll find true peace is through death, I'm afraid, but thank you.

what exactly are you afraid of?

 

[nonamegirl]

what exactly are you afraid of?

Failing, that it will be painful to do it, Just dying in general. Humans survival instinct is hard to bypass.

 

[Carina]

It's only sad sometimes when you see posts/names when you remember them and their posts. But at the same time it serves as a memorial to them as they will at least be remembered by people who knew them before, and even people after can see and maybe learn something from them, and maybe even be touched by them.

And really, it may let people who plan on ctb-ing realize that they too will be remembered, even if no one in their life would.

 

[dontwannadie]

Failing, that it will be painful to do it, Just dying in general.

maybe you should research methods that have a low failing rate. i seen a lot of people on her talking about SN but i also heard that it's hard to get too so idk

 

[nonamegirl]

maybe you should research methods that have a low failing rate. i seen a lot of people on her talking about SN but i also heard that it's hard to get too so idk

It's not too hard, but it is too risky imo. Some have stated it's a painful way to go. N really seems to be the only option that meets my criteria.

 

[Grandexit]

do you guys find it sinister and creepy stumbling across a user who isn't here with us anymore? i go through threads on my free time and i see people discussing how and when they'll ctb then i end up clicking their profile and seeing no recent posts or anything. idk it makes me feel weak in the knees knowing that there's so many dead people on here

this isn't a website for cooking enthusiasts or people who knit for a hobby..... the subject matter is slanted towards a certain objective..... I don't understand what you're expecting to find here. Maybe you want that reddit site where people post looking for pity and platitudes?

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Maybe you want that reddit site where people post looking for pity and platitudes?

I'm new here, but i still also get the feeling that SS has a lot of these people. I'm not sure what qualifies exactly as "suicide discussion" but many threads in this subforum IMO should be moved to off-topic, or recovery.

I think a lot of people are in a phase of suicidal ideation - not yet at the planning stage, and that's where I see the mismatch with SS. I agree that Reddit's r/suicidewatch is a much better fit for these folks - more activity, quicker responses, etc.

Not to say SS can't provide empathy and compassion as well, but i do think it's intended for a different purpose....

 

[Despondent]

I don't fear, it just makes me sad. Life is so shitty that people feel like they have to escape from it because they don't see it getting better. It's very sad to me, especially because when you read their posts and replies, they seem like they were very sweet. I know that they're resting peacefully with no regret.

 

[HereToday]

Everyone is so desensitised to death on here. I definitely find it sad and a little morbid to see so many posts, knowing that person is now dead and I didn't try to stop them

 

[jgm63]

It's not too hard, but it is too risky imo. Some have stated it's a painful way to go. N really seems to be the only option that meets my criteria.

I've seen various accounts of people taking SN, from various sources.
The overall impression I get is that it is fairly peaceful.
I believe there will likely be some discomfort, but I don't believe the discomfort level is too high.
I have heard it described as being like a "bad hangover".
I believe you would go unconscious after about 20 minutes.

 

[nonamegirl]

I've seen various accounts of people taking SN, from various sources.
The overall impression I get is that it is fairly peaceful.
I believe there will likely be some discomfort, but I don't believe the discomfort level is too high.
I have heard it described as being like a "bad hangover".
I believe you would go unconscious after about 20 minutes.

That's not good enough for me. it's not for me.

 

[jgm63]

That's not good enough for me. it's not for me.

ok, sure. Just want to give a balanced view, so we don't spread the wrong information to others reading this thread....

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I'm new here, but i still also get the feeling that SS has a lot of these people. I'm not sure what qualifies exactly as "suicide discussion" but many threads in this subforum IMO should be moved to off-topic, or recovery.

I think a lot of people are in a phase of suicidal ideation - not yet at the planning stage, and that's where I see the mismatch with SS. I agree that Reddit's r/suicidewatch is a much better fit for these folks - more activity, quicker responses, etc.

Not to say SS can't provide empathy and compassion as well, but i do think it's intended for a different purpose....

I think many of us live with suicidality and for me, it ebbs and flows.

When I came here, I was counting days.
After lurking a while, I felt better and was able to step back a bit.
A bit later than that, I registered to try and help others.

To ctb or not is their decision, but they deserve support for their choices.

That's why some of us are here without an immediate plan.

 

[S1mpleme]

There are much more alive people in here that want to and probably will CTB.

 

[dandan]

I don't. Maybe because i am not afraid of death anymore.

LoL. Or the total opposite?
Afraid of death? or afraid of life?
afraid of continuing to live life in a bad state , with a possible bad future. There's something to be afraid of.

 

[Mizzmini45]

I'm more jealous. I guess they are successful and I'm still here for now. I guess that's the sick side of me idk. Hopefully by the end year my name will be crossed off to

 

[imagineit]

Yes I find it super strange actually. I stopped posting on forums like ages ago and so when I first starting looking at this site I was reading about methods and it all seemed fairly casual. Some morbid moments like videos and some imagery is a little haunting like someone taking a picture of their rope in their closet. But then I stumble into all these past goodbye threads and seeing it actively occurring it is some kind of something. People seem very genuine and welcoming around here though so it is a unique experience from my perspective. I have felt like commenting but have refrained because I do not know these people but have seen their posts and it is all very sad And nice at the same time. Hard to express these ideas sufficiently but I think I get it.