beforeyougo
Member
- Sep 24, 2020
- 19
Tonight a family member said, "I'm going to be checking in twice a day. If you neglect to reply, I'll be on the road coming your way. I won't let you try again, you mean too much to me."
To which I replied, "Shit.."
It didn't end well, as you might expect from my response. I'm just honestly so ready to float among the stars, but everyone around me is filling the air with love, and care, and positivity, and strength, and it's starting to piss me off. I don't want your support, I want to die. I want this all to be over and done with so that I don't have to live with this pain anymore. It feels so foreign to be so negative and resistant when all people want is the best for you, are willing to fight for you, and would be destroyed by your death. Yet.. I'm emotionless and numb. I can't reciprocate their emotions and support. There's nothing good left to live for people, just let me go in peace.
//end.rant
To which I replied, "Shit.."
It didn't end well, as you might expect from my response. I'm just honestly so ready to float among the stars, but everyone around me is filling the air with love, and care, and positivity, and strength, and it's starting to piss me off. I don't want your support, I want to die. I want this all to be over and done with so that I don't have to live with this pain anymore. It feels so foreign to be so negative and resistant when all people want is the best for you, are willing to fight for you, and would be destroyed by your death. Yet.. I'm emotionless and numb. I can't reciprocate their emotions and support. There's nothing good left to live for people, just let me go in peace.
//end.rant