People ignore me now. When I am dead, I wonder if that will change?

[rebelsue]

I am that person who gets ignored...in group chats, in live discussions, etc. I create things and people react with "meh" after I spend a month perfecting it. I say a joke, people don't laugh. I make a suggestion, nobody says thanks. I make a comment, it goes by unnoticed. I ask a question, nobody answers me. I post online, nobody replies.

I wonder, if once I CTB, people will still ignore me, or if they will suddenly dig through the archives of everything I ever said to them, looking for signs of how they could have predicted this and prevented it? Or because they know I've been suicidal for a long time, if they will sigh and say it was inevitable and move on with their lives? Will they finally listen to all my songs, which have been on the internet and freely available to listen to for over a decade? Just waiting for someone to give a fuck? I started taking videos down because it was embarrassing to have videos sitting out there of myself heart-felt playing songs I've written and have only 20 views...most of which are from me checking how many views I have. The only comment I got from anyone was "You look anxious and nervous, like you're hoping you're doing well during the performance." Yes, that's accurate. Why is that a shortcoming? I'm a human being, not a puppet. I guess I'm sorry not all musicians are Hollywood quality??? Get over yourselves and your snobby music opinions. Listen to a real person for a damn change.

Why do I care so much what people think? Because I'm a human being. Being liked = surviving as far as humans go because we are tribal. The next time someone says I should stop caring about what people think of me, I am going to slap them. I'm going to ask them why I should stop caring about surviving. They don't want me to be suicidal, they want me to love my life. Well, I'm trying. Being liked and accepted by others would help me not be suicidal. And then they turn around and ignore me. And when I CTB, they may continue to ignore me...at least that would be honest. But some might turn around and say they wish they could have done something. Well..they could have. Listen to my songs. Care about what I have to say. Laugh at my jokes. Stop ignoring me. Answer my questions. Make me realize I am not invisible. You have that chance while I'm still here.

 

[mpnf]

Usually that happened to me too several times. People are just shitty and they think they are the last coke on earth, when they're not.

What you have to do about yourself is not giving a fuck about what they think. I'm going to recommend you a very good book that in the past it for a short time made me feel really good about life , myself and everything.

Your Erroneous Zones.
W. Wayne Dyer, for me that man was amazing for writing such a fantastic book. It seems he is talking to you directly and it's really nice. To make it work, try to focus on yourself and put it into practice to actually start feeling better.

Remember you are the most important person in your world. Don't be too hard on yourself to the point you regret it and there's no return.
❤

 

[rebelsue]

Usually that happened to me too several times. People are just shitty and they think they are the last coke on earth, when they're not.

What you have to do about yourself is not giving a fuck about what they think. I'm going to recommend you a very good book that in the past it for a short time made me feel really good about life , myself and everything.

Your Erroneous Zones.
W. Wayne Dyer, for me that man was amazing for writing such a fantastic book. It seems he is talking to you directly and it's really nice. To make it work, try to focus on yourself and put it into practice to actually start feeling better.

Remember you are the most important person in your world. Don't be too hard on yourself to the point you regret it and there's no return.
❤

Wayne Dyer is the original self help con-artist. He is a performer. He does it well. That's why you think he's writing directly to you. I can't stand that whole bullshit self help industry. They make gobs of money off of hurting people. I don't know if this makes you think differently of me, but it's the truth. I guess I'm glad he helped you though -- even a broken clock shows the right time twice a day.

I get that I'm supposed to not care what others think, and not be too hard on myself. But it would be really really nice if people would just care about me so I wouldn't have to work so hard lying to myself that they do just to feel better and get through life.

 

[Arrow]

i get ignored all the time IRL. now i have like 1 in-person friend. as a kid no one gave a fuck about me and now i'm a teen and its still the same shit. i know exactly how you feel.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Are you a sociable person? If yes then you seem to be around a particularly bad set of people – or I am around particularly good set of people. Because I really had to put in a lot of work until people started ignoring me.
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And I'm a recluse black-belt ghosting master.

 

[Arrow]

And I'm a recluse black-belt ghosting master.

wtf u have a black belt that's cool

 

[a.n.kirillov]

wtf u have a black belt that's cool

Yes but only in ignoring people
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I can make my phone stop ringing just by looking at it.

 

[Arrow]

Yes but only in ignoring people

i can't think of a funny response

 

[Lilmeowssi]

Ah yeah.. sounds very familiar. People ignore me all the time. No matter if it's at a family's gathering, back then in school or else where. I've learned to keep things to myself because I've realized that whenever I tell people something they don't care! All they wanna hear from me are compliments and other things they're benefiting off.

I'm sorry nobody pays attention to your music. Could you maybe tell me the name of one of your songs so I could check them out if they're still up?

 

[xBrialesana]

This is why I always wished I was more religious and believed in something. (Even when I was like 5) I was so curious to watch what happened after I died.

Honestly, as selfish as this is, I just imagine scoffing at the people who did this to me pretending to care. Whatever. I'm over it. Just waiting for my broken bones to heal so I can gtfo out of this hell

 

[rebelsue]

Ah yeah.. sounds very familiar. People ignore me all the time. No matter if it's at a family's gathering, back then in school or else where. I've learned to keep things to myself because I've realized that whenever I tell people something they don't care! All they wanna hear from me are compliments and other things they're benefiting off.

I'm sorry nobody pays attention to your music. Could you maybe tell me the name of one of your songs so I could check them out if they're still up? ❤

I do appreciate that. I didn't really mean for people here to listen. I know you guys understand. I actually don't want to give away my identity on here and sharing my music would definitely do that.

 

[xalltoowell]

This is why I want no funeral or memorial service of any kind. I don't want people who didn't care about me when I was alive to pretend that they care so much that I'm gone.

 

[NoSentimentality]

The world owes you nothing.
You owe the world nothing.

 

[rebelsue]

The world owes you nothing.
You owe the world nothing.

That may be true but it would be nice if I had the bare minimum of what other people have in terms of love and attention. Would be nice.

 

[Tintypographer]

Sometimes I want to be left alone. I have a job where everyone wants me to be on a call or do stuff. All the time. I look at my day and it's 14 hours of conference calls and explaining crap. Sometimes I think about how refreshing it will be to CTB and leave them to do their own damn thinking and problem solving. I know they can do it, it's just easier to have someone else do it for them.

I don't worry about being ignored, I pray for a moment of time to read or think.

 

[NoSentimentality]

That may be true but it would be nice if I had the bare minimum of what other people have in terms of love and attention. Would be nice.

If any of our desires would be fulfilled, we'd be pleased.
The world isn't fair (according to your standards for the simple reason that you as a person did not set the standard.)

However reality is this; Suffering is the Universal currency in this life, & we are eternally shackled in the shadows of perfection; it's always insufficient (altough we can to some degree change that with our own perception.)

It comes down to this; You make a decision, weigh both sides; If it's worth the trouble to live, or not.


Also, I know what you mean.

 

[Ardesevent]

I wish more people would understand that decision.
Anything else at all be a lot better than the 'oh no, why would they ever do this' spiel. It was pretty obvious this was how I was going to end up, with how I acted. Anyone who says otherwise is either an idiot or saying it out of obligation.
But it would make me happy to have one person cry real tears at the fact that I'm dead. It's selfish, but it means someone really did care about me.

 

[NoSentimentality]

I wish more people would understand that decision.
Anything else at all be a lot better than the 'oh no, why would they ever do this' spiel. It was pretty obvious this was how I was going to end up, with how I acted. Anyone who says otherwise is either an idiot or saying it out of obligation.
But it would make me happy to have one person cry real tears at the fact that I'm dead. It's selfish, but it means someone really did care about me.

"People" usually believes what they want to believe, consciously or not.
They're also often limited to their own subjective understanding -it's crucial to understand the limitations of the masses when speaking generally.
Meaning, they can rarely put themselves mentally in that position, in other words the catchphrase of every emo teenager on this planet "They just don't understand"..
Younglings contain more wisdom than most are aware of, themselves included.

Another reason is that 90% are bitching about it, & aren't even serious about it, solely desire attention & enjoy complaining.
So they grow tired, & it's their way of saying "stfu" but in a nice way -just in case one were serious about it, or because of social factors.

It is what it is. How would it matter to you when you're dead? (As far as you know now anyways.)